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Okay, deep in research today. How come no one EVER told me about True Will before? Seriously? That's important information!



This is getting better and better every day....

I have visited many portfolios on here; I am relieved that I'm not altogether alone in my thoughts, interests or path.



I admire your collective ability to be so open...it's definitely not something I'm used to! Raised in the Bible Belt of Texas...well, I'm sure many of you can relate. Honestly, concepts of right and wrong are so ingrained in me from my upbringing that it never occurred to me to do anything but follow. I never considered rebelling or deviating from the "norm" -- I enjoyed my solitude. It's like a delicious secret. Today, I have a slightly different take on that. The dreams are more broad reaching, more coaxing....I feel as though an expansion in my mind has occurred. All this time my intrigue has only reached my peripheral thoughts -- but now? Well, I feel like there are no limits. I like it.



However, there are many advantages to being so well blended in to everyday life that no one would suspect for an instant what thoughts are really harbored behind my business suits, heels and hair updone neatly with tidy pearl necklaces and earrings. Ha! Southern charm...and dark thoughts behind blue eyes. How much fun is that?



Much of what is written in your profiles has been very enlightening....it's helped me put some of the pieces of the thoughts I have together. I have no real understanding of so many aspects of vampirism. Certainly no idea there are different kinds....of course, through reading and such I've assumed as much, but never had it explained by one who lives it. I respect and admire the freedoms you obviously enjoy.

Please do not mistake my ramblings to mean that I am seeking some sort of confirmation that I'm a being from another place or time...I've had enough life experiences to fully appreciate the differences of many things, either way. Interpret that as you will.



I do; however, feel energies of people, places, etc. To some extent, I think we all do. Some feelings just roll off of a person or place. I tend to notice their nonverbal communication: their breathing, their sometimes obvious racing pulse (which I enjoy)...the instinct of sensing "something".......



I am merely pondering what to do with these extra senses; I feel a certain responsibility to understand and learn. I think the event that happened when I was 7yrs old was just a means to bring it the forefront of conscious thought. A point of thought that I have very deliberately kept tidy in the corners of everyday thought.



For you curious, rather forward souls: I'm straight. I'm passionately married to my soul mate and I do not feel the need in any way to cyber. However, I respect people as they are; without judgement or harm.

Today is my first day on here. Not that I haven't checked out the site before....but the first time I had actually convinced myself that I'm not crazy or weird. I'm not here because seen too many vampire movies, or read too many books, or anything like that.



From a very early age, I have known that there is a part of me that I don't fully recognize; and, therefore I don't have a neat, little compartment for it in my brain. And, it's dark. But not all the way dark. I feel some kind of understanding that even though society may view some things as "dark", doesn't necessarily mean that they are. Afterall, aren't nearly all of the beliefs that modern society have today based on lack of understanding and man's fear of the unknown? All cloaked in mystery and hear say? I think it is absolutely possible that vampires and other such forces do exist among us each day, and it's not all necessarily dark or evil.



I have always been extremely sensitive to "feelings" or just "knowing" things, people, places -- almost a constant de ja vu' -- I'm hoping there is someone out there who can relate to that and teach me what it is that I am only partially aware of within my senses. For many years, I passed off my early experience as a dream, an apparition brought about by the stress of moving and relocating. Why, then, do I continue to feel this female "vampire" just on the perimeter of my being? Why was "vampire" the very first thing that came to mind as I looked up at her? Still, she's always there -- always watchful. Not in a malicious or harmful way, but there. That alone contradicts everything I was taught to believe about creatures of the night. She was not a blood-thirsty, evil beast intent upon killing me. Then, again, why would she possibly have any interest in my ordinary life? Is she a surpressed part of my psyche? Is she with me because she IS me on some level I don't fully understand at this point in my life?



Enough. I'm not getting anywhere by avoiding it. It only makes things more confusing. The thoughts, the perceptions....oddly, I don't feel guilty or like I'm doing anything "bad" by being here. No.