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For as long as I can remember, I haven't felt normal. I don't have many friends as they just don't understand me, I'm "too weird", i come from a small town in Scotland and there isn't many open minded people that live here. I cant help the way blood makes me feel, Just the sight, smell... the taste, Its one of the only things that makes me feel whole again. Everyone looks down on me, whenever someone gets close to me and i feel i can tell them everything, they stab me in the back, call me a freak and run from me. I'm hoping that here I can find some normality and feel accepted,

I wish to find friends that share some of my beliefs and wont look at me with horrified eyes, I want to be who I am but no one allows me to be this way. If possible I would like to find a donor too as because of where I'm from I haven't been able to find anyone that would even think of giving such a precious thing, either that their so good at hiding themselves that I cant find them, I feel like madness is slowly gripping me and as of five years ago I started feeding myself, Which i know you should never do, but what other choice do I have? I cant go around feeding off random people, Ive even asked butchers for animal blood, I'm only greeted with the same look of horror as if I'm some kind of monster... I'm becoming lost in my own thirst and I need help.

I Just feel lost