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Well, all deities will be proud to know that my lawn (and driveway!!) is mowed. I probably should do it again soon. Oh well. Anthony, my boyfriend, has moved back to California to be with his friends and family. He had been quite cranky lately and I hope he doesn't keep calling his friends hoes like he did with me and my friends. It hurt a lot. I don't even know if I should keep dating him.



I also heard that a few months ago, he confessed to my mom that he had had feelings about one of my dearest friends. Well that friend and another friend hates me so it's not like it's going to help but it sure damn hurts.



Anyway, now that he's gone, I have no donor. (If you don't know what that means, message and I'll explain.) And any self respecting mortal vampire knows that's a BIG problem. It wasn't like he was donating at all when he was here, mainly because I didn't ask him. But I still knew I had someone in case it got too bad. Now I don't. So, it's back to doing my damnest to keep things in. Well, not on this site but ya know what I mean.



Anyway, I'm listening to Paramore's "Pressure". I feel it's helping with the hunger mounting. I figured I might as well start up my journal so that if I got hungry really bad, I can talk about it on here. (Plus the red on the screen is helping. idk how. don't ask)



I do hope that people are reading this so they could possibly learn more about me and understand how I think. See, I'm not very conscious about my body so whenever I dream, I'm thin and beautiful. I can't think of anything else to write but I'll post when I have something on my mind.

Ok. This is my first post. It's going to be random because I'm exhausted, hungry, not in the mood to mow, and just wanting to talk. Once again, I had to make dinner. Usually I don't mind but after 4 days of nonstop cooking, it's getting on my nerves.



Anyway, Mom's saying that I have to mow the lawn even though I've made dinner and a lot of other things. Frankly, I'd rather just relax today and then do it tomorrow. Sure I have been holding it back but I'm just tired of all the stuff I'm doing. Eh. I think I'm done with my ranting for now. Will probably have a new batch of curses when I'm done mowing the lawn. That is, if I mow the lawn. *snicker snicker*