I'm relatively new here. If you want to know how new, Skip --> to the end
I'm from Germany, so there's very little chance we can meet.
But we can meet in the realm of fantasy. This has the advantage that you can do anything with me there that you want.
I signed up here because sometimes I have a strong desire to be bitten. I thought I could find a real person interested in my blood.
However, after reading more about vampires here, I think I might be one myself.
I was never an anxious person, you could probably describe me as fearless. I was relatively small as a child and because I was also one of the youngest, I was also the smallest and weakest boy in my class (I only really grew after I was over 17 years old). Then, when a close friend from school had to repeat the class and dropped out of the class, I was an easy target for the older boys. To this day I still don't know why I had to fight with the whole class (the meanest thing was that no one individual ever attacked me) and that it was suddenly all over because all the boys stood in front of the class and had to justify themselves. And just because a teacher said it shouldn't be, the harassment was over. But maybe they were glad they had to stop because I had started taking them one at a time. Which, however, was also extremely frustrating for me because I wasn't able to hurt them when they begged for mercy.
For me, this behavior was disturbing and completely incomprehensible. I couldn't understand someone doing something they can't stand by.
Only as a grown man did I slowly realize that most people do not do something because they have decided to do it, but because "it just happened".
But the main reason for the bullying was probably why I later had difficulties with my partners: I don't care at all about the opinions of others. However, I am very interested in it. It may be extremely frustrating for others when I get them to tell me what they think - and then have no effect on me. So in the sense that I'll listen to that and comment on it, but show no tendency to conform to that opinion.
Being independent comes so naturally to me that it never occurs to me that others might feel the need to have the same opinion as I do. On the contrary, I am looking for differences and conscious boundaries.
Like everyone else, I am a social being, but I understood relatively early on that every person lives a unique life and ultimately remains essentially alone.
Nevertheless, I am still interested in the life others live.
Oh yes, I was very sensitive to light as a child and when I was in the army I even had a certificate so that I could wear sunglasses. I am often very tired during the day and only wake up in the evening. But unfortunately I usually have no more energy.
I like twilight, maybe I am crepuscular.
I am member of the Coven
in the Alliance
If you bite me, i'll be grateful to you. :-)
