The Ultimate Vampire Resource and Directory

friend or foe??
20:24 Nov 29 2006
Times Read: 536

i have left myself open for a while now, hoping to find others like me, who could teach me more about the abilities that i am discovering within myself. I can feel you out there in the dark, huddled within your clans. are you scared...like the majority of the posers. do you feel me?



when i walk down your streets of dreams, while most of you lay sleeping, i can feel you run from me...don't, i am not on the hunt for food, just information. i am not after the glory of the kill, I am not of a clan, to be after standings, or advancement. i am a loner in search of honest answers. will you not teach me? you lose nothing and maybe gain an unbiased ally.

6 more months
02:39 Nov 28 2006
Times Read: 541

to borrow a quote-- slow but steady wins the race-- I want to hurry home and be with her...ROFL...ewww...dirty floor here, like the dirty air....ok...sidetracked...sorry...I know the longer we are apart the more we can learn of each other and appreciate the differences...and OMG...another quote....absence makes the heart grow fonder......LMAO....as if she really wants to do the absence part. On a side note...her kids...two at any rate have become my personal fan club...the oldest boy...is not to keen on showing feelings towards me, i totally understand where he is coming from as i have already been thru that with the ex wife's kids so long ago.



anyway, 6 more months, and it is already winter here. the first snow of the season, a sprinkle of it hit the ground where it promptly melted. I am not looking forward to the snow, it will be like everything else over here, dirty. At least with winter here, that means spring is around the corner, and then summer, and i will be on my way to the states to undergo all the medical crap, being injured entails, and the whole demobilization process as well, turning in of equipment, and the silly cerimonies to follow. then finally home to my unit after a several hour flight, then turning in of more equipment after cleaning the shit out of it, then waiting to be released, then the drive to the airport, and another several hour flight and then into the waiting arms of my mate, my lover, my friend. then home to try to piece myself back together and try to become normal (whatever that is), or at least learn how to fake it again. I hope she will be strong enough to deal with the aftermath of being in a war. Hell, I hope I am strong enough....LMAO...if not, then the pyshc ward here I come....ROFLMAO....

chapter 4
00:39 Nov 27 2006
Times Read: 543

Ok,

I thought I was done with chapter 4, but there was a spot or two I found that didn't add up. So I am adding a few paragraphs to fill in the gaps. it will add a darker twist on the main villian. deep, dark, evil twist.

novel
23:23 Nov 26 2006
Times Read: 544

Just finished chapter 4 of my novel. am going to let my writing class tell me what they think. while they are doin that, i will be finishing up chapter 5 and 6.

For the Love of a Queen
00:36 Nov 26 2006
Times Read: 547

all night, I have been making corrections to my novel. Now if I was an accomplished writer, I wouldn't be making all these grammatical errors, as it is, I do, so I get to correct them. I wish I was rich enough to hire someone else to do this for me, but I guess I need to learn this.



After tonight, I will finish writing the rest of the chapters.



Beth;



Thank you for wanting to support my dream of becoming a published author. I know you have dreams that you want to persue. I will be happy and honored to be there for you as you go after them.

Enough of the Blahs!!!!
00:01 Nov 25 2006
Times Read: 556

I am sitting here, trying to get my homework caught up; a paragraph on a fond thanksgiving memory, and a sonnet. Well got the sonnet done and printed. Posted it to my poems section. Now I have to make up a fond memory of thanksgiving (I don't have any, so I got to fake it).



I have whined about being here and away from family and friends. There is nothing I can do to change this. What I can do is make the best of it, (I am certainly trying).



I cannot run home cause it is bad here, or cause I am in pain. So I will do as the Doc says, and suck it up and drive on.



I cannot help it if others (small minority) don't like the military. I will do what has to be done.



I cannot run into my mates arms (If I could, I would). I will just wait til the day comes and I board the plane (On My own two feet), and fly back to the states. In the meantime, I will take advantage of this and learn as much as I can.



Who knows, it might make a great book someday!!



