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it was a lonly day that was for sure. he looked out the window into the cold winter day. it snowed like it was making up for lost time. buckets and buckets of beautiful white powder filled the driveway. he watched the snow fall thinking of how things used to be. snow is usually watched by the fireplace sitting next to your lover drinking hott coca, not alone, and not like this, he thought. things used to be different before she came. she came and broke everything to pieces. everything he saw reminded him of her. he missed the way her face would light up when she saw snow fall. she would run out without the proper clothes on as if she didnt go out then she would miss it. he would laugh and usher her back into the house. she would always say "Quit ruining my fun, jereth." as if he could she always had fun doing anything and everything in her life. he was always so concerned for her. he never wanted to loose her. she was so important to him, he never wanted it to be like this. but it was, and all things end as much as he hated that fact. he had no idea why she had left. she just woke up and said it was over. he had done so much for her. he had cared for her protected her, he had givin up his life for her happyness. he loved her with every fiber of his being. why did she go? he thought as tears filled his eyes. he was sick of this. he needed to go home. he needed to get away from the memory of her. she was never comming back and he had to accept that, but it was so hard. he had spent so much of his life loving her. he had loved her since she was 15. she was his firs love. he used to be so cold and cruel untill she came. she broke down the walls of his heart and made him forget why they were up in the first place. "why did she do this?" he kept asking himself over and over again. "wasnt i good enough?" but he wasnt, he never was. there was always an empty space that he could never fill as hard as tried but it never worked out. he had learned a deperate lesson that cold day she left, he cant love anymore for loving in itself is a harder thing to do than breathing. no matter how hard he tried to avaoid love it had finally found him and as much as he wanted the pain to vanish he would rather die then not love. he finally understood why mortals love, because for them love is a price far worse than death for finding love is greater than any discovery man has ever made and as easily as it is found it can dissappear. he would never forget her and for that he was glad because he never wanted to. but god did he miss her.

Today while reading through the posts i found a thread called vampire dreams. this was interesting to me because i have had a recurring one for quite some time now. this is my dream and i hope you all enjoy!



*** Its starts out on a beautiful summers eve. im watching the sun going down thinking of the past. the sky is blue and pink with blood streaking the clouds. i leave the portch of my house as the sun is about gone waiving goodbye to every family member i know. i step onto the ground and the sky turns black and everyone is gone. the house is old and broken down with graves in the backyard. as i walk along the new graveyard a man whose face i have never seen comes to stand beside me. he is handsome pale skin jet black shoulder length curly hair and bright blue eyes. he is toned and wearing a red silk dress shirt a black tie, black leather pants and a black leather trench coat.



he gets close and takes my hand as i look at my mothers grave and says "your too late for the funeral. theyve all gone now but i waited for you." "how did this happen. this is wrong i could have stopped this." i say tears forming behind my eyes. "theres nothing to be done it was thier time. now it is your turn. they are gone and now you must think of you and now we can finally be together. i love you and nothing will ever change that now it is time to join me at my side for all eternity." then he is gone and i just stand there.



i then look behind me. the scenery has changed to an old city of broken buildings. there is an alley in between two of the closest buildings to me where he waits for me. he smokes a cigarette and throws it on the groung signaling me to come to him, to follow him into the darkness. i here his voice in my head saying "its alright" and "now you can be free" i follow his reassuring voice into the dark and he grabbs me by the waist and bits me from behind. as i slowly feel more and more blood leaving my body i feel more and more alive by his touch. he lays me on a bed of black roses and gives me his wrist to drink and says "now my love we will be together forever" and as i look into his eyes and see the love and want i feel safe. and as i feel the change happening i wake up in a sweat soaked daze not even remembering my name for minutes and i cry out "Gabriel!"



nice huh! ive always had wierd things like this happen to me. this is all true belive what you want. i hope you enjoyed this!



***Christina