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“Afriad”

5/21/01



Everything becomes my fear.

I'm even afriad of you.

I'm scared to shed a single tear.

I'm afraid of what you'll do.



Will you criticize me for who I am,

Laugh at me and taunt me.

To be different, I'd do all I can.

If only you knew, if only you could see.



Do you know what it's like?

Do you fear everything around?

My world is only black and white.

My life is lost and cannot be found.



Why am I so afraid to live?

Why can't I just be sane?

I wish that, to all, my fear I could give.

I wish you could feel my pain.



I'll go on living this life in seclusion.

Forever, I'll be the one afraid.

Will this always be my solution?

Will this be the way I fade?



~Cherish S.



“Fade”



Sometimes I wish I'd just fade away.

But no matter what, I stay.

I hate trhis pathetic life I have.

So why do I still walk my path?

Why do I stay in this place I call hell?

It's like I'm trapped in a cell.

Sometimes I don't want to talk.

Sometimes it's hard enough to walk.

All I do is lay in my lonely bed.

And crazy thoughts run through my head.

Like how much I don't want to be here.

But death is the one thing I most fear.

So all I can do is be strong...

I've been this way for too damn long.

As the depression settles into my mind.

These days, happiness is so hard to find.

All I do anymore all day is cry.

And pathetically ask a higher power “why?”

Why am I still in my lonely sad world,

Striving to go to woman from little girl.

But the little girl in me just won't fade.

So I guess I'll just have to wait.

Will I ever settle down?

Will I ever earn my crown?

I guess I'll just wait and see,

Will this always be the life for me?



~Cherish S.



“Scars”



I can't stop

I don't know what to do.

I know if I do not...

My life will soon be through.



My pain isn't just inside,

There's more outside, too.

Something so hard to hide

And it's all becuase of you.



You brought this pain to my soul,

Don't even ask why.

You dug me in my hole...

And you make me want to die.



There marks are the proof I own,

What you make me do.

And it's why I'm so alone...

If there's someone that can help, please tell me who.



~Cherish S.





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