DO NOT BE A HYPOCRITE, WHY DO YOU TELL ME HOW LOVING AND KIND YOU ARE WHEN YOU TALK ABOUT SOMEONE BEHIND THEIR BACK , WHY DO YOU LIE SO MUCH ABOUT EVERYTHING? WHY ARE YOUR EXPECTATIONS SO HIGH FOR SOMEONE ELSE BUT YOU SLOP AROUND WITH NO REGARD
I CANT CLAIM BEING PERFECT.... NO WAY.... BUT PEOPLE'S EGOS AND PRIDE ARE OUT OF CONTROL IN THIS DAY AND AGE.....
BUT CAN I JUST LOVE YOU THE WAY ITS SUPPOSSED TO BE?
WILL YOU LOVE ME THE WAY ITS SUPPOSSED TO BE?
CAN WE CARRY EACH OTHERS BURDENS?
WILL YOU BE THERE FOR ME WHEN I REALLY NEED YOU?
WILL I BE EVERYTHING YOU WANTED ME TO BE?
Today, she sent the servants to bathe me and feed me, I was summoned to present myself to Her. I am brought to her chambers, handcuffed, collared, and caged in a appropriate fashion...
The door is opened, I press my forehead to the floor...... Yessss, slave, come here....
i have been in this den for a few days.... She put me down here I don't know when........I am well taken care of even though I am totally naked and restrained in different ways of her choosing....... my clothes have removed and I feel a dull ache across my back and buttocks where I was flogged 2 days ago.. My jaw hurts when I turn my head. I vaguely remember being choked..When she is not using me or abusing me, other slaves bring food and ensure of my comfort. My Mistress loves me even though I am used as an object of her desires... The door clanks open, I smell her perfume, she is here... Ahhhh , ThomasX, I've missed you.... "Slaves, bring him to me..,,,,"as hands pull me to my feet, I feel the familiar desire stirring in my loins,, mmmm oh god I'm addicted to her fetish desires and control that she has on me...
I am weak.... how much blood has she drank, I don't know but I must not show fear...
The holidays are great but its too bad that we cant feel in our hearts the same sense of good purpose the rest of the year. My blood supply now is stocked to the ceiling. During the rest of the year, people are not so accommodating.... I've had to scrap for every liquid ounce of the life source... People look at me funny when I'm dumpster diving... ha ha
December 23 2016
Living on the cusp of new arrangements......
Power Exchange in reverse.. Unexpected developments...
Don't think you have tomorrow figured out.....
Paradox
Yin/Yang Principle - opposites yet interdependent. They need each other. They compliment each other. And... they cant exist without the other.
They are separate
D/s relationships (Dominance/Submission) Incredible dynamics. Its like a body of water. Going up and down... mixing with each other. The two or three .... people involved in a D/s love affair, have unique certain mindsets, time, in its tenacity, carves a new mindset for the players.... and they go around the merry go round again.
Yin and Yang are parts of a Oneness that is also equated with the Tao.
So, you seek something so much, then when it arrives at your door unexpectedly three times the anticipation,,,, better be ready
This time of year is amazing. I love the atmosphere.... I don't miss the snow though back east...
Just got to do that... just want to do that... catch the cab a few blocks over. She sits across from me glittering in the half light. We hear the sounds from here as we drive to the light it's a rush... damn we took small doses of some strain and now we be bouncing to the sound from outside.. Baby you look so deevine she says in my ear... I look down her dress is cut on the side,,,, we look dreamily in each other's eyes... she has demons eyes flashing in mine, we turn back to the doors , someone comes out, we take more strain in to our systems, she shakes her ass , temperature rises sweat, heat breeze, perfume, blood, moon, oh yes now all people here doing their thing and it's ok, we are lost in orgiastic ecstasy I have known her so I know her scent and I love it and it's mine all mine shadows shades of deep colors.. vibrating vibe vibes
We are high and zooming in on the exact beat of the music. People around us move back slightly she and I are just exploding into bliss relaxing oh so fucking happy...
Try this out it's similar https://soundcloud.com/deepsounds/hunter-siegel-waiting-up
https://soundcloud.com/jamiesheps/grinding-original-mix-click
That's the forking sound dere.. just shut the *** up about yourself and everything you think you so fine and start thinking of someone else for a change. Why don't you just get your **** together and stop acting like a **** and be a cool m****** for a change.
