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I am not your typical........hmmmmmm, Goth? Vampire? Wolf in the guise of a person? None of these descriptions suits me. I feel I identify with demon hunters most. People who changed themselves to be able to become better for the challenges they faced. But it coming at a cost.
Theres always a cost huh? Some catch, for me it was time energy. My life itself. This isnt something you learn then move on. It's a lifelong dedication. To becoming something more then what you were when you started. To change not only your body but your mind and spirit. Nothing worth having is free. So what have you sacrificed? I sacrificed who I was to become who I am. It's why I identify with Demon hunters.
I think most people identify with something beyond the norm. They feel it mirrors them in some way. But no matter what I am me, I workout I am in the final phase of becoming a personal trainer. I am at 190lbs and soon will be over 210lbs. I like being being in shape. There is nothing like walking down the street and having people move out of the way. I am an asshole but I'm honest about who I am. Soon I will be leaving this place. And when I do I will be heading to California, I was able to reconnect with someone I have had feelings for for a very long time. How do I know these are real feelings? I have had them 12+ years. And I almost blew it but I have a 2nd chance to show Immortalxkiss how I feel and I'm not wasting it. I can be nice or a nightmare. It's how you treat me that dictates how i treat you.
I love industrial music and metal, I enjoy concerts good food and going out. I also like spending nights in just relaxing. Sometimes we need to stop and just be. To unify with what's around us and enjoy the little things like a bunny hopping along, the art on a headstone. The sound of the rain. I don't give 2 shits about rates. To be concerned about if people like me or not is beneath me. I only care about my own opinion, And if I am with someone hers to, Sometimes hers is priority.
Now you may read this and go this guy is a egotistical asshole. That simply is not true. Let me explain something to you. I was a bouncer and bartender in New Orleans. You know the place famous for vampires. I was pure goth, long hair eyeliner, leather trench and huge. I would take full kegs and set them on the bar, not to show off, well mostly not to show off. When I did that people would be docile and not cause problems. Well when katrina hit I lost everything. All my clothes all my possessions, even my dog. So I moved to New England, I met a girl and we got married. She was a redheaded goth punk. Well in 2018 we broke up. I again lost everything due to circumstances. Now I was forced to start over again. I had devoted myself to her and her kids. Losing my own identity in the process. I was dad and stepdad. I was no longer someone I enjoyed being but rather a person I had to be. I decided to go back to school. I had lost my size and dreaded the thought of working a minimum wage job, so I thought long and hard about what I could do and settled on personal training. So here I am. Forgive me if I come off to strong. I have earned every inch and every pound through hard work sweat and blood. I have earned the right to have my outlook. Now I come here mainly to spend time in the company of people who share the same mindset and tastes as I do.
Ever laughed during a decapitation? Or eaten pizza during an evisceration during a horror movie?
I love sci-fi and horror movies also a good action flick. Anyways take care