IM NOT HERE LOOKING FOR ANY SYMPATHY! i know that my quote is about my daughter that i lost. but i know that she is in a good place. i know that she is safe. and that is all that any mother could ask for. is for her kids to be safe. and i know that my daughter is watching over me. so please NO SYPMATHY! I have got enough of that since i lost her :(
body modification is my addiction. i have over 21 pericings, and 3 tattoo's with more and many more to come out of both :)
I am not your average person. nor will i ever claim to be either. I have heart that torn and tattered and beaten. my heart wants so badly to love, but cant because of the trecherous past that i have suffered through.
My life has never been easy since the day i poped out. i have gone through many trials and tribulations in my life, most of which no one will ever know because they are to painful... painful to the point where they are blur even to to me because i have blocked them out.
but through everything in my life, the darkness has been one thing that has never changed. the darkness is somewhere i can run to, and know that i have a safe place to be.
I dont trust people easy, so be warned now. I wont tell you my whole life story, because you dont need to know it. Over the short time of my young life, i learned that trust has to be earned, and not given. same with respect.
More about me:
-Im a mom. (just because my daughter isnt alive, doesnt make me any less of a mom then someone who does have their kids)
-I play the bass guitar in my spare time.
-I was brought into this hell of a life on December 10th, 1993.
-I have two friends, and one has been there for me since the first day of Preschool. The second one has been there for since the first day i met her back in 2010.
-I lost my other on October 2nd, 2009 to a house fire.
-On christmas eve of 2009, i lost my brother. he was really sick, and he called me, i ignored the call... and regret ever doing that. His last words to me were "Im so sorry, I love you" and then i hear the heart rate machine go dead.
-I lost my Grandfather on February 23rd, 2003. so thats a day you dont mess with me..
-I live in a place full of whores, fakes, and prissy bitches.
-I am bisexual, and carry my pride everywhere i go
-Im set to graduate High school on June 7th, 2012
-might be going to college, dont know yet.
In my journal, you will find the most inner and deep thoughts of me. but also in there, you will find my story of how i lost the most important person in my life. My daughter. Beware, the story is grafic, and a lot is left to imagination. but i posted my story, to speak out for those who never had the chance.
i also want everyone to know, that i am here. i am eyes and ears wide open. if you need someone to go to and vent, i am your girl. you have me here for you, on your side.
if you leave a comment on journal about my story, feel free. just please, no comments telling me how stupid i was. because i have heard that from people before. but i decided to speak up, and have a voice for people out there that are to afraid. so even if you dont have the same story as me, or one like it, but you have a friend and they need someone to understand and talk to, then tell them that they can reach me on here or at Facebook:
http://www.facebook.com/MrynasaurMASSIQURE
i will answer any questions that anyone has, or i will just be here for someone that needs a shoulder to cry on.
ALL THAT IS TOLD ME, WILL REMAIN SECRET. IT WILL STAY BETWEEN ME AND THE PERSON THAT SHARES THEIR STORIES!!!
More info:
likes:
=music
=being in love
=being loved
=talking to new people
=being alone
=drawing
=playing my bass
=reading
=writing
dislikes:
=liars
=people that abuse others
=drama
=country
=hip hop
=pop
=fakes
=people that act stupid when they actully are rele smart