BE true to yourself be relaxed. wth
Hey.... What's happening? Im glad you could make it to my door... If you've come this far in VR to see my humble dwelling, then you are welcome to rest your bones by the fire...So maybe just tell me , what brings you this way? What news do you have from afar... tell me..... tell me.....
Please God tell me? Tell me are they oooooookkk
Are they ok, ok, are they okkkkkkkkkkk please GOD NO NO GOD NOOOOOOOO......
That's enough now mr. renfro, the hall nurse tells me... I think it's time we got you back into your room.... I wrest away from the nurse briefly and look back at you....
What news do you have, please tell me... You must know something, ARE THEY DEAD?...no please no
What was he yelling about? The two night watchman say to each other as the staff drag the patient away.....Oh he escaped the clutches of that poison gas attack in Lerkstvika....everyone else died from the gas. He was the only one to survive....he lived there by himself for almost 2 months alone....
I look out the large glass windows in the back of a large country home in bar over Maine... it is raining and I'm watching the trees on this property as well as the large expanse of government land behind that. I had a Virgin Mary in my hand with a taint of this medicine that took regularly for multiple personality disorder (breakThis story is fictitious ;)) But it helped as well to calm my nerves in this lonely place... from which I call my winter home..I am by myself in the large estate home..The family that lives here is dead... I killed them just now with a silencer.... I don't know what the family did, I was just paid nicely to off them.. now I'm just relaxing, enjoying the sound of the rain...the bodies still laid in the rooms I killed them in... I now had the sound system on, listening to Schubert...Oh I need not worry... I just received.25 million for this task ... I tapped my fingers to the music, lit a joint and took a few deep inhales... I sipped my juice , walking over to the veranda and liked out the large windows at the blustery dark scene...I noticed how quickly the sun sets here...it seemed less than a minute..the headbuzz of the weed she gave me was hitting me pretty hard.... I turned to check on the dog upstairs when in the distance in the trees, I saw fire spots, no they look moving, lasers pinpointing my location even in the dark from that far away, it was moving, coming this way, it was a beast, now, I could see that, impossibly fast,gaining, a very large lightning fast beast Now crashing through the large glass window right at me.... Screaaaaaaammmmm no no ....
Growling roaring ripping sounds...
I didn't make it out of the cemetery before the sun went down... shit, what the hell was the matter with me, I was fixing the electrical breaker box in the west storehouse and I let time get away from me...
Shit, I said again... I quickly run around buttoning things up and in a minute or so, I lock up and run to the parking lot outside..... oh no..... the sun is all the way down and it is early dark.....my car keys in my hand, fumbling to open the door see out of the corner of my eye, a demon, the color of a full moon, leaping across the headstones down the hill, heading straight for me....the door opens, I leap inside, ....a feline strike, a woman's hand rips at my coat and I see for the first time....... "Hey Baby, what are you doing out tonight? I thought you were working at the hospital...I comfortably say to her as she launches, all 4 claws into my body...razors and perfume my last thoughts....
That is how I became who I am.... I tell the the Doctor as he escorts me into the pre surgery room.
Mr. Thomas, I want to make you an offer, the Doctor says to me.... we want to clone your body and reproduce it 1000 times. Wait a minute, you can't do that, can't do that, that...
I wake to the feeling of large raindrops landing on my face... oh shit, what the hell.... my head is swollen and omg it's hurts so bad, what the heck happened, I'm sitting in the moist dirt leaves in a forest and I don't know where I am...
HELLO TO ALL. I HAVE BEEN AWAY FOR AWHILE. ITS GOOD TO BE HERE AMONGST THE FAMILY... MY PROFILE, I WILL WORK ON..... I HAVE TO REVIEW EVERYTHING I WROTE BELOW TO POSSIBLY DO ANOTHER REVISION OF MY PROFILE STUFF. I JUST WANT TO REFLECT WHO I AM RIGHT NOW AS TO WHO I WAS THEN.....
UHHHHH I STILL HAVENT CHANGED....
WELL YES I HAVE BUT SOME THINGS NEVER CHANGE
LIVING LIFE AND ENJOYING EVERY MOMENT NO MATTER THE OBSTACLES THAT COME MY WAY......
