Hi!
yeah I know I sound really depressed, but don't worry because i'm not. I don't get along with anyone in my family except for my sister. My parents both grew up without caring parents, so neither of them really know how to be close to me and my sister. My dad yells alot, so basically, as crazy as it sounds I usually sit up in a pine tree all night. on avarage I get 3 hours of sleep in a night. My family is completely falling apart, so if I sound kindof distant for the next few months, thats probably why
My life is officially a soap opera
My grandpa died 5 years ago, and everything went down hill from there. He was always so kind and patient. I was a rebel when i was young, kind of like i am now. he always told my mom not to lose her temper with me, and to let me figure out life for myself. that worked, for a while. He always took care of my grandma, and loved her, not like she returned the emotion. he even put up with all of her obsessive tendencies, which everyone on my mom's side have. once he died my mom was left to deal with my grandma, who is legally blind with meculair. Its not like she tried to be nice to my mother when he died, she was exactally the opposite. she had only married him for his money, and managed to spend all of his life savings on fancy fur coats and leather shoes. did i mention that they eloped?or that i have several half-aunts from her previous marrige that i found out about recently? she was never happy, ever. she would always complain that she was in the way, which she was, but then she would bug my mom on how no one would ever talkwith her or keep her company, even though she eats dinner at our house practically every night. my dad hates her , and keeps trying to convince her that shes not welcome and that she should be in a nursing home ,but that only makes her more stubborn to stay. my dad has been treatening my mom with a divorce, and now my moms on the verge of becoming an alcoholic. my dad isn't even really helping my mom deal with her. hes not even a very good dad. he never hugs my mom when she comes home from work, he never asks her how her day was. he usually only talks to us when he's critisizing us. He's never hurt us or anything, but can't you abuse someone just as affectivily with words?
anyway, now my grandma is really depressed, and eventhough i absoultely loathe her, i still love her , and feel really guilty because she's never been happy.
yeah, thats only part of my soap opera, mabey i'll post the rest someother time.
I have the awesomest friends ever, there the only reason I haven't run away yet
Bella is a fellow vampire fan, and swears that she will find a way to kidnapp edward, even if he is fictional.
Heather is a phantom of the opera fan and she's usually mad at Bella and I because we obsess over Edward and Ash while she prefers Erik, jasper and james.
Bella is also a member! she just joined!
her name is DarkestTwilght!
My other friends , Meisha and Nina, are also pretty cool. Nina is a psycic vampire, like me , and Meisha is a white witch. i've been studying wicca for a while, but haven't been initiated yet. I found out that I was a psycic vampire when I unknowingly caused miesha to pass out, and Nina started laughing at me. I can't stand to be around depressed people because its not much fun to absorb negative energy. this is something I still don't understand completely.....
I have serious trust issues when it comes to friends. mostly because i've been betrayed one to many times by trustworthy people. add me to your friends list, i'll add you to mine, but that doesn't mean we are friends:(
i don't like people who claim that they are something they are not:(
My favorite authors are P.C. Cast, Stephanie meyer and L.J. Smith
My favorite singers are Avril Lavigne, Panic! at the Disco and Paramore.
Favorite songs are "I Write sins not trageties" "Best Damn thing" and "Crush, Crush , Crush" in that order, although its pretty close
I love writing poetry in my free time and might try to get some of it published eventually. Some of it is in my journal if you'd like to read it. one warning, I never siad i was any good at writing, just that i enjoy it, so please don't complain if you think is horrible :(
I am working on writing a really cool book called "Blood Rose"
I'm only on the fourth chapter out of 30, and i've completely plotted out my own fantasy world. It consists of Jealous vampires, overprotective wizards, devious dragons , stalking elves and an innocent girl who finds that ignorance is bliss.
My views of how people treat me, and eachother:
My books are basically based off of my own personal reality. To some people my reality is fantasy, but to me, your life is merely fiction. I hate it when adults tell you that your too young to understand, or that your wrong. i may be only 13, but i've seen alot so far, just enough for my opinions to count. I know for a fact that there is something missing in my life, and i won't settle for 'this is the way you must live' because i know there is something more. does this make any sense to you? probably not, but its the way my mind works.
that paragraph in short, don't treat me like a kid because i'm only 13,I understand a lot more than you'd expect me to.
I hate it when men disrespect women. my dad is pretty cruel to my mom, which really ticks me off. I don't understand why most of the male population see us as almost slaves. it wasn't that long ago that we didn't have many rights. women are live wolves. we cannot be caged, you can beat us, you can shackle us, but you cannot tame us, our spirit roams free. We are feirce , loyal to our families and brave.
we are smart and cunning, not to mention more mature in most cases, I'm sick and tired of some men seeing us as less. We are just as strong as anybody else. I'm not saying all guys are like that, but my dad was sure dissapointed that he had two daugters.
thats just something to think about
Thats pretty much a good look inside my head, So talk to me if you'd like
alot of that was pretty random, but its my life so....
yeah
if you have any complaints about my profile, then just say so, i'll change it around
don't treat me like a kid because i'm only thirteen, I only respect people who try to respect me.
I'd love to hear from you and if you put me on your friends list i'd like to add you to mine, so please PM me.
ttfn,
NightGurl :)
or Kyrie
whichever u perfer
