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okay, today I'm feeling somewhat better but I still hope he's just a miserable as I am.. I know it sounds petty but honestly he's such an ass .. hell calling him an ass is an insult to asses.. but you get the picture I know he's not going to take care of his responsibilities...

Okay, here goes I still feel like shit today, and being anywhere near my house makes it worse.. I hate my human's family, and even my own bedroom these days... too many memories of love and betray too raw too fresh to live with.. I swear his scent still lingers there... this is insane or maybe I am.. but anyway I guess over all what I should say is ssdd... but not really... with everything thats going on I guess things are changing but the same old misery hangs in the air, thick enough to breath...

I haven't been on vr in awhile I guess I've been too busy making stupid decisions.. I don't know why I'm journaling b/c I won't go into details on here .. or anywhere online... maybe I'm just venting and trying to keep myself from loosing what little sanity I have left and maybe I have none left.. I don't understand myself I knew it was going to be bad before I got into it , but my heart thought it could change the situation and that I could escape the inevitable... stupidity in full, and the heart felt mistakes of a teenage girl.. eh... I disgust myself these days... Well, anyway I guess I've done enough ranting for now because all the ranting/raving / discussing won't help me now my fate lays in the hands of the goddess.... Blessed Be all