About Me
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Im intelligent, funny, fun to be around, Im loud and outspoken, Im as honest as they come, I can be a little disturbed and intense. I like to read, write stories or poems of all kinds, I like to listen to music, I love going to the movies to see the newest horror movie, Im usually online everyday,Im a great cook whether is dinner or dessert my motto is cant have one with out the other one. Im very serious and mature most of the time but I love to just kick back and watch some Spongebob or Family Guy, hell I still the old episodes of Scooby Doo even though Ive seen them a million times. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Poetry
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The Last Time
This will be the last time I think about you. The last time I will let you get under my skin. This is the last time you will ever hurt me. Im moving on, yes you heard me. Im moving on, Im done. Done with this life Ive made for myself, the life that revolves around you. You mean nothing to me, you are nothing. You only exsist to hurt people, to take from them what you want and then you throw them away. Well guess what its my turn to throw you away, Im going to do what shouldve been done so long ago. Just think of it as a favor from me to you. Just take a break from your daily scum sucking ways and maybe you will grow into a person. You will see that life can be so much better if you let someone come to you and give themselves to you. I however will not be this person because Ive thrown you away. You no longer will cross my mind, nor will your name cross my crimson lips ever again. This is the last time you will hear from me, so I say goodbye and good luck. I hope for your sake that you do grow some sort of human emotion. And for the last time goodbye.
Dont Know
Slowly slipping belief there is more than what is seen, cluttered dreams bound between words cut split the seam, inside of me I cannot see where to go I know. This life not mine, my plan living another motionless unlike time, the page is changed day to day nothing here no need to stay, inside of me I cannot see where to go I know. Letting go my path shown swept away internal peace, inside of me I cannot see where to go I don't know
Almost
I’ll miss you not at all you know, When on spring morn the lilac bloom, When in summer heaven’s eye shines at it hottest point at noon, When in autumn evening winds shake leaves yellow and red, When winter’s cold send me shivering to a warm and early bed. And when adorned in silver hair and wrinkled face, I set my pen to paper; I’ll miss you even more. But what could I do? After all, it was you who shut the door. I’ll miss you not at all you know, When on spring morn the lilac bloom, When in summer heaven’s eye shines hottest in the early afternoon, When in autumn evening winds shake leaves yellow and red, When winter’s cold send me shivering to a warm and early bed. And when adorned in silver hair and wrinkled face, I set my pen to paper; I’ll miss you even more. But what could I do? After all, it was you who shut the door.
Save Me
I was once lost on a cloud? My wings swam through blue oceans of light, ice in my vains from love lost and love gained. I return to earth to search my remains but all was lost because nobody came.Now years pass and only the sky cries from being alone. I don`t think I will close my eyes ever again for fear all of this will disappear. My act was not chose for me but the play gose on, one day I will remember what the world is about... then we can move on. You see love has vicious plans for you and I...come see the end.
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Lyrics
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"Tourniquet"
i tried to kill the pain
but only brought more
i lay dying
and i'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal
i'm dying, praying, bleeding and screaming
am i too lost to be saved
am i too lost?
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
do you remember me
lost for so long
will you be on the other side
or will you forget me
i'm dying, praying, bleeding and screaming
am i too lost to be saved
am i too lost?
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
i want to die!!!
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my wounds cry for the grave
my soul cries for deliverance
will i be denied Christ
tourniquet
my suicide
"My Last Breath"
hold on to me love
you know i can't stay long
all i wanted to say was i love you and i'm not afraid
can you hear me?
can you feel me in your arms?
holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
sweet raptured light it ends here tonight
i'll miss the winter
a world of fragile things
look for me in the white forest
hiding in a hollow tree (come find me)
i know you hear me
i can taste it in your tears
holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
sweet raptured light it ends here tonight
closing your eyes to disappear
you pray your dreams will leave you here
but still you wake and know the truth
no one's there
say goodnight
don't be afraid
calling me calling me as you fade to black
holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
sweet raptured light it ends here tonight
"A.D.I.D.A.S"
Honestly, somehow it always seems that I'm dreaming of
something I can never be
It dosen't bother me, 'cause I will always be that pimp I see
in all of my fantasies
I don't know your fucking name.
So what? Let's. . .
Screwin' may be the only way that I can truly be free
from my fucked up reality
so I dream and stroke it harder, 'cause its so fun to see my
face staring back at me
I don't know your fucking name.
So what? Let's fuck.
All Day I Dream About Sex
All Day I Dream About fuckin'
[chorus]
"Freak On A Leash"
Something takes a part of me.
Something lost and never seen.
Everytime I start to believe,
Something's raped and taken from me... from me.
Life's got to always be messing with me. (You wanna see the light)
Can't they chill and let me be free? (So do I)
Can't I take away all this pain. (You wanna see the light)
I try to every night, all in vain... in vain.
Sometimes I cannot take this place.
Sometimes it's my life I can't taste.
Sometimes I cannot feel my face.
You'll never see me fall from grace
Something takes a part of me.
You and I were meant to be.
A cheap fuck for me to lay
Something takes a part of me.
