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Goodnight, Goodnight.
05:15 Apr 25 2007
Times Read: 619

Just whisper to me a sweet lullaby,

And I will go to sleep.

Let me dream of nothing,

Life is a nightmare as is....

And if it maybe, just take my soul away...



And I can hear them say.

Goodnight, Goodnight

it's left for the stars...

Let the moonlight shine it's path

Rest your head.

Sleep.

A day in hell
15:24 Apr 24 2007
Times Read: 630

Monday, April 23rd.

5:30am-alarm goes off, slam clock off. No! I want to sleep.

5:39am-alarm goes off again. I hear you, but I need to sleep!

5:48-alarm goes off again. Come on! Let me sleep!

5:57am- finally lay there contemplating calling in.

6:06am-get up and get ready for work.

6:12am- sit down and eat breakfast.

6:25am-heading out the door. Wait! I forgot my school bag. Oh, I'll come back for it.

6:35am- arrive at work 5 minutes late.

6:35-7:05am-Play video games with the kids.

7:05-7:35am-Take kids out and play.

7:40-8:25am- Do devotion, play games and get them off to school.

8:26am-driving home.

8:36am-Find cops infront of my way street. Great big accident. Arrive home and get my bag.

9:00am-Arrive in the lab, get the video for the sheep eye disection. Watch it.

9:15am-Done with the video, doing the dissection. The girl comes over and talks to me.

9:37am-Done with Dissection, girl leaves. Purse is missing. Trying to conveince the staff of the lab to that it's missing.

9:40am-Sitting in the security office, reporting the theft. Name? Amber What were you doing? Dissecting a sheeps eye. Weird look. Okay. Explain. Explain. In the middle of it. "What's her name?" "Amber McBride" "This just came in from Parking lot A" Look at it, check book with pictures some id, but no check book. Call my mother. "Mom, my purse has been stolen." "Oh, god Amber, you need to call the bank." "Can you get me the number?" "Yes" Write downnumber. Call bank. Talk to the guy there, get stop payment.

9:50am-Secuirty guard walks me out to the parking lot to look for my purse. Maybe she dropped it. spend the next 15 minutes driving around parking lot looking. Stopping to look in trash cans.

10:15am-Go back to the sience center. "Hey!" lab assistant looks worried. "Yeah, it's gone." Looks beat up. "I'm so sorry Amber." half smile. "It's okay Ryan. Shit happens." Get stuff from chair. "Don't worry it's not like I blame you. Not your fault." Still not convienced. "I feel like it is." I nod. THen walk out.

10:20am-Meet up with my mother. "Hey!" gives me spare key. "Let's get out of here, but first back to the security office." Wait for security guy. "Well, I got a statement from Ryan, he said he didn't see her leave with the purse. So, we have to take her out as a suspect." I frown. I know it was her. "Okay." Gets my stuff. Drive my mom to her car, then go to the Driver linsence station.

10:30am-Driving to tag agency. Cost ten dollars to replace DL. Then go home. Drop off my car.

11:00am-sitting in bank, canceling my accounts and changing everything. Still feel so unreal. Icky, Angry. "Mom, god says to pray for those that hurt you." Mom nods. "Yes it does." Sighes. Should I pray?

11:30am-At work changing things over with payment.

11:35am-getting food.

12:00pm-arrive home. Eat trying not to think to hard on it. Still really upset. talk to ryu. A couple of hours pass.

3:00pm-Police call. "Do you know anything about these keys?" Girl was caught on camera trying to use my credit card. File report then about everything that was taken.

4:00pm-Call Amanda, drive down with me to the police station to get my keys.

4:30pm.-still looking around, can't find it. Get out of car, go ask someone.finally at station. Don't know anything about keys or report. Can't have until Wednesday. Go home. Get my mom. Go to walmart.

5:00pm-Call Arthur. "Did you get my message?" No. I don't listen to messages. "Shut down the card! My purse has been stolen!" Cursing. Dad talking to him, and won't leave him to deal with this. Really hating the dad right now. "Amber let her purse get stolen." Shocked, pissed. Call credit company got card shut down. But, she got ahold of $231 and used it at a cingular store.

6:00pm.-Call police. Wait for them to call back. Got take friend home, cause she has work. Go to her place. Sit and talk to her then she gets out.

6:30ishpm.-Arrive at Maily's house. Pick her up go back to my place.

7:00pm- "Amber someone has found your check book." Waves of some happiness. Take down information. Talk to the police. Smiles about the messy trail. Call Arthur let him know. Feels alittle better.

8:00pm-get check book back. Thanks to the man who called. Great guy.

9:00pm-Back and sitting there. Tara calls "Hey you still want to see me." "Yes" have some time with friends. Arthur calls tell him I love him. That I will call back.

10:06pm-Friends leave. I go take a shower.

10:46pm-Laying in bed, feeling like hell. No crying. Call Arthur. No answer. Tell him good night on the machine. Say I love you. Then close my eyes for sleep. Dream of meeting people I'd never seen before. Ryu's there. sitting at a bar. Smiling, but I don't smile. even in dreams my day of hell still plays.