I cannot fix the fact of havin to eat crappy (OK, shitty) food. It will make real food taste much better when I get home.



I cannot alter the fact of my ex's wanting me back. They have choosen to leave me for whatever reasons (their lose, not mine). I will go on. I love the woman who found me and decided that I was worth loving (God knows what she sees in me?). All in all, life is good, it could be a lot worse than it is.



Anyway, enough of shirking my homework, back to the grindstone!!!



I also need to quit being lazy and finish up my novel too!!!



OH Beth!!!!!



I haven't forgotten you!!!!!



I Love You!!!

To: All me ex's, even if you don't live in Texas
20:31 Nov 24 2006
Times Read: 558

It must be a cool thing, now, to want me back. I don't know if it is because I am in the Army, or fighting a war, or if it is the current rave. For whatever reason, it doesn't work like that, at least not for me. You all left me for whatever reasons popped into your heads; maybe I didn't measure up to the man scale in your heads, or I wasn't rich, or kind, or loving, WHATEVER. The fact remains, YOU left me. I DON"T want any of you back. I would much rather jump off a bridge than have to deal with any of you again. Oh! by the way, I have someone who treats me with respect, who actually cares for me, and who loves me, not for money, or what I might have in the future, but for me.



So have a Happy Holiday!



I hope you all find the MAN of your dreams and that he can measure up to the scale in your pretty little heads....

another cold lonely night
20:16 Nov 24 2006
Times Read: 560

it is so clear, you can see the stars in the sky. it is 25 degrees out and would snow if there was moisture in the air. a nice warm fireplace, decorations all around, people laughing and singing, and a nice warm drink or even coffee would go good right about now. back to reality, i sit here at my desk, one of the few chances i get now a days, alone, writing nonsense in a journal. my work is all caught up, so i have 8 hours left to work on writing a sonnet for my homework assignment for class. weel staring at this blinking cursor isn't getting anything acomplished...Happy Holidays, everyone

Happy Holidays To You
01:13 Nov 24 2006
Times Read: 565

it is hard for me to celebrate the holidays. once so long ago, i watched the life seep out of my granpa's eyes as i tried to get him to play with me. they finally came and took him away, i never saw him after that. He never cared that i was adopted, or that i was a bastard, born out of wedlock, all he cared about was that i was his grandson. Everone else treated me different, but not my grandpa. i always try to be alone for the holidays, so i can say goodbye. Goodbye Grandpa, I sure do miss you.



this year it is especially hard for me as i serve my country so far away from home and family. not knowing if ma or da will be the next to go. I only hope and pray that if their time is up that they go in peace. even if i was to go home it would be too late.



there is another reason this holiday is hard for me, the one i love (yes I said it) is far away. I cannot hold her, or whisper i love her in her ear, or even sit at the same table and eat the holiday meal, or attend mass or church. or the hundreds of other things families do on the holidays.



I pray that these people I and my fellow soldiers are helping, can understand the sacrifices we make on their behalf. our blood, sweat, and tears stains the ground they walk on. I hope our sacrifices are worth the price we pay for them.



Doesn't matter, soon my part in this will be over, and God willing I will be on my way back to the states where I can go back to finding a place to hang my hat and put up my feet, slap some ice on my knee and pop a few painpills, and try to readjust to what passes for a normal life.



And for all of you who think we get paid way to much or that we shouldn't be here, REMEMBER THIS; if it wasn't for soldiers like us; getting wounded, bleeding, and dying for you, you wouldn't be free to bitch and complain, and maybe, just maybe it would be you, or your sons and daughters doing this instead of us.



May God bless each and every one of you this holiday season. Have a very Happy Holidays!!

