'Allo, my lovies & haters.
The name i was given at birth is Charlotte Claire, however, i do not like nor use that name. I prefer to be called Charlie and or Apple; A nickname given to me because you can always find me eating one. I'm currently sixteen and three quarters plus a little bit. (; Born Febuary 8th, 1993. I can be a bitch, like everybody else and choose to be one most of the time but all in all i really am a sweetheart. I'm apprently Bi-polar and no, That is -not- an excuse for me to be a cunt. I will not take shit from anybody. I will not stand for anybody's whiney emo crap. Attention seekers can go elsewhere with thier problems, for i will -not- give a flying fuck. Unless, of course.. i know you and you -are- my friend, only then will i care or on the rare occasions i'm in a good mood and won't mind listening to what a stranger has to say. I've recently lost a lot of important people in my life and will forever long for them to come back. My best friend, or so i thought backstabed/betrayed me and will never be welcome back into my life with a smile ever again. Oh well, you loose some you gain some. Which of course i -did- gain some. Three to be exact. Ashley, Bree and Maddy. For the record, if you are reading this.. I am not an attention seeker. It says to describe/write about myself and so i am, to mostly [ Keyword ] every last detail. Honestly, i am depressed and have been for quite some time now. The death of my boyfriend was what started it, being betrayed by Coral added even more hurt. Thomas crushed the pieces of my heart that remained. But let this be known, anyone willing to hurt me in any way will have one hell of a time. Coral's life is practically ruined thanks to yours truely, Thomas lost his 'other' girlfriend; someone who he was actually starting to love. And, well my parents.. they have to deal with their cars & other belongings being stolen as well as me [ ♥ ] making their life as hard as possible. Yes, i have cut and attempted suicide BUT i found cutting does nothing more than add pain and cause more harm to my body and as for suicide i realize it's not worth it. You only have one life, live it to the fullest. Something goes horribly wrong,, mourn and then move on. Don't look back, it'll only make it worse. I will probably -never- get over the death of Isaac, he meant literally EVERYTHING to me but i will remain strong and not give in to the tempting lust of the blade.
With that being said, i will move on to happier things. Random, is me. I'm quiet and shy in person & in public places but Ashley knows i can be loud and outgoing. I'm weird and just a tad fucked in the head. I'm a bit on the sadomasocist side. More of a night owl than a.. whatever the hell a morning person is called. Rainbows are my thing and i wear as much colour as possible...except for my clothes. My clothes are strictly black and or dark colours. My accesory's on the other hand are all different colours. I dye my hair a lot, currently it's black and red. Last week or so it was green and brown. Chocolate mint cookies are what inspired that combo. Next colours are violet and possibly a black base, again. My natural hair colour is a chestnut brown. Being Native my skin is a tad on the darker side of the skin tones but i still look pale compared to my friends. My eyes are a honey brown colour, sometimes in the light you can see little cresents of green around the pupil. No doubt from my mother. I am a virgin, mmn'. It's not that i'm scared to have some sexy time, though i admit i would be if i were in the situation. It's more on the lines of nobody WANTING to have sexy time with me. o_O; And, also because i don't do casual sex. ;x If i ever do, i would like it to be with someone i love not a complete stranger.
I don't believe in Gods/Godesses or any religion. What I DO believe in is evolution, but don't get me wrong i do and will respect anothers religion and customs. I am Bi-sexual, i have had a few girlfriends and i loved it. I don't judge on your sexual orientation so, i expect the same from you. You respect me and you SHALL get respect back. I don't care if you're Gay, Lesbian or transgendered. I love everyone as equals until i see that you're not worthy of my attention. :] I do support gay marriage and, think it's absolutly WONDERFUL that same sexes get married without fear, that's how it SHOULD be. I'll crubstomp any plonker that i see mentioning thier distastes in my pres[c?]ence. ♥ Same goes for race, i DON'T care about it. Sure, i crack some jokes but i don't mean it, Charlie is only playing. ]:
Yea, i'm chubby. Can't help it.. I likes food. >;|
If you don't like it, GTFO.
And, yea that concludes half of my life.. i cba[ can't be arsed ] to write anymore.
P.s
- I'm not emo, i'm just me. =]
- ADD ME AS A FRIEND.
HolyPolarbearcawk. I can't keep up with all the comments. D:
" In a crooked little town, Charlie was lost and never found. "
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It's hard enough to
Be breaking down
But it's worse
When no one notices.
&& the thing is ;;
we are all a little damaged.
some of us hide it better than others,
but on some level we are all torn up.
we take it out on others &&
beat through life carrying it all&& we will end up damaging someone else.
&& most of the time we wont' even notice,
or bother to care because we are busy
with our own little disaster.
&& that my friends, is what we call life.
