Yesterday, I was in drivers' ed. and a volunteer came in.
She explained how important it was to wear safety belts- in the front seat, back seat, all of it.
She showed us a couple videos, did a few diagrams, whatever... ive seen it all before.
Well, later that afternoon, one of my friends was coming back from Syracuse with his teammates. They were going 90 mph. on the thruway, and he was not wearing a seat belt.
They swirved, and flipped. at least three times.
He died after being airlifted to the hospital.
I know his mom extremely well... she is my ex dance instructor.
Her son is gone. All because of a stupid choice.
He was nineteen years old, the rest of his life- just waiting for him.
All the day that we were discussing it in class.
I'm not usually one to complain, but tonight I just need to.
I am sick of it here. I want to get out and never come back. The few ties I had to this place are now withered and worn so thin, it is not even worth it anymore.
Evert last happy thing I have planned in my life is slaughtered. I am always miserable, and I need to get out.
Mom and dad couldn't care less about me. They just manipulate and control me until I am at the breaking point. Then, when I am suffering on the ground, they are finally proud of me.
My "best friends" want to kill myself with drugs and alcohol. otherwise, they push me and almost punch me out- trying to get me to give in. They control me and are so self centered, they always have to get their way. I have lived by always giving in, because it was easier.
But I am done. I can't be a slave forever. I am finally standing up for myself, and will continue to fight. I will win.
But in order to do so, I need to leave.
I just want to go. Nothing here matters anymore.
COMMENTS
ive been there that blows
not everyone that loves you can always be there for you..
but you know you have true friends...almost like family.
and those people will be there for you
ALWAYS
i know its hard, but its something that we all must go thru. you are strong, i know that in my very soul.
and your true friends are proud of you because your
...
you.
~W~
I agree with Wolf. We love you . One day you will be free to spread your wings, and FLY.....
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LordWolf
22:18 Jul 23 2010
sometimes its the little details that can kill us.
when i was an emt i saw all the time that if you had even a small crash with no seatbelts, you could die, but a big crash with seatbelts and you might walk away.
still, i hear all the time how seat belts might kill you...
to me thats like someone saying smoking can be good for you.
sheeesh!
i am very sorry about the loss of your friend.
hugs!!
~W~