To Beth; With Love
04:11 Nov 22 2006
Times Read: 570

i sit here staring at the cards on my wall, at the picture her son sent me. i see the teddy bear sitting with the coupon for a massage on my bed. I know she loves me; she sends me reminders almost everyday, her journal reflects that as well. I feel bad cause i don't have cards to send her, or enough time on my phone to call every day. I wish i could express my feelings as good as she can. i wish i had enough time in a day to shower her with my love, but i am in a war. malls and fancy cards i don't have, nor can i run out to get them. my simple emails and chats here on VR don't measure up to all she has done for me, I hope that someday she can forgive me for that. and will accept the tiny fraction that i can give her now. if i could i would shower her with flowers and jewelry and take her out to dinner and movies. Hell, i would give her the very first book I get published, autographed especially for her, if that ever happens, and still it would not even be enough.



For now, all I can say is: Beth Elaine, I Love You!

Blessed Sleep
22:41 Nov 21 2006
Times Read: 572

My Day off;

has a nice ring to it, doesn't it?

Imagine what you could do on a day off.

mow the grass, get caught up on the honey-do list, go to the park with the kids, catch a movie, or countless other things to do in a day.



Me, I slept. I slept for 7 hours, got up and checked my email, then wandered around for a couple of hours, ate a mystery meat cheeseburger, then went back to bed and slept for 7 more hours. it is 3 am in the morning here and i am at work cause i am bored. i don't have class til 5 pm then back to qork at midnight, so I am up drinking coffee and checking my email, again.



oh beth!!!

i love you,



just think what this will do to your sleep habits for the first week or so!!!

cindy williams
21:11 Nov 20 2006
Times Read: 578

ms williams, a second rate tv actor of laverne & shirley tv show posted an article either today or yesterday stating that the government gacve the military a 13% pay raise, and further stated that we in the military made too muxh as it is.



Her article has started a shit storm, of the response she got (all negitive) i agree with every one of my fellow soldiers, sailors, and airman across the world.



She never joined the military, she has never been deployed to a war zone, she has never ate an MRE (meals ready to eat) they taste like shit, she has never ate fake turkey, ham or any other meat byproduct. she has never left her family to go several thousands of miles away, freeze her ass off in a desert at night, or get baked in the day from the oppressive heat, she never had to spend a holiday away from her family on the other side of the world. I don't think she has seen fellow soldiers die, or her friends from bombs, or bullets.



So until this second rate actor can don a uniform and come join us to protct her freedom of speech, then she should shut her piehole.



I don't know where she got her information, but being the soldier I am, I will go out tomorrow and maybe give my life so that she can sit in her fncy home with her outragious yearly paycheck, and bad mouth the military just so she can have her moment of fame in the press.



Oh and by the way, that 13% pay increase for the military; I would love to see even 1% trickle down to my bank account, then maybe i could actually pay a bill with it.



So mrs williams, are you becoming this decades Jane Fonda???? if so you are in good company, cause if you ask most servicemen what they thought of her, you probably not like what you would hear.

my novel
19:57 Nov 20 2006
Times Read: 579

today in my creative writing class, the critiqued my novel. I am depressed. they for the most part (i think) didn't read it. they pretty much went page to page. I knew my writing needed to be rewritten, because i don't know how to spell very good, and my usage of the tenses is not consistant. but even so, they questioned the motivations of a couple of characters that i explain a bit further in the novel, and picked at the tension of the two main characters, saying there is not enough of it, and the main characters lack of emotion when he found out his family was murdered. so I am sitting on it for a couple of days then i am going to finish it up, then go back and rewrite it to cover the points I feel need to be expounded upon and let the rest alone.

Dear Beth
02:47 Nov 20 2006
Times Read: 582

if you only knew how long i have been waiting for a girl like you to come into my life, with love, caring, and understanding.



I had givin up, i was seriously thinking of going back to the ex. she was the only thing i knew. i felt that that was what i deserved. to be treated like dirt, to always be wrong, nothing i ever did was good enough, my dreams were impossible. to be old before i was supposed to be old.



i never thought that i would ever feel love again. sometimes i am so scared that i want to run and hide, to push you away. to doubt. to question this feeling. at those moments, i realize that i am stupid,cause if anything i should thank God for letting me be happy again.



I don't know how long I will get to enjoy this, being with you, or if it is already gone. All i do know is that i have totally enjoyed the time we got to spend together, and I hope for many more days to come.



