General and outlook on life
Hello my darkest love and twin soul, Perhaps if you are reading this then you are one part of the the same eternal and boundless soul that I belong to. Perhaps you too are a part of the night, the moon, the darkness. Perhaps you shall become a beloved friend? Or maybe... maybe, I am setting my hopes to high. It is most probable that to you I am simply an image, a username, and the very limited writing that you have so far read. I doubt that you know my deepest secrets or how I work. Hell I doubt that you even know my true name. Yet maybe someday you will learn all this and more, that is if I have not scared you away yet. If you like what you read then I challenge you to approach me, if you dare. To begin with I am a mere womenchild of the young age of 19. I am still captivated by the smallest of things including coloring books, dolls, shooting stars, hopes, dreams, and the idea of happiness. Additionally, one of my greatest loves are my two kittens. They are nearing one year old and are some of the most gentle and loving spirits I have ever met. In fact one of my lovely boys, Spencer, is currently "perched" on my shoulder watching as his mother types. On the other hand I am a women and quickly taking my place among the ranks of adults throughout the world. I am very ambitious, driven, and there are few things that I am truly clueless about. I have seen many things that most people could never even dream of. I have buried my own mother, I have seen first hand what addiction does, I have felt alone, I have wanted to die, I have been left friendless with no one on this Earth, I have woken up each day just waiting to go back to sleep, yet I have overcome all of these struggles and more. I have the childish hope to conquer the world and the grownup drive and knowledge to do so.
I am the girl who dresses in black, with sparkly eyeshadow, blasting Crass, loving Rozz Williams, speaking for Anarchy, cheering for my school, improving the world, living it up every weekend , running away from the past, living for the future, and just being me. I am an open book full of riddles, a soul looking for a better place, a poet, an artist, a human constantly looking for mysteries, a woman who has seen to much heartache to allow herself to see love and romance as anything more then trick of of the mind meant to further the human race, I am the girl you will hate to love, or perhaps love to hate. I am me and nothing else.
I am a graduate and current college student who is dual majoring in Psychology and Sociology. My long term goal is to work as a Forensic Psychologist or to deal with abnormal psychology.
LIKES
The rain
Kissing in the Rain
Dancing in the rain
Fucking
Being bitten on the neck
Being bitten anywhere
Kissing
Blood
The feel of nails on my back
The idea of laying on a bed of nails
Or in a coffin
Breathing fire
Sticking pointy objects in places they dont belong.. or do they?
Vampires
Zombies
Spirits
Ghosts
The voice inside my head
Sins... especially breaking them
Dreams
Sleep
Falling asleep with a cold pillow and blanket
Things that eat you
Things that will cuddle with you
Feeling safe
Feeling loved
Knowing that regardless of how I feel tommorow will be a new day
Originality
Self expression
DIY Piercings
Multicolored hair
Red eyeliner
Black lipstick
Crazy nights with my friends
Skinny dipping
Streaking
Going crazy
Crazy dares
Street racing
Watching fire burn
Freaking people out
Pushing the boundaries of whats "normal" and "acceptable"
Doing things just to show that I should never be judged
And to prove that I will never be who you want me to be
DISLIKES
My dislikes are made up of a few things that seriously irk me including needless hatred, stupidity, evangalizing, herd conformity, and prejuidice. As long as I dont have to deal with such issues, I tend to remain quite positive both in general and towards people.
MUSIC
My musical tastes are varied and range from Classical to Rock to Metal to 80's Goth most things anyone can think of, Im not very fond of Christian music or Rap though. However my favorite bands are...
Rozz Williams
The Cruxshadows
and Siouxsie and the Banshees
MOVIES
Ill watch anything in the catagories of horror, suspense, drama or comedy. However my favorite movie is...
The Labyrinth
