Someone asked me this once: "What defines you?"
Now, when I heard that question a great smile sprung to my lips. Just asking that question alone conjures up a thousand descriptions. Such a simple question, yet it springs to mind complex meanings, provoked thoughts and a reevaluation of oneself.
I'm sure you may want to know what my answer was and so now I tell you: 'I define me.'
To know me further is to understand the basic concept of good manners and respect. I hold these to things very highly in regards to interacting with others. Diplomacy and reasonable logic whilst maintaining an open mind are tools that I use whenever I invest my time into getting to know someone. I enjoy learning about other people, because us Humans, are fantastically entertaining!
I respect all aspects of the Gods. I hold most high the faith that I have in Fate. For she gives us choices to make, not destiny, but choices. She presents us with these choices and if we make the wrong choice, then she simply places us on a path to make further choices. Along the way, she gives us signs or adjusts our attunement to let us know we are on the right path.
I strongly believe in True Will, for it is within our Will that gives us that true freedom, a freedom to expand our knowledge of the spiritual or even grow our knowledge of the mortalisms of everyday life. As I am gifted (or cursed, sometimes depending on the day) Human, I often look past the mortalisims to know of that which is of the Beyond.
To see and feel the Beyond is a one way to experience the Resipiscence and there are those that will do anything possible or even attempt the impossible for that desire to -want- to do better.
Cryptic I may be, but there is an absolute reason for everything and I uphold that there are absolute reasons as to everything I do, say or experience. Life is what we make it. Life is where we exist and to go Beyond that existence, we must expand our Life to accept that of which we can not visibly see.
I am a true Observer and notice every way a person speaks or types, how they adjust their appearance, the way they move or not move and even have trained my ears to pick up every hitched breath. These are the things that can indicate a truth or lack of it and these are the things that are often overlooked and ignored. It is within these details of which I clearly can see the All.
You might be curious as to what I had meant before... when I stated that I am a gifted/cursed human. I am a high level Empath. Now, before you ask: I am unavailable to star in your parlour show. Though, I can offer a disposal service... now now not -that- kind of service! Amazing how many services can be offered especially when there are no physical boundaries.
Now, I do hope that what I have told you thus far, doesn't weaken your courage to approach me. I can assure you that I am very well behaved and do not tread where I am not wanted. I mean, it is really rude to ride another's vibrations without asking first, right? ;)
Astral Projection is what I consider the best method of transportation. Not only does it save on gas, but it actually saves on time... no more figuring out what to wear!
The encompassing aura as your companion, lifting and spiraling to wherever you are pulled or wherever your purpose might be. The adventure is truly a wonderful thing! The emotional concoction that wraps the spirit in a comforting sense of awareness. The ebb and flow of lucity, tensions fade into disappearance and great knowledge can be obtained.
Though one must always be careful, because as with the mortal plane, there can be a lot of just as questionable projections out there.
I know that by now I have composed many words and now I feel I must admit to you that I have a fetish for words. The obscure, the archane, the unheard are the types of words that lure me the most and so I rescue them from the many books of references I have collected over the years. Knowing these types of words creates a foundation for building our skills to better communicate with others. When we exchange our words, we learn. When we put effort into our words, we understand. And when we understand, then we claim that much more of our freedoms.
Oh, I say! This is fun isn't it? Now, what could you be ready to know now, I wonder. My favorite colour is blue. My eyes are deep brown. I'm quite short at a staggering height of 5'3. My hair is long and brunette and is clean most days.
I sometimes go through a period of Abulia. I sometimes crave intensity and will go to extreme lengths just to be able to experience it, I suppose I am a sensualist in that regard. Is it something I enjoy? Most certainly!
Other things I enjoy are: Witty and banterous conversations with Psi-Vamps, the ones that truly are, not the ones claiming to be. Actually, I enjoy all witty and banterous conversations, as long as the other party involved does not leave their wit and banter behind, for that would be very disappointing and not as entertaining.
I enjoy expanding my limits. Not overcoming them, but to heighten further in other possible ways to attain that feeling of organic intensity. To take a limit to expansion not only makes the lingering longer as it also contributes to one's ability to think outside the box. And I find that deliciously alluring.