EARLIER THIS YEAR I HAD A BAD HEAD INJURY WHILE HIKING... IT WAS A TOUGH SITUATION AND IM STILL DEALING WITH MEMORY ISSUES AND OTHER..... THIS ISNT MY FIRST NEAR DEATH TIME BUT IT EMPHACIZES HOW QUICK WE CAN COME AND GO FROM THIS LIFE...... YOU DO SEE YOUR LIFE FLASH ACROSS YOUR EYES, NO DOUBT..
ANYWAY, I AM CHILL SO IF YOU WANT TO TALK YOU CAN, I WONT BITE CAUSE I KEEP MY DEADLY FANGS BENT BACK IN MY MOUTH. LAUGH-GROWL-
IF YOU SEE MY PROFILE.... I EXPECT SOME KIND OF GREETING OR SOMETHING. LOL. SO MANY PEOPLE ADD FRIENDS AND THEN THATS IT. YOU NEVER HEAR FROM THEM.... IF YOU WRITE ME, I WILL WRITE YOU BACK. TAKE CARE, TOM
THE STUFF BELOW I HAVE TO GO THROUGH AND I WILL CLEAN IT OUT. I HAVE SOME COOL GRAPHICS THAT I WOULD LOVE TO PUT ON HERE--- IN THE WERE SAI WOLF THEME OF COURSE...WHICH IS WHO I EQUATE WITH AND BOND WITH...
I WISH ALL OF YOU PEACE BECAUSE YOU WONT GET IT FROM OUTSIDE HERE SOMETIMES. THEN AGAIN PEACE IS WHERE YOU ARE BREATHING JUST NOW....
10/30/2016 tsv
POST: WE ARE GOING THROUGH THESE DAYS HERE NOW BUT SHALL WE NOT TREASURE THE MEMORY OF THIS PASSAGE IN THE FUTURE? OUR DAYS ARE NUMBERED AS WE KNOW YET THOSE KNOWN DAYS WE HAVE ARE NOT ADORED BUT OVERLOOKED..
Thomas ....
dated march 2015
women and men were always meant to be together. there really is no battle of the sexes. it just takes the right combined give and take to achieve Nirvana...
Some of my experience in life on mistress/slave relationships.........
Neither party can help but to become more intimate with each other as time goes by. Each party is providing the other's needs and wants and when someone completely understands you and lives to please your every whim, it is very difficult not to fall in love....
dominancie a podriadenosti......
Love means.....being dominated by feminine manipulation... smile
....I loved her, or at least I thought I did... to grovel at her feet and to absorb the sting of her lash...
captured by her elegance and goddess like beauty... bound into sadism~masochism ...
blond demon.......in Her soundproof rooms......angelic beauty....vicious predator.... knew i had to flee but i so craved her torment and exotic sexual drugs......
losing my will and strength....how can I go on like this....
run....while there's still time.....
while she dozed in ecstatic slumber...,
i escaped ,with a few florents in my pockets, on a late train to Buda-Pescht.....hastily arrived at the comforted confines of JFK....
She loved my blood. I wasn't worried. I had donated all my life. What's a little more. But, I need to keep track - let's see how much blood does the body carry?.......can I recover?
know the woman well before you allow her to chain you on a rack......by then it may too late.... laugh
no one is better. no one is inferior. both lovingly desire the same outcome...
in the blink of an eye the role may be reversed. true love in this fashion must be examined and discussed at great length. it is not the path for one if they do not search their own heart for expansion...
it is not for the weak or ignorant. it is not really black and white but grey upon grey...
love must always be first and foremost. love trumps everything else...
why is it so erotic to be in this type of relationship? for me-knowing that she has total property rights to me and i am in total submission... and i have no secrets. my weakness is exposed. degredation and dominance. but.... she loves me so. no one does more. we have everything we desire always. each day a new pattern.
she also knows my power and respects the danger. it excites her. she has hypnotized the cobra with her music. she feeds the cobra. better than that, she nurtures the wolf and loves it. the wolf will attack other wolves to defend her.
slaves are not sub human. masters are not a higher caste. it is a cemented bond that few will understand.
on success:
success comes from a string of failures - Lincoln.
