still a bit off..... gods, these meds are making me feel like shit. *sigh* and i can't even get a real night sleep.... but they should help with things..... this is looking like the treatment is going to be worse than the problem. but i know that this needs to be fixed and soon. but this is just making me feel like shit. but i know that worse could be coming soon.
i just don't get it. i was trying to be nice to someone and they went and blocked me for no reason...... and seeing that i'm not doing good to start with. *sigh* so much for being nice.
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i know that feeling.....sometimes im just to nice for my own good :(
S-o-c-i-o-p-a-t-h.. such pathetic behavior. I am sure if you had asked for a script, they would have carried on with you.
Dabbler
feeling a bit better about things today.... but it's still going to suck to have to go through all that.
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I hate that you are having such a bad time doll...I hope you will be around friends to be your support system.
gods, if its not one thing, its another today..... i haven't felt this bad in a very long time. and not knowing about this new problem is the worst....
meep.....
Furp died yesterday...... it was a motorcycle accident..... he'd only been home from Iraq for a few months.....
i just found out.....
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this is and old gem..... and seeing what day it is.... or the last bit of the day.
THE SUICIDE'S SOLILOQUY.
The following lines were said to have been found
near the bones of a man supposed to have committed
suicide, in a deep forest, on the Flat Branch of the
Sangamon, some time ago.
Here, where the lonely hooting owl
Sends forth his midnight moans,
Fierce wolves shall o'er my carcase growl,
Or buzzards pick my bones.
No fellow-man shall learn my fate,
Or where my ashes lie;
Unless by beasts drawn round their bait,
Or by the ravens' cry.
Yes! I've resolved the deed to do,
And this the place to do it:
This heart I'll rush a dagger through,
Though I in hell should rue it!
Hell! What is hell to one like me
Who pleasures never know;
By friends consigned to misery,
By hope deserted too?
To ease me of this power to think,
That through my bosom raves,
I'll headlong leap from hell's high brink,
And wallow in its waves.
Though devils yell, and burning chains
May waken long regret;
Their frightful screams, and piercing pains,
Will help me to forget.
Yes! I'm prepared, through endless night,
To take that fiery berth!
Think not with tales of hell to fright
Me, who am damn'd on earth!
Sweet steel! come forth from our your sheath,
And glist'ning, speak your powers;
Rip up the organs of my breath,
And draw my blood in showers!
I strike! It quivers in that heart
Which drives me to this end;
I draw and kiss the bloody dart,
My last—my only friend!
Abraham Lincoln
August 25, 1838
i'm almost set for this friday.... new production elements are done and are running already. the show should go very good.
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