Feeling like a freak on a leash. (You wanna see the light)
Feeling like I have no release. (So do I)
How many times have I felt diseased? (You wanna see the light)
Nothing in my life is free... is free
Chorus
Boom na da mmm dum na ema
Da boom na da mmm dum na ema
GO!
So...fight! something on the... dum na ema
Fight...some things they fight
So...something on the... dum na ema
Fight...some things they fight
Fight...something of the... dum na ema
No...some things they fight
Fight...something of the... dum na ema
Fight...some things they fight
[Chorus]
Part of me...
Oh...
"Change (In the House of Flies)"
I've watched you change
Into a fly
I looked away
You were on fire
I watched a change
In you
It's like you never
Had wings
Now you feel
So Alive
I've watched you change
I took you home
Set you on the glass
I pulled off your wings
Then I laughed
I watched a change
In you
It's like you never
Had wings
Now you feel
So alive
I've watched you change
It's like you never
Had wings ahhh ahh ahhh
I look at the cross
Then I look away
Give you the gun
Blow me away
I've watched a change
In you
It's like you never
Had wings
Now you feel
So Alive
I've watched you change.
Now you feel Alive
You Feel Alive
I've watched you change
It's like you never
Had wings ahhh ahh ahhh
"Minerva"
I get all...numb
When she sings it's over
Such a strange numb
And it brings my knees to the earth
And God bless you all
For the song you saved us...
You're the same...numb
When you sing it's over
Such a strange numb
It could bring back peace to the earth
So God bless you all
For the song you saved us...oh...
For the hearts you break, everytime you moan...
I get all...numb
We're the same numb
And it brings our knees to the earth
So God bless you all
For the song you saved us..oh...
For the hearts you break, everytime you moan
And God bless you all on the earth...
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Quizzes
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SELENE: You are selene!
Beautiful, vivacious,
fierce and seductive, Selene vowed she would
destroy Lycans after her family was murdered by
the werewolves. So ruthless is she that selene
is a member of the Death Dealers. This elite
Vampire warrior class's mission is to make the
Lycans extinct.
Ever wish you could be a
vampire?
Which UNDERWORLD character are you?
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You are the super human transgenic Max Guavera from
the show Dark Angel. Max was created to be the
perfect soldier, but when she escaped at the
age of twelve from a secrect facility she did
everything in her power to lead a normal life,
but Max could never seem to outrun the friendly
folks at Manticore...
WHICH KICK ASS FEMALE ARE YOU????????
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Your French name is
~Triste~
which means 'sad'.
You are disapointed in life and wish there was a
way to fix it. Life has no meaning to you and
you can't enjoy it. You have not quite given up
hope, however...
DRAGON
You are the dragon. A dragon,
in western lore, is a giant lizard with wings.
It usually has the capability to breathe fire.
The dragon symbolizes immense power, physical
strength, and courage. The dragon has also been
a symbol of wisdom and of protection. Dragons
may also appear to be greedy as many a tale
depict them as keepers of vast hordes of
treasure.
Which mythical creature resides in your soul? (11 Results + Pictures)
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Your beauty lies in your despair.
The sad girl walks by herself on a rainy day.
How graceful she moves. Her pain has made her
beautiful. Others say to themselves as you
walk by. How can they not see that you are
beautiful? Because you are.
Your motive:
To feel happiness just once before you die.
Your quote:
Stranger, hold me for a while.
Your colors:
Deep red and black.
Your song:
Fields of Innocence by Evanescence
"Where has my heart gone? I want to go back
to beliving in everything."
Please rate and message me.
Where do You Find Your Beauty? (Gorgeous Pictures and Touching Results)
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You're crazy! YAY!
Now, if the world had more people like you, we'd be
cultivating chocolate and the ozone would be a
thing of the past.
^_^ Have a nice day.
Insanity Test
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u r a dark angel.
u r depressed most of the time and u r evil. (me:
ur like me)
ru an angel,devil,dark angel,or nothing? (with anime pics for most of the results.)
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Your element is Darkness. You are the truly evil
one with a black heart and no soul. People
avoid you since you cause so much trouble and
enjoy seeing others in pain. You would like
nothing more than to rule this earth and be
hailed by all. Everyone is annoying and stupid
anyway and are a waste of oxygen. You are
probably a cast-away from society and family
and have had a tough life where you learned to
live the hard way. Now you want revenge on your
pain and can no longer feel love nor care. You
do not wish to befriend anyone and you
certainly do not wish to be in love. As a
student of having learnt everything the hard
way, you tend to be manipulative when you want
something for yourself. In your head there is
only you that matters, and why shouldn't it? No
one cares about you so why should you? In
school you probably ditch classes and go
somewhere else instead of sitting in a
classroom. It is not that you are stupid,
because you're probably very smart, but
everyone annoy you. And having to sit in the
same room, breathing the same air as your
enemies is not desired by you. Rate and
message!
What is your element? [with pics + detailed answeres]
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The Goddess of Water and Anger. You are a reclusive
loner . Always wary and deliberate, once youve
got a friendship, its for life and you are
exceptionally considerate. You are a serene
beauty.
