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Today as we were at johns mothers house vinnie was ' adding the xp disk in johns moms pc and every one one was so nice and so greetful for me to bring the disk and i was shy like i am with new people and plus beside i was and am sad about dayconato ' and john was saying things that made me feel good like giveing me eye contact when he talked and other things it mad eme feel good even thow when him and sam were all up on each other kinda made me ill mostly because i am missing dayconato and pisst at him in any case ' it mad eme feel good and me and john talket on and off noting meanful but nice i explaind things to him and he said its cool more or less nd i do not have to apoaglse to any one for who i am and mendtion the whole god thing and so on which that part i edited out but still ' any way as we were in the car and i was being dropet off and vinnie was realy cool with me and so on and wishing we had more time to do the other stuff nad getting the computer and so on and he said any time any want to hang with us ya can and john almost conconerd and , as i got out the car john said we will be in touch so something like it and as i was walking with vinnies soda in hand john opend the window he said have a good night made a effet to do that ' with me which was nice and i tryd to give back vinnies soda he said keep it and i said thanks and that was the end but john even thow he is a bit of a hard read and he acts odd and al closted but then he can chage it up on me and act all nice and all kind to me and say he will be in touch and even said have a good nice night ect so i guess there is hope with us and

i guess he dose like me in any case that is the end of the story for now,.

Hay today i am waiting for sam and them ' for comeing to my home so we can go and work on johns moms pc and there not here yet and i just want them to come and we get this started so let us hope they come soon any way just had to write this down so i do not get fustrated is all.

Well i went to grace and saw john we talket and he was not mad at me ' and he is going threw some issues and we were talking about things and sam and missy and about things and we may have a real meeting he may be staying at my house and i may see him tomorw or rather today which is good i learnd more about him which is cool he hates when some one hates saying now and hates it when grace calls her self fat and pinhcs her and said i would do it to ya also ' and he also wanted to have a guys day with beer and fixing his mom's pc and i think its just a excuse to hang with me but i am not going to be tied to that conlustion for all i know its just the way he said it in any case who cares its good now that said sam was trying to get him and john was like what going on sam said noting and he said well jonathan will tell me later 'and so on but i ask him earlery why he told me he said because i thogut or feel i can trust you , and he was telling em why he will never take her back because he dose not trust her ' and so on and i think also he is loseing interrest in missy any way basilcy i know now i have a shot with him i wrote a more deatil in my laptop my first post but my darn was right on a bilocateion and or mental projection because i was right there car was here and so on lets leave it at that,.

Well even thow john so dose not return any of my pms he has me in his top list on myspace not sure the reason or if it means any thing? sure it dose not but it dose prove for what ever reason he is not mad and so on so its all good in any case i guess i am happyer and if all goese well i will be hanging with grace and also maybe see him wish me luck.

plus this week halloween is comeing and i can not wait i have a few things pland i am just so damn happy about it woo hoo.

THis is just gret today i see my fav place to eat ok not the absalute fave but the top 22 places is cloused' baja freah is closed and that sucks but what ever and mad at my bf and mad at the other guy for not returning my pm and mad at other guys for the same' ect in any case makes me pist but grace did pm me back and were hanging hopefuly at 6 tomorw so which me luck and that is all for now.

today i am doing better with my issues , but i swear i thougt i saw john walking almost went to see but realzid it most likely is not , for how tall he is and so on , and i know i am getting all to worryied and i so need to let things happen on there own and stop worrying if it happens it do , and besides i am going to spend a lil time with my mans , so there along with that dayconato is emailing me tomorow there ya go i guess i just need to stop and relax is all.

Hay ALL MAN I HAVE HAVE PMED JOHN AGAIN AND STILL NO DAMN PM FROM HIS but , I HATE THAT SHIT AND GRACE SAID WHEN SHE FINDS OUT ABOUT VINNIE SHE WOULD MESSGE ME BACK so far noting am i makeing more of these two thing sure i am , how ever its just pissing me off like other people have online , and i guess for now its my lot in life but i so got to chage things up and make things happen this complaing bs is not working so now i got to do more writeing later so see ya all later.

LAST night as i was missing dilon and dayconato ' i went to see him and we made love , and it was amazeing' and it made me feel better ' and also today as i was missing dayconato otter got us talkeing and were working things out budy as good as seeing him or talking to him ' made me feel good but it will be longer till he will see me,.

now on to the human now i saw john online asking him to hang out and not say any thing about sex and what ever and so for no word so i desided to give him a comment ' to say thank you for adding me in any case i am writeing this to keep me form getting ocd on that or him and keep me calm and leave up to chance is all any way that is my day for now.

Today is the day i am thinking more and more on john and i need to stop 'and i wish i could just get some and maybe all i need is one of my bfs who knows some times i just need ' and get some and others i need to make love and that is where dilon woild come in but right now i need a good feed and a good ya know what ,. that said i think john would be it how ever ' like him and i like him a lot more then i want to and being polyamerus has helpet but yet it makes thing filled with druma but all in me i guess all i can do is take me one day at a time ,.

that said its just things i am thinking on is all and it feels good to talk about it.

Here is the thing as me and john were talking that night he was saying about him and me and mike going to the same school or where ever and him use to were a black leather coat' and him reacnizeing me ect . here is the thing why would he mention this now while in between telling me baout the bi shit ' and so on i also even had a dream of this also, and why would he do this now after all this time ' i mean maybe i am makieng more of it then it is ment to be ok fine but still ' and we talket about him feeling better telling me he is bi and of us hanging out one day and him finding me ect and maybe doing stuff ' in any case so many things to many to count it was just werid in a nice way but i also know he is troubile in any case i guess i need to be careful.

GREETINGS all its been along time since i wrote in here so here goes , i am back with my ex dilon and also dateing another dragon dayconato and finding out a new firend or what ever he is to me or will be is bi and we had a long talk about that and it is just bazzar with a capatal B ok ' that said i said i tryd to pm you on my space and stuff and he said when i go on there i got so many letters i just look threw em quickly and just delete em , which he seems to have done but he did add me so that is someting , and we may even hangout and do ya know who knows my firend vee said he dose seem to have a interrest in me after the things ' i told em but who knows with people with humans or any one any way things are better some what ' and i am writeing more and more in my book and that has helpet me so damn much and i can nto wait to do more in any case that is what is going on with later.