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well i started music school and so far its going well, have homework and i am doing good on memory. my mind is not as strong as it was back in 1997. my mind is the age of a 65 year old due to my illness and the medications i take taken the memory from me. mom thinks the pills is frying my brain cause i take so many pills and strong ones as well. so going to school is a challenge for me.



in jan. i start my religion classes to be a reverend, not sure how that is going to work but its far from now so i am not going to worry much about it right now..



you know, i sit here and look around my room and see all the things i have in my room, to a guy this would be his dream room, music all over the place high tec computers and recorders, trophies from sports. but if i could, i would give all this up just to have someone love me for who i am, someone to touch me when i am alone or sad, someone to cry on and they to cry with me when in pain, someone to hold when i am in the ER when doctors put needles in me, someone to hold me for no reason and tell me softly that they love me.



the riches man alive is the one who finds true love and the riches women are the ones who find their true soul mate, if you have a lover,be sure not to take for granted the little things she or he does, cause when they are gone you will miss the small things they did in your life.



at night i cry sometimes alone cause i have no one by my side, its so hard to walk out in the world seeing people in love and i alone and in pain. no one cares for me,i know i will die alone and i know i will cry when that time comes not cause of fear of death but the fear of dyeing alone with no one to hold and love when i fade away.



if there is anyone who is alone like i and feels like i do, let me know that i am not the only one, please, so that i know i am not the only one who cries for someone to come by one day and say "i'm in love with you."



thank you

dvon



"please dont let this heart go alone in darkness in death."