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sighs- some people tend to think that the only way they can succeed in life is to cause others trouble.

Just telling bits and pieces of the story or relaying information to one that was supposed to be "not repeated".

I know i'm not perfect and honestly i was those that tend to judge me and those that try to piss me off and get me rialed up if it makes you feel that you are a better person by setting out to intentionally upset me.

I recently started my own business and my roomie seems to be "jealous" or i'm not really sure what the description would be..But it seems that things are trying to make me quit when i finally for once have a chance to succeed on my own without help. My business partner knows both of us and the roomie came home today and told me that he had come into her workplace and talked to her about my shortcomings. So now, i am pondering whether to talk to the partner about what the roomie said had been repeated or not. I know that just starting out i am not perfect in my judgements and i also know that i will make mistakes big and small along the way in just starting out....I feel honestly, like the roommate is pushing me to get pissed off, jump the partner or even just walk away from the business and i'm telling them all right here and right now that is not going to work. I will do what i have to to make this succeed. So i pray to the higher beings to give me the strength to pull thru and to instantly know the truth in my heart and head when things come back to me as this has.

You know its funny that when you find what you really are then things fall into place automatically...the last week i have been-overworked, and completely exhausted. Went to the doctor because the place i donate plasma at told me that my hematocrit levels are rock bottom and i cannot donate again until i find out what is going on. Well, long story short, anemic, perhaps that strange desease of anemia. They took like 9 tubes of blood....lol Could it be that i'm turning into what i want to be.

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Oceanne
22:47 Jul 08 2011

I doubt it. Many state that one cannot be turned and that you have to be born that way.

But you can get Anemia and other blood diseases that will drop your Hem count.

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AsphaltTears
01:50 Jul 09 2011

Yes, listen to Oceanne. She is usually right about these things. That is what 99.9% of the vampire community states. The other left over percentage are less than reliable. :)

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I have learned over the past few days that i have to learn how to overlook others pettiness at my finally being successful and going somewhere in my life...I feel that it is them that doesn't want to loose the old me or look at the new me that i am becoming.. One that is strong, thoughful, sucessful...Oh, yeah, me sucessful, now that is a laugh, or at least it used to be. I am learning to be strong and to seek and demand what i feel inside of me.. I am worthy of it and it's amazing that it has taken me this long to see the me that is living inside me. It's laid dormant for so long that now she's out no one around me except for one knows how to act or be "truthful" about anything. One's around want to keep me the subserviant person that i have been most of my life and now that i am succeeding at something other than making their lifes easier then I am the one that is wrong..They are wrong....

I am a good person, one that is worthy of what is coming to me. I have a love that is beside me, not me being behind him or in front of him. The decisions that are made now are made together for each other, for the better ment of us...not me, not him, but us together.

I would like for my greedy family to be happy for me for once and not spiteful and talking behind my back to others..now these are the ones that have said that we don't live in this house like that but folks, look in the mirror we do... So, i am going to succeed even if it costs me friends and family....I will be successful, i will be happy and for once i will be what i have been destined to be for all of my life. No more hiding behind or hiding what i am from others. So if you don't like or appreciate what i am becoming, what i have really been all of my life then its your loss. I'll be here, happy, content, and for once at peace with myself when you realize just how things really are.