I cannot tell God what I want, I can only offer him my hopes and dreams, and let him decide how to make them come true.



I have not been on his good side for many a year, so I don't know how this will work out.



I Love You Beth.

Head Games
02:23 Nov 20 2006
Times Read: 583

sleepless days plague me, as i get closer to finishing my novel. i am so hyped about its near completion, that even the characters in it are whispering to me about this and that that i overlooked. even when i am supposed to be working, i find that my novel takes my mind away from my job, and i end up writing beforei can stop myself. i know that i still have to go thru it and rewrite it to make sure i flows as smooth as a river, no a ripple anywhere unless i want it there.

shape of things to come
01:08 Nov 19 2006
Times Read: 588

since i have had additional duties added, (security detail) I have been getting myself into better shape, I am in good shape now, but I want to be able to deal with whatever may happen. I realize that i can't run very well due to my knee, but at least i will be able to walk fast. I also know that if i have to carry or drag a buddy, that i will be able to do so without to much trouble. The fringe benifit is that i will be in better shape so when i see my beth again, she will be shocked and surprised. I will carry her to the bedroom and toss her on the bed, and then pounce on her.



For those of you that are young cover your eyes and plug your ears.....LMAO!!!!!



Beth, baby, better get ready!!!! cause if i have my way you will be screaming very soon!!!!!

Love
00:10 Nov 19 2006
Times Read: 589

if she could look into my eyes right this moment. she would see love, not the kind that kids say to their parents, or the kind you have when you are young. this is the kind that can stand the tests that life and God can dish out. The kind of love that can withstand long times apart and many thousands of miles of seperation. No matter what we can say to each other, the teasing that we do. the frustrations that come with little misunderstandings. the not knowing if tomorrow will ever come. I can say this for a certainty, if I am allowed to finish this tour in one piece and breathing, then she will have a handful dealing with all this love that i have been saving up. She will not be able to walk without me on top of her. I will grab her up and hug her so much that she will push me away enough to be able to breath. I will kiss her so much that it will take her breath away.



Beth, you haven't even seen the depths of the love that i have for you; you have only seen the barest of surfaces. the slightest of touches. There is way more that I will shower you with upon my return. There is not a man on this whole planet that will love you like me, or make love to you. or touch you the way that i have and will. whatever happens; I Love You!

to say or not to say; that be the question
08:30 Nov 18 2006
Times Read: 592

well, here goes, hope i don't get in trouble for this;



my job was to analyze data to figure out the enemy, well that has changed a bit. I still will do that, but also go out with the teams who collect that data as one of their gun bunnies, ie... security detail. all this means is i get to shoot people if they threaten any member of our team. or so the theory goes, if I don't get shot first. this increases the chance of me getting hurt or worse. I will not argue the boss about it as I did sign the dotted line a long time ago. it just means I have to be extra careful and hope my luck will carry me thru this. I aqm not concerned about my training as I have been trained real well, but as the saying goes; "I don't need to worry about the bullet with my name on it, just the one that says to whom it may concern!!!"

old army joke!!!



Yes, Beth, I will do my best to come home in one piece and breathing, but in this biz there is no garuantes.



I Love You Beth!!!

kids
02:56 Nov 17 2006
Times Read: 595

gotta love kids, they can say the dangdest things. i recently sent some stuff to some boys i know. and they responded by asking if i would pet their cat. and when my birthday was, but the most shocking of all was when they wanted me to be a friend, (two said they love me). these guys don't even know me and it already sounds like they want me in their little lives. man, i hope their mom wants me!!!

Wonderful thought
19:45 Nov 16 2006
Times Read: 596

I had barely gotten to sleep when some rude ass Local afghan started screaming in his fucked up language that i don't understand, nor do i want to, right outside my window. i rolled over and tried to go back to sleep, but not before i gave it some serious thought of slapping a magazine full of bullets into my weapon and charging it and stepping outside to shoot the fucking bastard. I didn't, only because i hate filling out paperwork more than being woke up. So I hope the frigging local prays to his allah that he was extremely lucky to be still breathing the shit they call air over here.

from afgahnistan with love
04:33 Nov 16 2006
Times Read: 601

it is like the northwest here now, raining and cold. i will be so happy to get this blanket my love is making me. i will treasure all the warmth that it will bring, and I will wrap myself up in the love that was added while it was being made.



