I am about 5'3. My favorite movies are Underworld, Van Helsing, and Buffy The Vampire Slayer! I love to write poetry just burning my feelings on paper! I have really low self esteem and am very shy but love to talk just afraid they'll judge after they get to kno me! I write kinda on the dark side, I love reading them too! I am a laid back chick who is just so fed up with so much shit yet don't have the guts to say a word.... I live in silence! I have a few close friends but mostly im just that girl ppl whisper about down the hall ways! I appear as a preppy bitch but in reality my soul is broken and my heart is cold! Most ppl say "I Have A Gothic Soul" but i hate the whole labeling deal! I'm just me and if thats not enough for you than thats ur problem not mine! I used to sit in my room and cry because i was so outcasted even by my own family but now i see tears won't change a thing!!! I wouldn't say "O my life is sooo bad, nobody even knows or feels wht im feeling"! Cuz its just not true many ppl are not perfect and do not have a so called dream life.
I've been battling anorexia for about 3 months now, its hard... I've been cutting on and off since 4th grade.... also i've been abused for about ten years and its not getting any better!!! Pll say with time... with time remember time heals everything!!! Not so....or at least in my life!!!
I am not perfect but i've come to terms with that and i've stopped tryin to change myself.... its just not worth it..... after like 8 years i kinda just gave up!!!!
My favorite colors are blue, black, and pink
My passions are writing poems/ lyrics, drawing and singing
I like a variety of music some are: Evanescence, Within Temptation, Flyleaf, Nickelback, Linkin Park, 2Pac, Eminem, 50 Cent, Ciara, Christina Aguilera, Mariah Carey, Taylor Swift, and Rascal Flatts
Some movies that I also really like are Blade and Ultra Violet
Pretty much anything wicked and out of this world is my kinda movie!!!
I am 17
I am shy and have very low self esteem (thou most say I’m hott and gorgeous, I just don’t see it…. When I look in the mirror it’s like that reflection is a stranger and is slowly fading from reality itself)
I love to PARTY, and have a good time!!!
I also enjoy looking at the stars, gazing at the moon, and listening to the oceans tide hit the shore…. I do have fantasies and some of those include: making out under a waterfall, and cuddling on a sandy beach watching the sun go down in the arms of my everything!
I am single thou my last relationship was 3 months ago prier to being diagnosed with anorexia…. He kinda just left me bc of who i was! Anyway I hate it when people judge or label others its just not right… well at least not in my eyes!!
*-Britani-*
One of my all time favorite songs that i absolutely love is "Angels" by Within Temptation and these are the lyrics:
* Sparkling angel I believed
you were my saviour in my time of need.
Blinded by faith I couldn't hear
all the whispers, the warnings so clear.
I see the angels,
I'll lead them to your door.
There's no escape now,
no mercy no more.
No remorse cause I still remember
the smile when you tore me apart.
Chorus:
You took my heart,
deceived me right from the start.
You showed me dreams,
I wished they'd turn into real.
You broke your promise and made me realize.
It was all just a lie.
Sparkling angel, I couldn't see
your dark intentions, your feelings for me.
Fallen angel, tell me why?
What is the reason, the thorn in your eye?
I see the angels,
I'll lead them to your door
There's no escape now
no mercy no more
No remorse cause I still remember
the smile when you tore me apart
Chorus:
You took my heart,
deceived me right from the start.
You showed me dreams,
I wished they'd turn into real.
You broke the promise and made me realize.
It was all just a lie.
Could have been forever
Now we have reached the end
this world may have failed you
it doesnt give you reason why.
You could have chosen a different path in life.
The smile when you tore me apart.
You took my heart,
deceived me right from the start.
You showed me dreams,
I wished they'd turn into real.
You broke the promise and made me realize.
It was all just a lie.
Could have been forever
Now we have reached the end *
This song is sooo true and probably everyone has or have had a (Sparkling Angel) in their life!!! I just love how it starts off so slow than slowly picks up that rock vibe!!!!!!
