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so for todays thought!...I am a being of countless abilits..soem of which I am very proud of and others I'm not so proud of!...but I see this thing that most have...this love for some one....not like your kids or your family but of some one you are with b/f g/f husbend/wife...what ever there title might be..I have this yern for it..but I trust no one to have it! servivel is what I have only known watch every thing you do,say,act...be sure that every one you are with is exspendablie...my heart cased in this block of ice..with no emotions to melt it away....yet I still feel this burning this, paridox of want!..I know I lust..every one dose but I can't I wont alow my self to care enough..well any way thats enough of my mindless rambleing! say what you will about it I'm intrested in what you think!

WHAT IS IT ABOUT ME THAT PEOPLE WANT TO KNOW SO MUCH ABOUT? THIS IS A QUESTION i MAY NEVER KNOW THE ANSWER TO...i AM SMALL BUT STRONG..KIND BUT RUTHLESS..LIGHT HEARTED BUT COVERD IN ICE...I FEEL NOTHING FOR NO ONE UNLESS I TRUST THEM..AND THATS VERY FEW...I HAVE BEEN AT WAR BOTH THE CURENT AND WITH MY SELF...CAN I LOVE DOUBTFUL BUT I TRY...WHY? WHAT DID WANTING OR YERNING EVER DO FOR ME OR ANY ONE ELSE FOR THAT MATTER...I HAVE BEEN MARRIED TWICE AND NOW DIVORICED ONCE AND WORKING ON HE SECOND....I AM A DEMON WITH IN A DEMON..NOT REALLY BUT THATS HOW I FEEL MOST OF THE TIME..I LIVE BY FUCK IT! THAT WAY I'M SAFE...I'M DANGORUSE AND DEADLY FOR A MAN SO SMALL IN WEIGHT..I FEAR NOTHING AND NO ONE...EVERY THING I HAVE FEARED HAS COME TO CALL...MY SOUL ID EMPTY AND LOST...BUT I AM FUNNY ABLE TO CRACK A JOKE FOR ANY SCREWED UP SITUATION OR JUST TO BREAK THE ICE WITH NEW FACE..I AM VERY SMART BUT NOT UNABLE TO SPEAK MY MIND...I AM JUST ME ON A PATH THAT I AM UNSURTEN OF THE DESTANATION...JUDGING FROM MY SPELLING AND SUCH YOU WOULD NEVER GUESS I HAVE TWO DEGREES BUT I DO AND MEAN NOTHING TO ME ANY MORE I'M NOT DEPRESSED BUT I'M NOT HAPPY! I AM A CONTRADICTION IN TERMS...BUT SIMPLY I HAVE FUN NO MATTER WHAT!