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Sometimes.

When I am in my bed, and the bedroom door is closed.

All the lights are off, besides that of the moon from the windows.

I close my eyes.

Instantly.

I can feel my heart beating.

Pulsing through my body like a live wire.

I feel so alive, I almost forget to breathe.

Making it beat harder.

Then the tears come.

I do not know why. It just happens.

Like an immediate reaction.

And there, I cry myself to sleep.

An hour later, I wake.

My eyes still stinging.

This is when I learn why I was crying.

Because I need to feel alive.

I need to know that I have something to do in this world.

That I have a purpose for hearing my heart beat.

For crying.

Nothing can compare to this feeling.

I curl up into a ball, still laying down.

Yes, this really happened.

More than once.

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typeopositive
04:00 May 31 2009

i am here. if you need to talk, call me. you ARE important and there IS a reason you are here. you have helped me so many times i cant even count. hang in there, you ARE special- to me-friend.

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why does the sun rise and set?

why does the full moon enchant my soul?

why do I have to be so young?

Why are you still here?

why do you think I can make it?

that I am strong enough?

Why do I want to be with you so bad?

Why do I feel invinceible when you are with me?

Why are there never enough hours in the day?

Why does three years have to be such a long time?

Why do I love the dark more than the light?

Why do I love you so?





The sun rises so that at least one part of my life is expected.

The moon enchants my soul because I am different and it feels at home with me protecting it's light.

I have to be this physical age because I am cursed.

You are still here because I need you more than anyone.

You know I can make it because you see the beauty behind the mask.

You know I am strong enough because I am finally embracing who I was born to be.

I want to be with you because you show me the real me and I dont have to hide from you.

I feel invinceible because my instincts tell me that I can trust you.

There are never enough hours in the day because this world thinks that I dont deserve to be awake for so long.

Three years has to be such a long time because the world loves making me impatient and suspenseful.

I love the dark because it gives me a break from having to hide and does it for me.

I love you because you could not bear to hurt me and you are the one I waited for.



*NOTE*

This was hardly written by my hands, and more- way more- by something called my heart.

though it is for someone my soul and heart crave for.

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Sinfullydelicious
20:07 May 21 2009

amazing your very good

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this is happening?

To... me? How?

I do not deserve this kind of happy.

it is unreal- the pure joy I feel.

Every day I count my blessings.



I never did think I would be good enough.

I had my doubts.

I have suffered so long, that is all I got used to.

Now the love is over whelming.

It happened.

At last.

why do these things keep happening to me?



I am forced to hide.

My parents dont know what to do with me.

My friends think im a freak.



I dont deserve this.



I've found love.

I am indipendent.

I am valued and I am original.

My life is exciting for once.

I have found my calling.



I dont deserve this, either.



but, everything happens for a reason.

So I guess the story is get out there and live today because you never know when you'll run out of tomorrows.

don't tell him he's my everything.

never mention i'd do anything for him.

dont even think of saying

he's all I think about at night.

never whisper how I only dance for him.

do not slip out that I dream of his touch.

Don't tell him I Love Him,

because he just found out!

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MorbidAngels15
13:43 May 13 2009

aww....i like this so much sweet :)

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LordWolf
04:14 Jun 01 2010

I know he is smiling....

~W~

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So much to tell you. But, if you ever found out, I would blush!!



I want to kiss you in the rain a thousand times.

I want to walk with you through our forbidden woods.

I want to eat chocolate- covered strawberries with you and watch Phantom of the opera, whispering the lines to each other.

I want to fight right there next to you.

I want to hunt with you.

I want to have *** with you.

I want to hold you and never let go.

I want to swim in a remote pond with you.



Ok. So all of these may have to waite. But this doesn't.

I do Love You.

And I cant waite to blush for you.

How do you do it?

Make me let my guard down. And make me want nothing more than to be with you. To hold you.

I am completely vulnerable, and you know it.

Yet, you don't hurt me. You don't run from me.



I surrendered to you, because you are the only one who means the words you spoke.

So pure a feeling, it feels as if you have awoken a new part of me.

You make me feel. Feel things no one has before.

Love.

True love.

When I am with you, it is as if I can hardly catch my breath.

I keep breathing for you.

I can feel because of you.

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cadrewolf
02:30 May 07 2009

Electicity between two

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icedrgn5020
02:59 May 07 2009

that is so how i feel about my baby

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I will kiss you when you're sad.

I will hold you when you're mad.

I will fight when you can't.

I will never stop trying.

I will cure you when you're ill.

I will love you- no matter what.

I will. And why?

Because you are the only reason

I am still who I am.

The reason I get up every morning.

You gave me my life back.



copyright 2009

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vampchica4
02:48 May 04 2009

Unfortunately, yes. Someone did.

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crimsonxxtears
05:46 May 04 2009

I like the poem hon its really good

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typeopositive
03:24 May 08 2009

very sweet,hun.

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