She doesn't know how much i love her or care for her, she still feels like she doesn't deserve love or affection. she always asks if i love her or to tell her if she gets too close or something like that. she hasn't figured out that all i ever wanted was someone to love me for me, not for who i was or who i could be, just me. old, broken, worn out, tired me. i would chersih the person who could love me and put up with my weird ass self, my kinky, all night lovemaking, my gotta have coffee first thing when i wake up self, my i gotta have a moment to myself, self.



I love you beth

the ex
04:26 Nov 16 2006
Times Read: 603

i had to do something today that i hoped that i did it with the best interests of the person involved. My ex emailed me the other day. from the tone of the email, i gathered that she had found someone new to be with. so I told her to go on and be happy with this other person. she had asked me if i was seeing someone and if i was, to let her know. she said that she wanted me to be happy. that sounded like she had found someone, but didn't want to hurt my feelings. so as i stated above, i said to her, best wishes, i will always be a dad to the kids and be a friend for her if she wanted.



i didn't want to start an arguement so i hope i did the right thing. i am never going back to her or live in a car ever again. i want her to be happy, she never was when i was there, we always fought and argued over every little thing.

A Night to Remember
21:04 Nov 15 2006
Times Read: 607

Latin music, soft & sensual, tickles our ears as I opened the door for my beautiful girlfriend to enter. The scent of spices float on the air, making our mouths water in sweet anticipation of whats to come. The pretty young waitress escourts us to a charming booth near a raging fireplace, the heat radiating from it, dispells the night chills. The brightly painted murals on the walls, shower our eyes with scenes from the past, each depicting a different time and place for our enjoyment. We sit and wait in wonderous anticipation, each letting the moment soak in, eagerly awaiting for the night to culminate in our joyous union.

a boys love
04:46 Nov 15 2006
Times Read: 611

a little boy, one i have never met. asked his mother when i was coming home, she replied, hopefully by next summer. he asked her, can jon get hurt? she replied, yes he can get hurt, but we will pray that he doesn't. he asked her, can he be killed? again, she replied, yes he and others with him could be killed, but we will pray that he and the rest will be ok.



a little boy i have never met, cares about me. I am touched deep in my soul.



the military doesn't care, the government doesn't care, but a little boy does. what a screwed up world that we live in, one i chose to protect. all for a little boy.



Thank You Kevin!!

The Army Way
03:31 Nov 15 2006
Times Read: 613




I should have known, really I should have. After 23 years in the military, most of them in the Army, I should have realized that the Army really doesn't care about the individual Soldier. All they care about is how much paperwork and money is involved. They can spend billions on crappy equipment that most of us will never see, but they can't see themselves spend thousands on quality care for injured soldiers. Case in point, I injured my knee months ago. Was told it would be fine, put ice on it, take motrin, wrapp it up with an ace bandage and off you go. Now, I go back in cause it never was fine, I am now told that it is arthritis! Put ice on it, take motrin, no running, ever! So now, faced with the reality of never running again, my enlistment is starting to seem like a fairy tale, Unless! now pay attention, I have to have a permanent profile, which for those of you in the know, means an LOD. Now this process, while cumbersome is also frought with peril, cause during the med board process, they in their infinate wisdom, get to decide my elegibility to remain in the Army. So, not only is my knee screwed up, but it looks like my career is as well. As the Special Forces Doc here so nicely put it, "Just Suck it up and Deal with it." Eloquent words from a 33 year veteran, who asked me where I lived in answer to a pointed question, "What kind of arthritis do I got?" To serve without complaint!!!!



