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Im not one to think too highly of my looks, but with my new hair cut/style....I'd say, probabl the cutest I've ever seen myself.



Im not conceited, just finally satisfied with how I currently look.

OMG!!!!...I dunno what planet I've been living on, but I was like the only one of my friends that hadn't seen The Rocky Horror Picture Show.



Well, i finally saw it. It was the cheesiest of all cheesy musicals, but is my new favorite. I love doing the time warp when Im bored.



Another new obsession is the singer from I Am Ghost. If you dont know who they are, look them up. Its easy....they have a myspace.

Steve is such a hottie. And he's got this gothic flare to him. Their video for "Our Friend Lazerus Sleeps" has a small scene of a gothic wedding, I could totally see him having one for real. lol With me maybe? lol Who am I kidding? That will never happen. At least I'm not believing that it ever could. That would be crazy.

Ahh...so one thing that has been helping keep me sane, is my interests in the occult. Meditating helps so much when I get too stressed.



And my books upon books that I buy about crystal healing, chakra balancing, candle magick, spirit communication, fortune telling, witchcraft....i love them all.



I'm currently reading The Book of Spirit Communication by Raymond Buckland. Next will be his Complete Book of Witchcraft.



I bought a chakra bracelet not too long ago, i wear it everyday. I also bought some new crystal for my collection. I bought a garnet, it was said to help me realize my addictions and help me stop them....haha that would be shopping. lol I find that funny.



I also bought some incencse. My favorite is the one called Black Opium. omg...so relaxing.



If anyone recommends any books to me, i'd greatly appreciate it. Blessed be.

The therapy sessions continue. the one about Jared was not too long ago. That one was rough. I'd been putting that one aside for quite some time. But he and I had closure. He came in my dreams and said goodbye. I felt him there, I felt him lay next to me and hold me. He apologized for not being able to see me before he'd been shipped off. One day in the future, I will make that trip to Louisiana to visit his grave.

As each day passes, it gets a little easier. I finally took the ring off my finger. THe ring he gave me, it now resides around my neck. Never comes off. One day when I pass, I'll see him again. I dunno why, but I'm no longer afraid to die. Just afraid of the way in which I will die.