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hey guys! so i pretty much had the most boring day ever...i sat here like all day seriously 12 hours just on here and discovering new bands cuz thats one of my biggest hobbies...and i was reading all the lyrics..and ugh i just hate being lonely...im not even lonely i dont think i think i just miss how my best relationship was...it was the perfect relationship..i want that back sometimes i want him back..but yeah its not happening :-( i wish cute boys lived here...cute NICE boys...ehh ill be back later

Lately...life has been really rough...so I figured I would write about it in here to maybe let some of it out...with my mom being in and out of the hospital and me also being in the hospital for weird reasons and getting cut really bad at work...it has just been rough..with classes ending I just wanted them to be over its hard waking up everyday knowing that someone is going to try and bring you down today because thats how people are in my town. And you know what really gets me? People who don't even know me who talk about me. Don't fucking say something you wouldnt sign your name to because in the end I will find out and you will regret it...and I know its stupid worrying about what other people say because I know I shouldnt and I know there is no reason to because I'm not a bad person. I'm nice to people I meet unless they give me a reason not to be...I keep my legs closed thank you very much..and I'm fun! I just think its funny how kids in school are so pathetic and have nothing better to do then try and bring someone down to their miserable level and I have had it. I am happy with myself and where I am. For being sixteen i have a pretty damn good life..outside of home at least. I go to school and i get decent grades..I have two jobs..and softball scouts are gonna be looking out for me this year because I'm finally a junior...yeah I'd say I'm doing pretty damn good formyself but u know what? Is it wrong for someone to have something good for them? I would NEVER EVER try and bring a friend down if they were happy...its good that my friends are supposed to be happy why would I try and ruin that? Obviously these people arent my friends if they have to do that...well...enough venting....hmmmmmm ill be back later cuz Im sure Ill have something to write about cuz I never sleep anymore cuz I'm always up late thinking life away with a cigarette in hand...ew i wish i could quit..