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the flame bringing the life to the world and yet it is so punished

burning out of control muniplated everywhich way like the live of people that we see each and every day like the flame hoping not to die but y

y do we strive to stay alive all i can say is to burn the bridges of desception

how long does the world think that it can keep me how many more days will i live theses things i can not answer

can i choose the time or place what should i do should i go on or should i die?

a question asked frequently

what should i do when noone wants you when no one cares i wonder what would happen if i were no longer here would u care that i no longer exist or would you not even realize im not there

where do i fit in

this place were i am

right here with all my friends on the rave

in the darrk where i sleep

images i see

that were never there

as i enter a realm

i just dont care

thinking of you and all you glory

as i lay here dying

wallowing in my pitty

and my shame

i have done wrong to you

i do not wish to be able to see

as the world grows dark

i hear the screams of the children at night

tearing through my head

wishing i were dead

i tak the gun and pull the trigger

yet you stop me

i do not know why y hast thou stopped me

i twas doing the world a favor

ridding it of the worst

me

i do not wish to live no more

for this world i do not care

holding me you are now

confusion on my face

your tears dripping to the ground

as you say

three little words .....

















YOU FUCKING IDIOT

never agian shall i ask y



y the world has done this to me



now i accept the truth i did it to myself



something i never wanted to say



i have hurt my self scared for life



never to see agane



to see the eyes of the one i loved



i longed for her



my longing did me no good



i was afriad



afraid i say



afraid to tell her the truth



the truth



the truth



the haunting fucking truth that i loved her



i did not tell her



so she did her worse



she tightened the noose around her neck



not knowing that i would try to tell her the next day



last words i tried to mutter the night before



might they have been able to save her



a question i ask over and over



agane and agane



twas number 7



shit i hate the number seven



never agane would i aloww myself to love



for the dead come back to haunt



as i lie her about to repeat what she did



i ask myself what her last words must have been

no more light in these eyes you will see

the fight has left from me

here i wait for death to come

thinking back to when i was young

the pleasures that i never had

and the ones that will never come

to dull eyes come the tears

tears of joy

not pain nor hate

for death has come

come for me

with open arms i greet thee

death my savior

looking in the dark seeing all that there is

the pain is there yet never seen

through these eyes i wonder

what is out there waiting for me

the pain i feel for your loss is great

everytime i see the moon a tear rolls down my cheek

why is the world out to get me i ask

and still i get no answer from the great beyond

so many reasons why to die

very few why to go on