Tis the Army Way!

rambling on to keep from screaming
01:56 Nov 14 2006
Times Read: 617

my foot is numb, every step i take, shoots pain down my leg, every time i sit, the pain throbbing in my knee saps the strength from me. I want to scream, i want to yell, i want to make it stop, Lord i would almost do anything to make it stop. I have pills left over from the last time i injured my leg, but i am afraid i will become hooked, so i don't take them. the docs say take tylenol and this shit called naproxin, which don't do squat. sleep mocks me with an evil grin, "take the pills, go on, take the pills. You will feel better and can sleep. you know you want to!! take the pills." so i put them where i can see them, it is not like i have a lot of them to take, maybe 5 or 6, but if i take them, then i will want more, just to stop the pain. i will tough it out. i will work out my upper body so that pain will take my mind off of my knee. have been stuffing my face full of food, just to keep my strength up, so the pain can sap more of it away. Tis fun times here where i am at. can't say stuff cause the people i work with analyze everything you say and do.



on a side note, handed my novel out to the class today. the instructor gave them all a week to read it and pick it apart. I know it will do me good to have everyones input, which is the only reason i did it.



beth, i love you, and hope you know that i won't push you away to hard!! maybe even pull you in close and bite you, and pinch your ass, before i fall asleep. if the pain allows that. mass drugs, yeah buddy!!! good times ahead.lmao

Random Thoughts
20:58 Nov 13 2006
Times Read: 618

today is hogepoge day for my thoughts.



I have decided to let things come and go as they please. i am not going to waste my days worrying about things that I have no control over. As for abusive men who think they can control women--well, they say God works in mysterious ways, but in this special case, I work my way, and he will find out what the wrath of God is all about, maybe even get to talk to God face to face before the long trip to hell to meet my bud the devil. Or then again, bring him close then let him breath the sweet fresh air, maybe his outlook will change, we will see, anyway, nothing i can do from here so I will let it be for now. anyone know how to deal with arthritis of the knee??? any good drugs to kill the pain???



OH Beth!!!!!!



Where are you???

Tis time for a long snuggle!!!

Will whisper things in your ear not meant for all these little boys and girls!!!!!

Love Ya Honey!!



Hay Little Girl, Do ya want a lolipop??? It has a creamy filling!!!!!

my future
20:57 Nov 12 2006
Times Read: 620

by now i have realized that my future depends on the army docs, and my ability to find other means of staying in shape. i cannot change the fact of my injury disease, but will have to learn to live with it and hope it doesn't get any worse. I could sit here and feel sorry for myself, but i have a job to do for as long as I can stay here and do it. these people depend on me and they don't want to do the job themselves. so for now, i will "keep on truckin"

knee injury
05:59 Nov 12 2006
Times Read: 626

well the wise doctor told me that my injury has become arthritis. he gave me the army's cure all pill (motrin) like that will solve everything, i will just add it to the growing collection i have already. sisn't give me anything for the pain, told me to just deal with it as it will go away eventually. i don't know how that will affect my time left in the military, but i was told i cannot run anymore. i can do the eliptical or stationary bike, but no running. and that i will need an mri done when i get to the states. wow, it really sucks to get old.

knee injury
02:14 Nov 12 2006
Times Read: 629

i have been putting off seeing the doc for months now. it has been that long since i injured my knee, and last night in my theater class i heard and felt a nasty popping sound right behind my kneecap, i almost fell on my face. I guess I better take care of it, but am worried that it might be bad enough to send me either to a place like kuwiet or home. I didn't want to tell my mate how bad it really is, cause she says she is proud of me being here. I don't want to let her or my family or my coworkers down.

a game of skill
20:25 Nov 09 2006
Times Read: 633

I have been playing a game for the past week, so far I am losing. The victor of this round in the game is sleep. Between the weird hours, the classes, and my novel, I have had about an hour or two a day. I have managed to eat once from the mess hall, most of the time it is coffee, maybe a protein bar, maybe a bag of chips (if no one eats them first), and water.



my novel has been burning my poor brain for the past few days. every time i want to sleep, the question; "What if" pops into my head so i end up writing instead of sleeping....i know, you say just ignore it......if you only knew.....i started this novel a year or so ago by being woke up out of a sound sleep. i have tried to ignore it, but the people in the novel just rattle on til i have to deal with them, so i am going slowly insane trying to get them to shut up. My lack of sleep is not helping and is also adding to the stress of wanting this done so I can have some peace, if at least for a night. MUST HAVE SLEEP!!!!



someone tell me what a full 6 to 8 hours feels like cause i forgot what 5 hours of sleep feels like.

