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Just think how much time is wasted, recovering from those sleepless nights spent thinking of others only to know all that thinking would never do you any good.



Going through all those characteristic phases you've ben through so many times before you feel as though you could actually go through them 'in' your sleep!









Confusion, what do we see?

An unholy illusion

or could it be the key?

Who would I choose?

someone I can't find

to love and to loose

to know they'll never be mine



The way we played about, is it right?

The call your consience shouts

The soul seeker in the night

I lay but I cant sleep

Can't help that I'm so far in,

...so deep.



Who would you choose to nuture your sleep?



Feeling so alone today

I know I could

But i cant change it anyway

held down by everyone

wish i could get them off me

wish I could run my life

looks like Im being tortured...

I'm held down by everyone

wish i could be with someone



See my tears - falling

I see my years - wasting away

I wanna catch them in my hands

I wanna make you understand

I wont waste anymore time

You can't hold me down

I know the world is mine

You can't drag me down

your wasting my time,

Had enough of this wasted time ...wasted time



The way we played about, is it right?

The call your consience shouts

The soul seeker in the night

I lay but I cant sleep

Can't help that I'm so far in,

...so deep.



But Is it all just waisted time?

hmm, I'm sure most people have been in one of those relationships where you would love to have enjoyed it more but for what ever reason, the sorry tale is that you didn't.



This song is based on such a relationship. Communication is important people! This time, I'm afraid communication was barely possible.









I'll say goodbye

Let the rain come down

turn my back and walk away...

Tears from the earth

the world she weeps for me

you keep my heart tied to the ground



Pass you by

Let dreams fade away

another empty, lonely day...

wasting my time

it's so easy

but if i could only show someone what i've found



Let the wind blow me over

Let the waves take me away

you leave me standing like a child

but momma i wont be coming home today

keep hurting me, dragging me around

It's just me, ...i'll be ok

dust me off, and you'll see me tomorrow

am i real? ...as i start to fade away



I cant live the way you abuse me

I cant turn and walk away

I dont want you to loose me

Can't show you how much I care.

you'll forget,

you won't remember.

why'd I leave you?

I just don't know, ...just because.



Is it time to say farewell?

yet another dying star.

have we really fell apart?

im not sure who you are.

cant you tell me?

would it really be so hard...



just one mistake - and my life is thrown so far

into a land of pain - my lifes ruined by your scar

this pain, will it ever dissapear?

will it burden when you're near?



I'll say farewell

Let the rain come down

turn my back and walk away...

Tears from the earth

the world she weeps for me

as I lay in pain, lying on the ground

A little view out the window of chaos and cruel wickedness, I call this one 'primal' rage as I feel it is the only way to truely describe as close as possible the flooding of emotion and anger.



Not your average kiddies temper tantrum but anger which is so fruitfull that it shuts down but few intellectual cognative processes... Leaving you with a surge of power and un imaginable strength.



...with only one, primal desire.









You'll die - I want to hear you scream

You'll cry - to fuck you up, its my fucking dream!

Murder. Suicide.

Cause of death unknown

Unidentified!

Victim of hate is how you'll be known!



Power and violence

my primal rage

overpowering

Life in a cage!

I'm here to fuck you up - I'm here to eat your soul

sacrifice your body - Invade your mind and take controle!



My lifes imprisoned

I do not fucking care

Your Insecurity

I Laugh at you from here

Your gona wake up - on the other side

bending the bars - or am I fucking with your mind!



Welcome to the other side!

Welcome to my world!

You can't run to save yourself

You cant fight cause you will die

My world it crumbles

beneath my feet I fall!

You fucked me up so I'm taking you down

If I die, .. I'm taking you all.

...RAGE!

PRIMAL RAGE!

Black tears running down my face.

...RAGE!

PRIMAL RAGE!



You'll pay - Can't see my thoughts, they're unreal

You'll cry! You'll die! You'll shake! You'll break!

and then you'll fucking squeal!

ahh the good stuff, lies, deceit and betrayal all rolled into one with a hint of psychotic horror inspired by Crimson Glory's Lost Reflection.



This story is ode to one of my longest and most untrustworthy of friends and a brief aquaintant.









All these many years you have been loathing

your new found power

and I thought you were a good friend

now you decide your better

you can take what I want.

before it's mine,

given birth insidemy memory.

In the back of my mind you haunt me.



You know what you done and thinking it's fun,

taking my life from me.

I wont lay down, will not lay down to die

who wins in the end, my friend?

I think I would rather wait and see!



Mending my broken heart, you have been guiding

as soft as a rose,

reveal the thorns you've been hiding

and now you decide your better

your more than I need

But your memory has withered in time

and all you can do now,



...is bleed.