success day by day. but it requires so much fortitude and grittiness.
to pick up from addictions and catastrophe, never return to the comfort of the easy way out... how many of us do that?
true rise comes from disciplines. study rags to riches. study the people around you. ask for advice. be humble. lean on the ones that really love you.
i don't know much. i give of myself most always but I fall short. give double. it has served me well.
smile and laugh and love greatly.
material wealth means practically nothing. i have made much and lost even more. cars, possessions, property. gone. but today is so more beautiful than yesterday.
vanity and pride. no. humility and service. yes. the keys are there, you just have to open your eyes. money? eat it and see how far you go.
are you beautiful in appearance but idiotic in your mind? foolish. bring forth the sweetness from inside. they will follow the yellow brick road for those they love.
success is; putting all of your needs aside and genuinely supporting others.
in the marines - leading is painful at times. but the men of all colors will never leave you and will follow you to hades and carry you on their shoulders.
do you realize that people of other races and creeds may be trusted more so than your own?
people like to label others. many of your own family cannot be trusted.
lay your life down for the one who is ignored not the one who stabs your back.
best friends come in unlikely places.
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Note on life in general.....
Be extremely subtle, even to the point of formlessness. Be extremely mysterious, even to the point of soundlessness. Thereby you can manipulate the fate of your enemies..
Engage people with what they expect; it is what they are able to discern and confirms their projections. It settles them into predictable patterns of response, occupying their minds while you wait for the extraordinary moment - that which they cannot anticipate.....tzu
I've already told you: the only way to a woman's heart is along the path of torment. I know none other as sure......de Sade
Ah, ah,
We come from the land of the ice and snow,
From the midnight sun where the hot springs flow.
The hammer of the gods will drive our ships to new lands,
To fight the horde, singing and crying: Valhalla, I am coming! Immigrant Song....
A wise man shall hear, and shall be wiser: and he that understandeth shall possess governments.... Proverbs 1:5
He wilt keep the salvation of the righteous, and protect them that walk in simplicity, Proverbs 2:7
The lips of the just teach many: but they that are ignorant, shall die in the want of understanding. Proverbs 10:21
on werewolves......
WEREWOLF, n. A wolf that was once, or is sometimes, a man. All werewolves are of evil disposition, having assumed a bestial form to gratify a beastial appetite, but some, transformed by sorcery, are as humane and is consistent with an acquired taste for human flesh. Some Bavarian peasants having caught a wolf one evening, tied it to a post by the tail and went to bed. The next morning nothing was there! Greatly perplexed, they consulted the local priest, who told them that their captive was undoubtedly a werewolf and had resumed its human for during the night. "The next time that you take a wolf," the good man said, "see that you chain it by the leg, and in the morning you will find a Lutheran."
i am a victim of your carnivorous lunar activities.....
I think we all have to fight the werewolf within us somehow.
“There is a beast in man that should be exercised, not exorcised”
Hunger drives the wolf out of the wood. – English Proverb
If you live among wolves you have to act like a wolf. – Nikita Khrushchev
Never stray from the path, never eat a windfall apple, and never trust a man whose eyebrows meet in the middle. – Company of wolves
The werewolf is a creature that has been around in the minds of humans for centuries… perhaps longer than the other well-known creature of legend – the vampire.
The Werewolf and Man....
Relationships between humans and animals dates back to the beginning of time, and time changes this relationship. Why has this relationship created such a strange twist in development – the werewolf?
For man to transform or shape-shift into a wolf creature is considered an act of fiction; but what about in the past? Consider what we know today, that no human has ever been documented to physically shape-shift.
Folklore and superstition took to the wolf man or werewolf creature stories by storm turning the animals into a whirlwind of lore. Mythical beings, strange sightings, fairy tales, authors, and movie writers, and elaborate exaggerations one after another have piled up forming the legend that we know today- the werewolf.
But for all this, and all the arguments you can make that the werewolf may simply be a creature of folklore and legend, there is one thing that must be considered – one thing that cannot be denied. As time has progressed, and humans have advanced, the sightings and the legends persist. When something persists for so long, there is generally some truth to it.
Whether you want to believe it or not, one fact is without question…
Almost every culture has some knowledge of the werewolf.
