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Have you ever been at a point in your life where you just wonder what is happening with your life? Are you happy with where your life is at? Is there more to want you want in life?



These past few weeks I have been feelings of wanting more. More of what I don't know. I just think that there is more I could be doing with or in my life.



Feelings of lost!

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DedLocke
12:10 Oct 19 2009

Yes I understand and feel all of that...but know this you have friends that care about you here...and if you ever need to talk you can come to us...

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temptation101
22:58 Oct 20 2009

Thank you so much!!

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DedLocke
12:25 Oct 21 2009

Always...because you are not the only person that feels this way...It is amazing how many of us think that we have to go it alone because we think that no one can understand...but you're not alone..

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Here is the other side of our porch.

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DedLocke
12:08 Oct 19 2009

Your decorations are awesome...I miss doing that...when I had a house I went all out to even mowing the lawn to look like graves then I would put head stones that I made out of styrofoam(like the ones you can buy at the store)...this is the one holiday that I loved doing....

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Here are a few decorations that we have on our front porch. The milk jugs have orange lights in them, so look like a pumpkin at night. (I suck at carving a pumpkin, I mutilate them.)

Here is the scarecrow I made for my daughter, she loves him!!

Well my daughter will no longer be attending day care. I made the decision today that she is just not ready for that type of environment. She needs to be in a smaller setting with less demands of her.



The people at the day care center were kinda rude and snotty.



I think it will be better once she is potty trained. Then it will be a little easier for her and the care giver.



And it will be less stressful on me.

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Viridian
23:21 Oct 16 2009

Good thing you re-posted this because you didn't get enough attention the first time LOLLERBAWLS

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DedLocke
11:29 Oct 18 2009

Viridian

Specter



User is SUSPENDED until: Infinity



Suspended by: imagesinwords



Suspended On: 00:03:51 - Oct 18 2009



Suspended For: Indefinite Period



Comment: You can stay away for good. You don't need a second chance of site suspension. Spamming the VR chat with nonsense, along with all the other things that happened today in regards to Admin harassment via personal message and vamp box behavior is enough to send you off for good. You were here for no other reason than to cause trouble.

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temptation101
21:18 Oct 18 2009

Rock on!!!

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Well it seems that my daughter is not going to be going to day care any more.



They will not work with her.



I do not like the way they do things in there any ways.



So it is back to square one.

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Viridian
02:27 Oct 16 2009

sadfase

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On October 14, 2009, my daughter Cheyenne will go to her first day of day care. It will only be for 2 1/2 hours, but I am still a little concerned.



She has not been really sick since she was born, but now I am afraid she will be sick all the time being around all the other kids.



I have to take her to the doctor for a TB test on next Thursday, so I will ask the doctor about the Flu shot.



I so do not want to hear my little angle cry. But I will do what I need to do to protect her.

October 13th was my birthday!



It was an okay day. Nothing to write home about. It was gloomy outside and rainy and windy.



I got called into work to work third shift no less.



Work 11pm to 7am and then have to turn around and go back in at 3pm.



Plus I have to take my daughter to her first day of day care at 2:15pm.

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LadyKrystalynDarkstar
19:55 Oct 14 2009

Happy belated birthday to a very dear sweet friend. I am sorry I wasn't aware of it. I hope it went smoothly despite what you've mentioned. You are loved.

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Next Monday, October 12, 2009, will be my four year mark here on the Rave.



On Tuesday, October 13, 2009, I will turn 33.



WooHoo!!

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eMetiB226
01:07 Oct 12 2009

happy early VR b day and happy early B day as well!!! i'll forget if i don't say it now!

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On Monday, my dad told me that it was time to find Cheyenne a day care to give my mom a break. Cheyenne is starting to wear her out. I really can't afford to spend the extra money right now on day care. But I broke down and called a few places on Tuesday and Wednesday.



Cheyenne will start going to day care next Wednesday from 2:30pm to 5pm. She will go on Weds, Thurs and Fri. It will cost me $33 a week. Which isn't bad, but that is an extra $132 I have to come up with in a month. I am barely making it by now.



On another note, I had to rush my dog to the vet on Tuesday morning because he had scratched the right side of his face raw. It was bleeding so bad Monday night that I had to wrap a towel around his head to stop the bleeding. Then I had to bandage him up for the night. That cost me an unexpected $75. I had to take that money out of my savings, which is basically zilch now.



Then this morning at around 5 am, my furnace started making a strange noise that woke me up. I had to shut it off, because I didn't know what the deal was. I called my repair man and he was going to come look at this evening and let me know what is up. I really need a new one, this one is a dinosaur. The guy that sold it to me, sucked me in on it and took advantage of me when I bought my house. Plus it is an outside unit, which is all around bad to start with. But I don't have the 3 thousand to buy a new one.



I have so much other stuff going wrong it is pathetic. I need a new hot water heater, washer and dryer.



I am realizing that being a single parent is really hard when you can not get help from the state, because you make to much money. I think that is such a load of shit.



I don't make that much money. I barely make over the amount the state limits.



Times are tough, times are hard, here's your f***ing whine ass card!!

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DedLocke
12:01 Oct 09 2009

Hang in there I know you are strong enough to overcome anything...I believe in you because you have helped me so much in my life...

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I have to admit I am addicted to the Vampire Diaries on the CW. Ian and Paul play their parts very well. I started to read the books before the series came out, but it was kinda dry. I didn't even get past the first 20 pages.



But I would recommend the TV series. You can watch it on the CWTV.com website.

I am having a really emotional day today. It all started last night.



Right before we got ready to go to bed, my baby started coughing and saying her throat hurt. So I gave her some medicine to help her sleep. But it did not help her. She woke up about every two hours coughing and hacking, gasping for breath because her poor little nose was clogged.



This morning she left to go on vacation with my parents. I told my mom I would call to check on her later this evening. When the time came for me to call, her phone went straight to voice mail. So did my dad's. So I started to get worried.



I was finally able to get a hold of one of the guys, that went with them, cell phone number. I reached him and got to check in my baby. My dad said she was doing good and that he would call me tomorrow to let me know whats going on.



I don't know what I am going to do with out her for 5 days. I miss her so much already.

This past week my daughter and I stumbled on the cutest cartoon on PBS. It is called Dinosaur Train. It has all the different dinosaurs from the 3 different periods. It deals with real life problems for little children to relate too.