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*this comes in after watching the box go BOOM by people in the box*(you know who you are lol)



Death, Mayhem, and Destruction... All in a good days work

I have never felt this way about any one i had been with before.... And honestly it kind of scares me, because I have never felt this way... Its not that I am afraid of what is to come... Its that i cant wait for it to happen...

LL: "When all else fails, grab a spork!"



my thoughs exactly :)

I asked him "If you could change anything about me what would it be?"



He replied "Nothing."

I asked him "If I give you my heart will you promise not to break it?"....



He said "I promise."

Everytime he walks in the door her heart begins to pound with fear. As he walks past the the mess on the living room floor he makes his way to her and slaps her around. He yells and screams because she left the baby's clothes lying on the chair. He grabs her by the hair and drags her around pointing out everything that she hasnt done. She tries to scream for help but he only hits her harder telling her this is for her own good. One more time she thinks to herself, one more time and i am gone. She tries to leave but she fears for her childs life. Wondering what he would do to her and the baby if he ever caught them. She has no one to call, no one to talk to. She cant have any friends cause he will just beat her some more. He comes home early from work one day and finds her sleeping in their bed. He yanks the blankets back and kicks her and punches her telling her to wake up. She screams as her ribs are broken and her face shattered. he takes her to the hospital and treats her like she is gold. The doctors ask what happened to her and she says she fell on the road outside her house. What else could she say, he was standing right there. She winces in fear as he leans in and kisses her forhead, whispering you're such a good little bitch. The nurses have seen her in the ER many times before, due to her "falling outside". They dont ask, she doesnt tell, of the horrific scenes that happen to her day in and day out. They know its going on but they dont lift a finger to help her. Not even asking her if she wants to get help. She leaves the hospital and goes back home with him. Only to find out that she will be punished some more. He hits her and slaps her around she cries, throwing her against the wall and shoving her down the hall, taking his fists and using them on her face and body, she screams at him to stop, kicking her ribs again and breaking some more. As he does this she prays "God please just let it all end tonight". As he kicks her one last time, her body goes limp and he stares down at her, telling her to get up but she doesnt move. She lays there a tangled mess of broken bones and blood all around her and finally it all ended tonight.

I watch you in the window

The angel takes her leave

Forgotten winds of spring time

A secret song she sings

She sings to me unnoticed

In the crowded room we share

She sings to me of summer

Lets down her darkened hair

I give her all I can

I give her all of me

She takes me to a foreign land

Where angels learn to sing

So if you see her singing

Make sure and mark that tune

The song she sings has staind my heart

with a love i never knew.

one look from him

one smile upon his face

one kiss from his lips

one hug in his arms

one taste of his skin

one touch from his hand

one feeling he shares with me

one emotion he has for me

as i look into his eyes, he sees me for that which i really am

he does not judge me, he does not punish me

he holds me close and tells me that everything will be ok

if everything in life was easy what would be the point of living

As I slip into the darkness I find him waiting for me.

Covered in blood and hanging on to life by a string.

He is the one that I craved, the one that I feared.

The one who told me he would never forget me.

As I walk up to him, he sees me and starts to quiver.

He doesn't recognize who I am, but that is to be expected.

I tell him not to worry and that everything is going to be ok.

There, alone in the darkness I make him mine.

I take from him the very life that he had once given me.

Tasting his scent and consuming his sweetness.

Taking everything and giving nothing in return.

you dont fucking know what i am going through or dealing with so what right does that give you to judge my actions... your not in my shoes and you dont know what is going on in this fucked up head of mine... day in and day out its the same old routine... no help not even from the spermdonor... you look at me like i am crazy but that is all that he is to him nothing more and nothing less.

Laying in each others arms with sleep on its way, there is no greater feeling than being with you.

With your arms around me tight, making me feel safe and secure, there is no other place I would rather be.

Hearing the sound your heart beating, send chills through out my body as I lay my head on your chest.

Feeling your fingers gently caress my face, as you pull the single strands of hair out of my eyes, sends my heart soaring up into my throat.

There is no greater feeling than being with you, cuddled up in bed and finding our way to sleep together.

I'm afraid and i don't know why...

This feeling is overwhelming and its swallowing me whole...

No matter how hard I try, I just cant fight it anymore...

You've taken me under and i don't want to surface.



Each day goes by, I find more reasons to love you.

Whether it be the way that you laugh or the way that you smile.

I love everything about you and there is no denying it...



When I first met you, I was afraid to talk to you,

When I first talked to you, I was afraid to like you,

When i first liked you, I was afraid to love you...

Now that I love you, I am afraid to let you go!



Darling... I love you and I hope you know that

I'M REALLY FEELING LIKE SHIT RIGHT NOW, NOT KNOWING WHAT TO DO OR WHO TO TURN TO... IT SEEMS LIKE THAT EVERY LITTLE THING I DO EITHER PISSES SOMEONE OFF OR GETS SHIT FUCKED UP BECAUSE I SAID OR DID THE WRONG THING AND PUSHED SOMEONES BUTTONS... WELL... I AM GOING TO SAY THIS... I AM WHAT I AM AND I AM NOT ABOUT TO CHANGE THAT... IF YOU CANT ACCEPT ME FOR WHO I AM THEN PLEASE FEEL FREE TO SHUT THE F*CK UP AND LEAVE NOW IF YOU ARE WILLING TO GET TO KNOW ME FOR WHO I AM THEN PLEASE KEEP READING... I'M NOT GOING TO CHANGE WHO I AM JUST TO MAKE OTHER PEOPLE HAPPY 'ID RATHER BE HATED FOR BEING MY SELF THAN BE LOVED FOR SOMETHING I'M NOT' (not sure if that is correct but you get the point) I'M DONE TRYING TO KEEP PEOPLE HAPPY BY NOT BEING MYSELF AND STAYING ON THEIR 'GOOD SIDE'..... FOR ANYONE WHO IS READING THIS... IF I HAVE IN SOME WAY OFFENDED YOU FOR BEING MYSELF... IM NOT GOING TO SAY I AM SORRY... IM DONE WITH THE SORRIES... BUT I DO FEEL SORRY FOR THOSE WHO ARE UNWILLING TO ACCEPT PEOPLE FOR WHO THEY ARE... IM DONE TRYING TO PLEASE PEOPLE AND I'M TIRED OF NOT BEING HAPPY WITH WHAT THEY WANT ME TO BE... YOU WONT ACCEPT ME FOR WHO I AM, FINE IF YOU ARE WILLING TO GET TO KNOW ME AFTER THIS RANT... GOOD.... IT SHOWS HOW TRUE YOU ARE.... After this... i shall return to my normal bubbly bouncy self and if you dont like it YOU CAN KISS MY BUM

You are the fire in my soul that can not be extinguished.

You are the light of my life that can not be hid from.

But together in each others arms we are safe and nothing can stand in our way.

I hear your voice on the phone and my heart skips a beat.

I see your smile and i cant help but to smile as well.

I look into your eyes and see to the very depths of your soul.

I open my heart to you, giving you everything that i hold dear.

You have torn down the walls that have been around me for so long and now I can finally let my true self be seen.

I have fallen in love with you and there is no turning back.

A single touch can have a million meanings. A single look can tell the oldest of stories. With a single kiss explodes the deepest of emotions. Not those of which are felt for our fathers and mothers, but those that are felt by the truest of lovers. They know everything about one another and yet they still learn new things about each other every waking minute until they pass from this world to the next. These lovers are the ones that at first glance upon meeting, realize that there is something so familiar about this person its almost frightening.