Which gorgeous goddess are you? For girls! (breath taking pics!)
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Your wise quote is: "Fashion is a
form of ugliness so intolerable that we have to
alter it every six months" by Oscar
Wilde.You are a very sarcastic person with a
sharp tongue. You may not be the one always
talking, but your mind is nevertheless
critizing. You tend to have a cynical view on
life itself and be somewhat withdrawn with who
you really are. Society now is in your eyes
corrupted and you wonder how the world will
survive. And people are in your mind very
ignorant and blind to the reality.
What wise quote fits you? [pics]
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Your a Dark Angel...and hey, you probably knew it.
Dark angel are in truth, very malicious, but a
sign of one also is very sad. Dark Angel all
used to be pure angels, but something went very
wrong with their life. Either it was the
sudden, murder of a loved one, betrayl, or pure
torture to them, dark angels have commited
their life to Satan himself. They are silent,
and their wings are dark black feathers, or
blood red. Dark Angels appear when there is
someone dying, or a murder. If you see one, it
means the death of a loved one is expected.
Dark Angels cannot actually harm a human, but
they love to see the suffering of one.
What Kind of ANGEL are you? (For Girls only) This Quiz has amazingly Beautiful Pictures!
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You are a Gypsy Warrior!
Color: Orange
Animal:Phoenix
Stone: Mandarin Garnet
Element: Fire
Rebellious has your name all over it! You are very
righteous and try to persuade others to follow
your lead. You have a zero tolerance for mean
people of idiots and like to be heard. You have
a temper and know how to fight. If fighting
for what you truly belive in, you will dominate
the battlefield. You don't need magic to help
you and would rather use a cutlass. You
probably have many friends at school and are
most likely into music. Your boyfriend should
match your personality but also should help you
realize that sometimes you should just relax
and go with the flow. Please
cough...rate...cough and eat lemons
Which Ultimate Warrior are you? (Breath-taking pics and lenghty results!)
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EVIL VAMPIRESS- sadly your inner vampire has full
control over you, you like nothing but death,
blood and hatred...it's not your fault
either...that's just the way you are...you NEED
blood and you love to tourcher humans...some
may call your heartless but they don't
understand it could have something to do with
your past...
What kind of Vampiress would you be? { pics}.
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Take the quiz: "Which vampire from the Vampire Chronicles By Anne Rice are you?"
Akasha
You are Akasha. Damn, you are one evil bitch. Akasha is the self-proclaimed Queen of the Damned, and the Mother of all Vampires. She and the her king were created by an evil spirit that flew into their wounded bodies, and made them blood drinkers, though she lives in denial, because she was once worshipped in Egypt. After a 6000 year sleep, Akasha awakened by Lestat, wreaks havoc and hell, and attempts to establish her reign as Queen over all, but is eventually destroyed by Mekare, and the core of the vampires is stolen from her
Take the quiz: "What is your Paranormal gift?"
Phantomism
Ooohh.. Spirits and ghosts capture your attention? Going through walls, things passing through you.. how else to freak others out when they try to shake your hand? Of corse, you may feel invisable at times if you've let things pass through you too much and may just want something to touch or hurt you. Try not to let that happen and live a little, you Phantom.
You are the Dark Mother. Beautiful, dark,
protecting, you are the grace of the night. You
keep safe the newly turned and guide them
through their first dark days.
What Fictional Vampire Archtype are You?
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Take the quiz: "What Kind Of Morbid Are You?(Pics+Plz Rate)"
Psycho Morbid
Your biggest dream is to kill. It's on your mind 24/7. Everything reminds you of murder. You're a modern day Jack The Ripper.
How evil are you?
Your mate is SEETH. The leader. His hair is medium
in length and jet black in color. He has
piercing violet eyes that make him
irresistible. He is very muscular. He is
dominant, sarcastic, and very sadistic. He
enjoys teasing his mate. He is fairly
possessive, but refuses to admit it. His girl
has to be defiant and sarcastic, playful and
aggressive. He wants his girl to be a quick
thinker because with him as a mate, she'll need
to respond quickly. A strong girl would be
excellent for him, some one who can take and
enjoy fair amounts of pain. He loves
domineering women because he loves challenges.
Seeth is a Scorpio from Romania. He is the
eldest and strongest of the group. Seeth's red
and black feathered wings are usually withdrawn
into his back for he has no use for them except
for flight. He is sly and sneaky and can coax
you into anything he wants to. He has a tattoo
of a black scorpion on his hip close to his
thigh area. If you are on his good side, he can
be your best friend, however, if on his bad
side, he is not a force to be reckoned with. He
is dangerous and deadly to EVERYTHING that
stands in his way. Seeth's animal form is that
of a midnight black fox. As long as you love
and continue to defy him, he, in return, will
love his mate. He will never break your heart
and stand by you for all eternity.
Which Of MY Vampires Is Your Mate? brought to you by Quizilla
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*ATTENTION* With numerous messages about too many quizzes I have moved most of them into my journal into the personal enteries part. Please stop threatening me now. Thankz
Gabriella
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