Well endowed goth girl, practicing witch, lover of horror, and firm believer in the supernatural. Here out of curiosity and to make friends. If you'd like to know more about me, then keep reading.
I'm from a small town in Kentucky, born and raised. I haven't ever been very far from home. In some ways I like my familiar settings, and in some ways I feel kinda trapped by them.
I've always been different and have never fit in with the small town Christian people here. I've always known and been drawn to the darker side of things. I was psychically sensitive since birth. I could always feel the energy radiating off of people, and be able to tell how close they were to me based on how strong the energy felt. I can also see auras if I focus in and am not interrupted. Also, I can pick up on who a person truly is; the soul that they keep guarded. Just being in their presence gives me an idea of how they really are, and if they touch me or I get to look into their eyes, the soul becomes clearer. For this reason, I don't give alot of eye contact. Sometimes I don't wanna know. I'm also an empath and a mind reader. I pick up on every emotion of the people around me, whether I want to or not. I don't know how to control it or how to tone it down. And if I'm being honest, I'm not sure I want to be able to shut it down. It gives me insight to the environment around me, so I'm never caught off guard. I have major trust issues, but that's a different story of its own. It is very draining though to be so hyper-aware of what everyone is thinking and feeling around me. By the end of the day I'm usually exhausted, whether or not I've had a busy day. But I'm used to it at this point.
The supernatural has always been a huge part of my life. I grew up in an extremely haunted house. Almost every kind of paranormal occurrence you can think of happened out there. We had things move across tables on their own, voices with no physical origin, ufo sightings, a possible crypted in the trees surrounding the property at one time, shadow people, missing time occurances, the lights and electronics going crazy, you name it. I'm not sure what is wrong with that land out there, but I firmly believe it's cursed. And it's definitely the land and not the house. Before my family bought the land, it was part of a large field. They grew corn and tobacco on it for many years. My dad cleared the land and built our house brand new from the ground up. No house had ever sat there till we built ours. The things that happened out there are unbelievable and sound crazy, but they are 100% true. If y'all want to hear more, I'm slowly telling my story on my YouTube channel. Here's the link: https://youtube.com/@bloodymary693?si=dys1tcuDAN4zyXnl
Aside from that, I'm also a practicing witch. I started my journey 3 years ago, in 2020. I grew up in a Christian family, and always knew God was real, but I never found a home in the church. I've been to lots of churches from all denominations, and they all showed me the same things. First, they made God out to be this distant, unreachable, unknowable presence that we should fear and never expect to get close to. Second, that all my natural, God given gifts were evil and that I should repent for something I didn't do. And third, all the people who go to church are self- righteous, arrogant, and hate filled. Since I knew exactly how everyone was thinking about and feeling about our family, I'd always come away from church depressed and feeling very lonely. We didn't fit in to the clique they had, so we weren't welcome, no matter what they said out loud. Me and my brother would over hear gossip from the other kids that they had heard from their parents, and it was never anything good. I think they knew, on some level, that we were very different, just for the fact that we could pick up on things others can't. These gifts run in my family, and people can sense that on an unconscious level without ever being told what we can do. The unknown scares people. Anyway, I never liked the vibe I got from any of those people or churches. I felt like God was everywhere and in everything. He's not some unreachable force, He's all around us. So, through a series of events far too long to tell here, I found witchcraft as a way to work hand in hand with God, and I've never felt closer to Him. I'm an eclectic Christian witch, still in the broom closet to those close to me. I don't need to hear the whole "you're going to Hell" speech, so in real life I keep it to myself. But I feel comfortable sharing online because I have my screen name to hide behind.
I'm also an amimal lover. I have 3 cats, 3 dogs, and 2 snakes. I'm also an animist. I believe firmly that all living being have a spirit. I have 2 dogs who've passed into heaven, but I know I'll see them again one day. My animals are my babies, and I will hurt a bitch over them. I'm a mama, just not to anything human right now.
I'm extremely loyal to those I consider family, and they don't have to be blood to be my family. I'm protective and loving to those I care about, and can also be a cold hearted bitch when the need arises. I love music and to sing. I love reading and studying about the craft. I also like reading in general, though I don't have alot of time for it anymore. I do nail art and know how to build my own nails, all self taught. I crochet as well. I do have depression and anxiety, and go through periods where I don't wanna do anything or talk to anyone. I have major trust issues and am not easy to get close to. I can be a smart ass. I have a big attitude, and that can be either good or bad depending on the situation. I'm a jewelry collector and book hoarder. I can't think of anything else right now that's important, so I'll leave it there. Nice to meet y'all and hopefully some of y'all can put up with me. :)