I am a highly spiritual person, and so it is only natural for me to experience Acedia. I try to maintain that during this period, I use the time wisely to learn as to why Acedia sometimes plaques me. It is something that I adjust for improvement. Afterall, I am only Human so I am predisposed to stumble within many follies.
I prefer an Arcadian style life. The simple, the rustic often affords me to concentrate on the things of which my Will is inspired.
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What I see in you is what I can see as forever.
What you see in me is what you can feel forever.
What we see together is what we see in each other.
The perfect union formed, free flow of exchanging energies where there are no words that can be shared in expression. The pull, the tug, the finger not quite placed right, the mystery is something of which I can not resist.
I know another cryptic bit; however, as I said, I do absolutely everything with careful reason.
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Conjuration
Circumlocution billows smoke;
Conjuring idolatrous affections;
Through tohubohu, I collide.
If you could get inside my head;
You'd understand.
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Again, another purposefully put cryptic message.
If you have gotten this far into reading my profile then I am of course, utterly flattered. Now here is your reward for your effort:
I am flirty and playful, though I won't engage in cyber as I find it too common. Though what I will engage in is a wonderfully intoxicating conversation, peppered with light perversions and delightful insights.
I can be extreme with certain intentions, though I am always aware of the consequences.
I am inquisitive and thoughtful, considerate and sometimes often too literal. I feel old when I wake from the hold of slumber. I grow tired easily if around too many people. I relax with mediation after when I enjoy a simple cup of hot tea.
People. Too many in a single span of time takes me days to restore myself. The constant unintentional vibrational energies that they just throw out. Understandably so, I realise that they do not know what they do; however, I wish they would get a clue!
I know that it is really up to me to ground and shield; yet I can get ahead of myself without thinking, because I can not yield!
First encounters are always the tricky ones. Too much caution and it creates stalemate. Not enough caution and it creates something of which could be very well held against you later.
Perhaps an Indigo child, no not me surely. Otherkin... perhaps, but still I often question. I often use questions and reasoning to deter aspects of myself. I have never had the incentive to continually work on grounding and shielding. Yes, I know it is greatly needed, especially for the likes of me; however, it's always been a fleeting detail -for me-.
So, I often try to remedy such through my writings. A way in which the memories that I contain no matter the reason or rhyme still need to be told. Perhaps, what I remember so will another. A web yet to be weaved perhaps.
I used to live with a Chaos Mage and there are two weeks of my life that I still to this day, can not remember. Have I ever felt a need to delve back into those memories, to try to reclaim them? Nay, I haven't. Why? Because, if it was Fated for me to have remembered, then I easily would have. Perhaps this is what Fate may put into my path at a later date or in a later Life. As of now, I only know that putting this puzzle together is within the Great Work of my life.
Mind bending, twisting, provoking thoughts certainly can add that sense of allurement of which tempts the very core.
My duty of care does not include the hansardization of others. It is certainly not within my scope to change the opinions of others, just to simply unlock the gate to open the path from the Philodox.
My words and tone may be of sawder; however, every single word is expressed with intent to desarcinate that which is incredibly difficult to do so alone.
Based on the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator test, I am a INTJ personality. Which seems to be one of the rarest types, about 1-4% of the population.
INTJ Most of the traits are true to me; however, I am an empath, so sometimes there is a confliction with rationality and emotion. It's a very tight rope under my shuffling feet!
I adore eutrapely and admire jannockery in others.
I enjoy conation, as well as causerie which foundates as to why I am a Sapiosexual.
Motjuste not only sounds beautiful when it rolls off the tongue, but it is something of which I hold highly whenever I express myself. Often this is something that I wait with baited breath for others to understand.
Nay, I shall not let your parting be without the following. I do hope that it makes you ponder with an excited wonder.
Fear is failure and the forerunner of failure:
be thou therefore without fear, for in the heart of the coward Virtue abideth not. Pass thou on! --The Temple of Solomon the King, in The Equinox I(3) 1910.