A change
04:24 Apr 22 2007
Times Read: 635

I want to know about the world around me that goes unseen. I want to know about people, that don't have the voices to speak. I want to reach out to those that would otherwise smack a hand away. I want to do something different, be someone defined. I want to be the meaning of trust, honor, and respect.



I am going to pludge myself into the darkest, deepest waters of the unknown. Ready to test my skills against what is out there that is known, but doesn't want to be known. I want to face the evil with God by my side. Pray for me, because if I do not come out alive, then I didn't deserve it.

A personal success!
17:20 Apr 21 2007
Times Read: 641

I come from a family were sickness from being overweight runs. I come from a famly, that if you don't keep the weight off it could me untimely death. So, late March I and my best friend made a commitment to lose all the excessive weight we had gained over our highschool and early college semesters.



I started out at 210 pounds, which is some what of a depression for me. Since I did lose 20 pounds my senior year, and gained it back plus. Yet, since then I have dropped 13 pounds and am under 200 pounds. I am so proud of myself.



Now this wasn't easy at all! I had to stop drinking juice, eating after 7 pm. and I really had to give up alot of my favorite foods. Still, even though it can be a pain in my ass, I just think about all the things I can have, how it makes me feel, and if I really want a life style that will eventually strap me to a bed. Then I tell myself no. I would not like to live a life in a bed.

Not so angry.
00:44 Apr 21 2007
Times Read: 646

yay! I just got back from work, and I am feeling much better. I guess it does work with just throwing yourself into watching a movie or writing. I am so bi-polar I swear. Thank god most of you don't know me in real life. :P



Anyways. YAY! I have 5 people that like to read my journal! Yay! I need more nosy people! Just kidding. You all should just stick around for the stories. You'll love me, or your reading back gaurantee. Which means, you just have to read it backwards. Sorry.

I don't care
18:10 Apr 20 2007
Times Read: 659

I am fucking pissed! TolietDuc decided to take and suspend Lord Noctem because he was expressing how he felt about the rating system.



There is no fucking reason for him to be suspended. YEAH HE WAS RUDE RETARD, BECAUSE THE SYSTEM IS STUPID. I am so tired of this system. I want to build my own website.



And Toliet, no wonder you're a toliet you're a fucking shit head. I hate people like you. I hope you get your shit all messed up on here. If I get suspended for this, then fuck you!



I really hate that people have the right to rate whatever they want. i didn't come to this webiste to get rated. I came here to make new friends.



Shit. I want to rip something up, or punch a wall.



And i read the front page you fucking retard, it says in the first sentence, VAMPIRE RAVE WAS CREATED FOR THE VAMPIRE COMMUNITY. It's an information data base to learn from. Yeah you need to learn how to read. Go back to school. Better yet, just go to hell!

I love showers
05:25 Apr 20 2007
Times Read: 660

I always love it how you feel right after you've taken a shower. I feel like all the germs have been washed off my skin, and I'm so nice smelling. :D



Oh, well tomorrow the nice smell will fade, and so will the feeling of being clean. :'( Sadness really.

That's her
05:03 Apr 16 2007
Times Read: 670






The girl that I look at in the mirror, with eyes that can't make their decision on a color. Her hair thin, but thick at the sametime. Her skin kissed by the sun, with a natural blush to spare. She has imperfections that a camera can hide. She smiles way too much, and her mind races so fast she can barely keep up with it.



Her words can become jumbled, and she stutters to remember. I know her. She feels so much and neglects the fact that she doesn't show emotion. She's short and jumps just to grab something.



She has alittle too much baby fat on her, and she knows it. Boys never called her cute in highschool, they reserved her as a girl to talk to about English, or when they wanted an A. She was the smart funny chick, that no one ever dated.



Her friends were the highlights, She was the plain one. She did their make-up, she made them look good. I know her. Her self-esteem is not high enough for her to think anymore than anyone else does of her. She callls herself averagely pretty, while her boyfriend calls her beautiful.



She makes fun of herself before people can get to it, and when someone gives her a compliment, she takes it graciously not wanting to offend. While on the inside she thinks, "I wish I could see it for myself." Yeah, I know that girl, that's her, that's me.

Overveiw of A+P1
16:58 Apr 13 2007
Times Read: 674

I hate you science! I hate your words! I want to burn my brain!

Jammed fingers
17:19 Apr 11 2007
Times Read: 677

I do not like pain, infact I avoid it at all costs...but it always seems to find me no matter what I'm doing. I fall down so often, that I've gotten to the point that I don't react much except for a laugh, unless of course I hurt my ankle, then there is laughing then limping....



I Jammed my index finger on my left side last Thursday while trying to get myself back into shape. It wasn't a very happy time, the finger swelled so bad that it was like I had a baby finger somewhere in there.



Then I couldn't bend it much else for a couple of days, it's doing better, but it still hurts a bit. I can't bend it to it's full potiental. Infact my finger won't be back to it's normal self for a while. I hate sprains and anything that has to do with interal pain.



I can deal with exteral, it's so much easier to just massage, cover, or just ignore. I guess I won't be typing much, but the thing is I really love the feel of a keyboard beneath my finger tips. It's really hard not doing it, like I am right now.



As Arthur would say "You're a silly girl." So, I am...so what?