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My mother said: "You are such a bitch."

"Oh really? Then finally I see. We are family.".... I didnt say it aloud. I just thought that. And I smiled. I couldnt help it. And so it made her angry even more. But I cant take it anymore.

Everything about my mom is very ....how to say that....exhasuting.

I cant live with her aymore under the one roof without arguing 5 times per day. And she is just angry for nothing......

I guess it became not normal at some time. She has to argue at least once a day. If she doesnt she is nervous and it is not possible to talk with her calmly..

What should I do? .....No explanation is good...

I am bad.

"Who have you taken after?....I am not like you. I have done for you so much and you repay me like this. You want just live your life and you do not want to be part of this family...you do nothing for us.. You are so selfish." You you you you you!!!

I forgot.....you again.



"You cant relax. Mother you cant take anything easy. If you get angry you cant stop. Mother you are crazy. Mother just leave me alone. Mother you are not normal. Mother."



All this is spinning in my mind round and round and round.....

I think about going away from home...

Its just too difficult I am not runaway type of person. Becasue I am my mothers daughter.



She just cant see it.

I dont know what to do.

Just let it be and bare with her.

I want die sometimes....and then I remember....what a stupid thought....



Whatever. I smile at the thought... then she is angry again...



Any ideas?....