Well I'll be short with this one because I would hate for this entry to look soo long u couldn't be bothered to read so much...



This song is obv bout a past relationship, bout a girl who is rather stubborn and most likely has no intention of changing that. Has a little hint of love at first sight in there aswell.









Why are you crying - Your not so cold inside

Why don't you tell me - Why are you falling

... Wont you grab my hand

Everyone you have loved (Let go) - But I still don't understand

Stop what you are doing - You're killing you is killing me

You only have half a heart - and yet 'I' have an extra peice?



There's no need to bite my hand

When we're not playing - In our dream land

Weap and I will catch the tear

From your evil eyes - I see the fear

In the mirror your reflection shakes

We're only allowed to dream till we awake!



Every Dragon has a heart,

Trust in me, and I will heal your broken wing

Nothing in life is a mistake,

You stupid girl - Letting your crystal heart brake



I've been trying to understand, what it is you want at hand

But you don't know and you don't care

Don't act like you don't want me there

No I wont tell you what you cant do, but I know what's right for me

I will pray it can't be you

I wish that I was blind, wish that I could forget

What I did't see!





Crystal eyes, unloved yet pure,

encaptured my soul and so much more, ...yet so insecure.





Every Dragon has a heart,

Trust in me, and I will heal your broken wing!

Nothing in life is a mistake,

You stupid girl - Letting your crystal heart brake



There's no need to bite my hand

When we're not playing - In our dream land

Weap and I will catch the tear

From your evil eyes - I see the fear

In the mirror your reflection shakes

We're only allowed to dream till we awake!



I've been trying to understand, what it is you want at hand

But you don't know and you don't care

Don't act like you don't want me there

No I wont tell you what you cant do, but I know what's right for me

I will pray it can't be you

I wish that I was blind, wish that I did not see

wow If you are reading this I am impressed, I would like to thank you for showing so much interest, you put a smile on my face lol



Well this song is another oldy, written about all your bad childhood memories anyone ever knew to remind you of, and the suspicions of meeting those people again for the first time in a long while...



I guess i should tell you before all these songs get a lil too confusing to analyse if ur inot that sort of thing like myself, that most of my songs have more than on character's thoughts entwined amongst the verses.











Hey, It's been a long time

Haven't seen you around in years...

Where did you go? - How is your life?

Haven't seen you around in years...



Hey, It's been a long time

Since I have shed anymore tears

I've been gone, not too long - not long enough...



How is your life? - What's been going on?

I haven't seen you around in years...

could I use you? - What do you do?

I remember you and your fears.



Hey, my lifes just fine

I have not shed anymore tears

But I've been gone, not too long - not long enough

For you to forget who I was!



CHORUS

You don't deserve to remember me

You think you know who I am.

Inside yourself - Your know you're ashamed

...in the deep of your mind you wander. (wonder)

Inside yourself - Your innocense blaims

...Your selfish mind

...Your selfish piers,

...Your own worst fear?



Don't remember me - and you won't know who I am

Don't remember me - and we can start again...

Well this is a short extract from a song idea I have been meditating over, there's no colour to this painting yet but the outlines have been made.



This one is about trying to help others, and why sometimes, ...people just should not be helped. Oh how easy it is to unquench ur lips on anothers buttocks lol. Some people need to learn certain things on their own. More important, it teaches them inner thought and consideration.



As for those who shouldn't have to, I hope you find your peace.









I try to teach right from wrong,

To pacify and yet be strong.

I know your heart must burn when you know

I can taste your fear when you know you're wrong.



In the end will you ever learn?



You dissapoint me when I see you quit

It's too late.

Reminds me just how weak you are,

...so self indulgent.



Just another empty soul.

Forever.

Seeking direction.

hiding in your rabbit hole

possing for the elections!

Just a little thrash metal song i wrote a while back now.



It's mainly about how the wrong people always seem to get the good things in life whilst we're left working for nothing. And how you mature as life hardens you.









fill my mind with your words

but i don't care for what you say

another worthless waist of time

another bad day...

my back is sick of the scars

no, it no longer feels the pain

life has said to me, just kick back

laugh and go insane



Just get out of my way!

I'm Sick of waiting let me through!

Sick of courtasy,

no one has any to give you!

they've got nothing to fear

they get everything we want

telling truth from the lies

pretty little obscurities haunting me



we will get what we want

with lifes gift, a dead heart!

No need to reach the end,

starting only from the start!

holding deaf ears to heads voice

couldn't find anyone to save and

no one giving me a choice

Holding the one's that Id love

yet feel no beat from me

but the empty drips of blood

beating off the bottom of my dead heart...