Poetry and music, art and literature, philosophy and foreign languages, history and travel. These are my main interests. I write poems in English, Spanish and Polish, but I also know a couple of other languages on different levels. My philosophy is that of 19th century's Romanticism and existentialism. My personal values are: freedom, justice, wisdom, intellect, inner strength and charismatic personality. I therefore truly appreciate charisma in other people.
I find myself attracted to all things dark and I would describe my sense of aesthetics as sublime Gothic, rather in the direction of mystery and melancholy than horror, yet still based in the grotesque. I like dramatic and powerful tones in music; in art - well defined lines and colours, strong contrasts, abstract ideas, dark landscapes; in literature I am into Gothic novel; criminal, adventure, historical fiction novel and novellas. I like horror movies, crime investigation documentaries, criminal fiction and superheroes, historical movies - especially those with some Gothic threads to them, and period drama in which I appreciate mostly the costumes and culture of the past centuries.
I often feel like being out of place; it is as if I was born in the wrong times. I feel like I do not belong in this world. I have always been perceived as different, misfit, outsider, socially awkward, whatever names it can be called. I was either avoided or severely bullied by others. I was even tested for mental disorders and I was found perfectly sane, so it must have been my personality that people somehow sensed and they did not like nor understand it, so they despised me or even hated me for who I am. I had a traumatic childhood and even more difficult youth - I have always felt much older than my age would suggest... I would say, an old soul in a young creature like myself seems to be due to life experiences but I do not believe we are but products of circumstances. On the contrary, I believe we are already born with certain traits and predispositions; our personality does not develop in later life and our experiences do not influence it at all, but they merely reveal it, allowing us to discover who we are. The time we realise that, is not the time of change - people do not change. It is simply when we become aware of our real self that was hidden before; it is when we begin to understand our way of thinking, our abilities and our limits, our motivations and our fears, our longings, our feelings and our true identity. This is like awakening but it is not sudden; it happens gradually, as we grow into it. I am 25 and I know exactly who I am, and I love it the way it is. I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world.
