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No point in getting stressed about it...Sites sometimes have problems that can be fixed. So just relax. Nothing else you can do. Getting mad won't help anything. js.
I'm at the point now where I'm realizing that ending a friendship is better then trying to make it work. I'm so tired of walking on eggshells and trying not to upset anyone. But all that does is stress me out and makes me want to walk away from it all. I know I am the blame and I accept that. I just want to be left alone for now.
I was feeling pretty good until you came at me from the side and knocked me on my ass. I'm sorry I can't give you the answers you want..I'm sorry if my friendship bothers you so much. I don't know what I do wrong until it's done. And I'm angry.. And You're gone. Stop doing that to me. Friends don't do that to each other.
Fathers and Daughters have a special bond. And I guess why I'm talking about this now is because I miss mine and I wish I still had him here. He died a few years ago and it still hurts and brings me to tears to think about him. He's the only man that would drop everything and rush to you when he hears..Dad.. I need your help. No matter how old you are he would always be there to defend his little girl and help her with anything.
Daughters never have to grow up around their fathers.. Unlike a Son. She will always be his baby. His little Angel.
My dad died in 2012 and my mother is dying not sure how long she has days, weeks, or a few months. I am sorry you lost both your parents so close together, it was like that with my Dad and brother a year apart.
Live your life to the fullest for both you and them, it's ok to mourn and miss them, grief has no time limit each person grieves in their own way and time.
I wasn't there when my dad died but I was holding my mom's hand when she stopped breathing. It's something I'll never forget. The pain was unbearable.
07:22 Sep 28 2021 Times Read: 283
Here is something that baffles me.
I love Churches. They are peaceful and bright. Full of love and Joy. I love going to church. I feel peace when I'm in one.
But.
I can't go into a hospital chapel. Even sitting here now and thinking of going into one stresses me. I've tried but every time I try to go into one I feel scared and feel a need to just leave fast. It's a real fear that I can't control. And I don't understand why.
I may not know the answer but from my mind's perspective, I wonder if it's how the chapel is used versus how a church in a community is used.
I would also guess that the hospital version, most come to seek a continuation of life, a miraculous recover with feeling of death looming over them and hoping a prayer may aid in release of the mark or those wishing to be forgiven and accepted into someplace to call home in the afterlife. Whenever I was asked to go into one I just felt like its a means to say you give up, so I always avoided them.
As Churches elsewhere tend to fester more positive energies, vibrancy, various reasons people join churches but I always feel an outcast in those places and sometimes the ones I go in end up being hate fueling centers but thats just my crappy experiences heh.. sorry if this didn't help give some thought or light.
04:36 Sep 22 2021 Times Read: 305
I really need to get my shit straight. I have no idea what I mean by that I just know I feel like I'm free falling and there's no end in sight. I exist but not living. Make any sense? I'm happy but not content. Restless I guess. Maybe if I made a list every night with things to do the next day I'd feel less chaotic. Worth a try. :)
Had to go to the Doctors today . Wanted me to get a chest x-ray so I did. Said my chest looks good. Only concern he had was that I had blood in my urine. So that was my day. I'm so tired. Got up at 6am and ready for some quiet time.
Oddest thing though. I felt pain in my finger this morning in the car. No idea how I hurt it and the pain faded away.
Got home and noticed a huge bruise going around the end of my finger. No pain ..Just bruising.
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CuRsEdToDaRkNeSs
21:37 Sep 30 2021
Yes, it will get sorted out.