If only I could share just what I mean,
as I always turn my head away,
and yet it's like the darkness wont leave me alone,
I just wish you were here right next to me,
to help me break away from the tears that continiously run down my cheeks,
you don't know it but you have changed my life,
you made me more eager,
willing to change,
and ready for life,
but now I turn away to go onto my own path,
I don't know where,
and I don't know why,
but you helped me all along the way,
you try to talk but I can't see you,
I still turn in order to breath,
you just don't see it,
I can't let you go like this,
but it's impossible to change,
you left and now I'm all alone,
once again alone,
please come back so I may once again have the love I thought I've had,
somewhere sometime before,
you still teach me,
but not as much as before,
for you left and went back to before,
I don't understand I just wish you could stand,
instead of laying their,
all alone in the hospital bed,
from drugs that cought you by surprise,
yet didn't do anything about it,
why did you let it go that far,
why didn't you turn away,
why did you make me go alone,
without you again,
without love,
and without you,
come back please just come back,
so that you may see,
what you have done to me,
this lonely soul,
alone once again and ready to leave this world,
once and for all,
as he takes the blade to his wrists for the final time,
this time he will succeed,
this time is his last time,
forever he will be gone,
forever he will had loved the one who brought him to this,
forever he is alone.
Who am I,
when all I do is try to make you happy,
all I feel is what you feel inside,
it's like I take all the feelings and blend them in,
I try to hide it but it's so difficult,
it's like another life inside my own,
trying to break out,
trying to survive,
you tell me to be something else so I change,
then you tell me to go back so I do it,
I would do anything for you,
and yet it's never good enough,
I can't keep it up much longer,
I can't breath without you,
I can't feel anything anymore,
you help me to live,
but you also take me with you,
you don't have any idea what you have done to me,
you don't even know who I truely am,
now I'm not even sure if I know who I am,
it's so difficult to breath, to speak, to think,
you are my life,
and now it seems as if I am dieing,
inside myself all alone,
without oxygen to breath,
only a knife here to help me bleed,
to feel the pain that I havent felt for so long,
without you again,
my heart is so empty and I don't even know who I am,
I don't know why I feel this way like I'm all alone,
I'm afraid of a life without you,
without the love I've known for so long,
you brought me in and now your pushing me away,
telling me that I've changed too much,
even though I changed to what you want me to be,
I'm closing myself off now,
off from the world,
like I was before away from all the troubles of life,
away from all the doom and distruction,
I don't know who I am,
I may have a name but I don't know myslef,
on the inside I am blank,
without a word or a name to judge me,
without you to help,
without you te bring in the light,
I am alone, and I'm in the dark,
WHO AM I?
Bull Shit!!!
You told me you care,
yet you know it's not true,
you hurt me with every single word that comes out of your mouth,
it's not like the same thing can ever amount,
to the thing in which you said,
it's not anything like what it could have been,
you told me you loved me and you cared,
this is bullshit,
the constant lies being strung over head,
the constant fear of being beaten in bed,
while sleeping and resting my weary head,
upon a pillow made out of lead,
you cannot tell me that it's subliminal,
cuz it's criminal,
like the words that are said,
unto a new born child beaten and brusied,
because of the pain his father had been fed,
then the mother comes along and beats in his head,
then she walks away like nothing was said,
between the two people this baby is dead,
now their in prison for murder and rape,
this child wasn't even a year before she had a dick shuved in her head,
I can't believe that people are doin this,
constantly sayin they be feelin it,
the baby looked at them and they said it wanted it,
now they faces 3 felony charges,
and homoside is just the beginin of it,
you don't see what your doin till it's too late,
till the baby can't deal with it,
her head is hemerigion and it's just killin it,
you find out an hour later that she's dead,
you don't know how to deal with it,
so you take a gun to your head and start feelin it,
thinkin this is the way out for doin it,
take your own life bitch you savin us,
from another fucked up guy whose life isn't worth savin,
it's not like were cryin over you bitch,
it's the kids life I cry for,
she wasn't even able to defend herself,
you know if you go to prison they would kill your ass,
faster than the police would deal with it,
they would watch and bet on how fast you get cut their,
then they win the bets and start dealin out the pain that you caused,
for it's sorrow that made them just chill and watch your boday fly around the cell like a piece of dog shit waitin to be laid to rest in the trash again,
Fuck this shit it's bullshit get the fuck out and deal with it.
