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been a while since i updated my countown oopsy oh well only 9 more days till my bday wahoo for me and now im a level 16 yay party time

14 days n ill b 17

16 more days hoochies till im friggin 17 wahoo for me woop woop *does backflip* lol

when every1 gets a chance take a look at my portfolio...i put up an in loving memory thing for all who has passed....RIP to the 32 IMPORTANT hokie members who died on april 16,2007 u will b missed guys...../////......18 days left till im 17!!!

good news i got ahold of most of my friends except 2 but i went and they were not at any hospital near by so idk y they have not answered my calls......but anyways countdown continued......19 days till im 17 wahoo for me

idk if u all heard or not but there is a college close by called the virginia tech college and a ton of my senior friends from last year and da year b4 go there and there was a shootin today at tht school 32 is dead and 28 injured and ive called and called ALL my friends and none will answer and have not called back ive been really freakin out over it so if i dont message u back well im tryin to get ahold of my buddies cuz to me rite now thts more important sry ~tasha~

well i think i messed up at first on this countdown but o well to late now lol anyways 22 days till im 17 woop woop for me hehe

ive been through pure hell my whole life but yea u wont c me showin it much but if u bcum one of my good good friends u can usually tell whn somethin is wrong usually by the way i act towards things...i dont really like to tlk much about my problems....lets c whr to start...my parents-dont gv a fuck bout me hate me call me a mistake,whore,slut,waste of time and wish i would leave but i have nowhere else to go.....boys-my ex use to b on drugs n he would abuse me...ive been wit 4 guys (sexually) and only 1 was of MY CHOICE....i was raped by a man last year whn i was at my aunts party.....got drunk passed out woke up next morning naked beside this 29 yr old man (i was 15 at the time) then there is my other ex whom i was wit for 1 yr n 9 months...engaged to for 1 yr n 2 months........he was a controlin bastard...forced me to have sex wit 2 guys 1 whom was like my bro we WERE so close.....death- lost someone sooo special to me...actually couple ppl but 1 in particular was the closest to me...my brother dusty ray.......he got killed at a new years party on jan 2, 2005....but yea ive been through sooo much hell so will u all stop askin if im ok and whn i say no u ask y gosh ~tasha~

25 days till im 17 woop woop...and to make things even better muh friggin status went up im now a level 15 or a vampling wahoo for me

ok so as most of ya kno my bday is on may 7th well only 26 more days for me wahoo ill b 17 yay for me!!!!

Body:..............

Girl: I was at my grandmothers helping her around the house



Boy: Why didnt you fuckin call me?



Girl: Baby Im sorry i lost track of time



Boy: Not as sorry as your going to be bitch

(the boy grabs her by the hair and slams her to the ground)



Girl: Please baby stop im sorry



Boy: Kicks her in the face and then the ribs and says I called your fuckin grandmothers house you were not fuckin there you lying peice of shit



Girl: Wait stop please let me...



Boy: Steps on her throat and says Shut the fuck up bitch. Get's over the top of her and starts to rape her.



Girl: No baby please Stop please



Boy: I said shut the fuck up and he spit in her face. He then pins her down with her hands above her head, and he penatrates her



Girl: Please stop your hurting me please. She starts to screem and tries to get away



Boy: Bitch if you don't shut up i sware to god ill kill you after a few minutes he finishes and removes the rest of her clothes and pushes her out in the snow, saying stay away from here you nasty bitch.



Girl: Crying and sobbing she takes out a Rolex watch and says today is christmas i was just getting your gift. She gets in her car,

she gets home and takes a long shower....



Two months later she goes to apply for a job and has to take a drug test. The boss comes out and says i have news for you your not on drugs, but you are pregnant. The girl begins to cry and drives home she decides to call the boy but, he doesn't answer.......



6 months later she is almost nine months pregnant and the phone rings its the boy



Girl: I missed you so much i have news for you im pregnant and its your baby!



Boy: Really well................................. Look you nasty bitch that is not my baby get the fuck over me i hate your guts you are a nasty whore fuck you never call me again... ohh yeah, and i never loved you, you were just another piece of ass. The boy hangs up.



Girl: I think its finally over she calls her mom....



Mom: Hi Baby. How are you?



Girl: Im fine how are you?



Mom: Good



Girl: Mom I was callin you to tell you that i love you okay



Mom: I love you to baby. Do you think you are coming over today?



Girl: Nah i think im just going to take a long nap



Mom: Okay, bye then baby, sleep tight



Girl: I will mom goodnight. Hangs up.



Mom realizes its only nine am and has a bad feeling she drives over to her daughters house opens the door and see's her daughter hanging from the ceiling fan, her wrists are cut and shes not breathing she is rushed to the hospital. The baby is saved............................................. ...............................................



15 years later the baby, all grown now, kills her father, the man that conceived her and raped her mother and then kills herself.

yea im gettin tired of my profile again...so if anybody has any idea's for it to make it diff let me know plz n ill go n and change it if i like the idea as well.....ttyl muah's to all cya ~tasha~

im so down and sad right now i cant explain it. i feel like something is missin in my life but idk what it is. i miss my lost loved ones so much that its slowly killing me inside. my cousin was one to always cheer ppl up but he is no longer with us n even tho its been 3 yrs since he passed i still cry over him. i have nobody to hold me when im down. im always alone. nobody to talk to or to tell my feelings to. it hurts and i wanna go away....just far far away from my past......i wanna b somewhr whr im loved for once n whr i have no worries but is this just a fantasy or can it b reality??? idk anymore im just sooo down right now and upset that i wanna gv up on everything but i kno tht if i do tht the one person tht looks up to me will see someone that she doesnt wanna see and tht is her hero down and at her weakest n i cant i have to remain strong for my lil cuz....she is the one whom means everything to me in my family now....she is all i have left....my family is nothing but backstabbing drunks who care bout nothin but fighting and gettin a good reputation out on the streets....i kno tht if i end this life of mine rite now tht she will have nothin left to live for bcuz i am her survival medicine....i am wht keeps her alive.....idk anymore i just dont know.....i just wanna b happy is all....i wanna b picked up off my feet and b able to smile and it not b a false smile....some ppl say i need help....i just say they needa stay outta my fuckin business.....i just wanna go somewhr far far away is all....well idk if this makes any sense to anybody but it makes a hell of a lotta sense to me...anyways i gotta go now love u all muah's cya ~tasha~

im finally at the beach for my spring break wahoo's im happy...finally gettin away from tht shitty town called marion virginia lol.....well nothin new has really happend in my life except i found out tht after my aunt passed away tht her son the one she use to live wit has been treatin my grandmother like shit n honesly if it wasnt for my grandmother thn my aunt would have never lived as long as she did in the first place bcuz my granny was the only one who always fed my aunt cuz nobody else would get off their lazy asses to help her out....and my grandmother asked my aunts son if she could have her fathers family bible and he said uh hell no its stayin right were its at and oohh u just wait till i get bak down to marion there is gonna b some major ass kickin cuz its not right him treatin her like tht after all she has done for them.....another thing is tht i found out someone is fuckin wit my friend whom is like my sis (jessica aka darkravensgirl on here) and they aint gonna like wht happens whn i get bak cuz im gonna b doin a lot of ass kickin then to...well anyways this is bout all i got to say for now....will update later...muah's to all who takes the time out to read my journal neways cya all later ~tasha~