Love
01:47 Nov 08 2006
Times Read: 641

my life has not been easy. no silver spoon in this old mans mouth. i have had to work my ass off for whatever i have gotten. i have watched it come into my life, and have watched go. i watched as love walked in and 13 years later, after it pretty much died, i watched it crawl out of my life. somedays i am sceptical that love would ever come back into my life. i certainly wouldn't. then to my astonished eyes, I watched as love walked up and knocked on the door. now i am in afghanistan 3 months after my leave has come and gone. I wondered if maybe i was mistaken and that love was just showed up to say hi and maybe tease me before walking out again. iot would be like that to be so cruel to me. I watch as others here suffer as their mates tell them on the phone or email that they can't hold on anymore, i wondered if that might happen to me as well. so i voiced my small concern here and lo and behold, Love stood up and lightly belted me one across the chopper. "to doubt me it seemed to say, how dare you!"

so Dear Beth, I will not doubt. I will not worry. I will accept that which you give me in abundance and count my blessings. Yes I know now what you think about every night, what you pray about, and if God allows; I will answer those prayers that I can answer. and yes for as long as I can breath.

So Far Away
02:24 Nov 07 2006
Times Read: 647

all i see is you. i sit here writing my novel, trying to fill out the skimpy chapters, and all I think about is you. I close my eyes and you are there. every song I play on my ipod reminds me of you.



when will i see you? will i wander thru these months missing you? will i feel your warmth carress my skin? will you be waiting when I walk down that ramp?



words tumble around in my head, trying to pluck them out and place them in order on a page. all i think about is you.



one chance, one breath, to say that I Love You, I Miss You.

My Novel
23:20 Nov 06 2006
Times Read: 649

I am so stoked!!!

I just had an intel analyst read the first four chapters of my novel, and he was hooked. He wanted to read the rest of it!!!

He pointed out a few things wrong, like three!!!

So I went back and corrected them.

On wed. I am letting my writing class read the first two chapters and see how they will react to it. With the reviews I have had so far, I am optimistic, but a little worried. They might pick it apart!

Oh well, in for a penny as they say.

A Tangent
02:11 Nov 06 2006
Times Read: 652

I am sitting here writing away and I realize that what I have written has nothing to do with the novel I am supposed to be working on. Here i am with 5 pages of writing and I don't know what I am going to do with it. Should I finish it and make a short story, or should I put it aside and finish my poor old novel that I was working on??? questions, questions, just what I need right now, more distractions. I am never going to get thsi done. It is starting to drive me looney!!!



where is someone to tell me to get with it. get back to the novel, or someone to give me the pep talk???



Help!!!!

my novel
21:19 Nov 05 2006
Times Read: 655

am at the part of my novel where the king confronts one of his enemies and during a interview he gets into a struggle and eventually dies, meanwhile the main character is tracking the kings daughter and the kidnapper

The Search and Speaking my Mind
23:29 Nov 01 2006
Times Read: 659

first- in case anyone has any doubts, I speak my mind. I don't care if it is good or bad, long or short. If asked I will say it. Those who know me already know this. So when I rate your page, it is with honesty and what I say I mean. Also, If I call you cutie, dear, or sweety, or even honey, I am not hitting on you as I have a very loving and supportive mate.



Speaking of my mate. I have waited a long time for someone to come into my life who was lovind, caring, and supportive of me and my dreams and goals. I am so very happy that my mate decided that she wants to be with me. I will do all I can in my power to show her the love and support and caring that she so richly deserves.



Love You My Dear Sweet Loving Beth