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Wow never thought I could feel this happy so soon. He makes me feel special. Like no one else in this world matters but me. Makes me feel like it could actually work and become something great. Sure there are other guys I know but I have to be realistic. Like I wont ever see two of them, one might not even be interested, and the other doesnt seem like he wants to be anything other then fuck buddies. So whats a girl who wants to be in a relationship gonna do. She's gonna go with the guy who wants her the most and isn't afraid to show that he loves her. He does major PDA (Public Display of Affection) and it doesnt bother me cuz I wouldn't have it any other way. I'm happy and I didnt think it could happen after what my ex did to me. I was so crushed. But Jordan made me see that no matter what has happened to you and no matter how much they think they can never go on there is always someone who helps you pick up the peices and makes it all new again.

I feel like a novelty. Like a convinient playtoy. Like my feelings don't matter. I'm trying to make something work that probably never will. Why put so much effort into something that may be nothing but could be something some day? Stayin up till the wee hours of the morning. Doing stuff that sometimes I'm not always comfortable doing. Being made fun of even though he didn't mean it that way or for it to be mean. That if he makes fun of me it means he likes me. What kind of messed up shit is that? I wouldn't make fun of a person I liked or a person I thought I could be more then just in like with.