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We all have busy lives, some more then others, i have had a very hectic two weeks and would like to apologise to my friends for not keeping in contact, i do care about you all and have had you in my thoughts..

I am hoping my week will be a bit quiter this week, so expect a big hello msg from your friend.

Sahararose..

Blessed Be To All

Hello to all, great news my good sister is joining VR TODAY, would you all be so king as to welcome her please, she has not yet set her profile but please do drop her a hello..

Thankyou

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ladySnowStrixx
03:38 Aug 27 2010

ok went to look and says no such user so either she deleted it or changed her name.

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I do not feel sorry for my self when i say that i do not have one friend, i have my partner, siblings, my beautiful dogs, but no friends, not one single one, so this is journal today is sad it is, i have bottled every thing up and i need to wright it down, does not mean you have to read this, i will not be offended..

I do not know where to start, i am lost, i am crying all the time, i have anxiety and am having severe panic attacks, but i have been like that for some time now, i just try to hide it, and i do so as most people think peopkle like me are just attention seekers and bring drama upon themselves..JUDGEMENTAL.

But it is not about me this time, it is my partner, his farther is dying, he has cancer in the stomach, brain, and now they need to remove a lung this friday as the cancer has spread, his chances are slim..

His grand daughter is in hospital at this very moment delivering her grandfarthers great grand daughter, i can not tell you how happy my farther in law is that he gets to see this precious baby before he goes in to surgery..

It is breaking my heart to watch my partner lose his farther, i understand the cycle of life, but why were we put here to love, love our parents, our siblings, our husbands/wives, even our animals, only to watch them slip out of our hands, and die.......

This makes me question my own existence, and how long it will be before i must close my eyes for the last time and never to wake again...



If you would be so kind as to send out positive thoughts and keep your fingers crossed with me that this lovely loving man will survive this cancer that he does not deserve....

Thankyou..

Sahararose..

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PAGAN
07:55 Aug 23 2010

i am sorry to hear your sad story. you are right to say that the whole cycle of life and death is hard and we do not always understand it, but we face it every day and sometimes it is just too cruel.



I am sending my positive energy for yourself and your partners father, and i hope that things can take a turn for the better. if you need to talk, you know where i am X

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VAMPIREBONNIE
15:55 Aug 25 2010

You all are in my thoughts.

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I must apologise, as i have not been able to spend alot of time here over the last week..

I shall not go in to it, all i will say is we all have all good days and our bad days, and i have just had a few to many bad days, but i will do my best to get on as much as i can, i have made many friends here, i hope you can forgive me for being absent...

Sahararose..Blessed Be To All

Hello to all, i must apologise for not writting my journal entrys, and for not reading others, it has been a hectic last few days and i have just not had the energy, hopefully i shall get a good nights rest, which i need, and i will feel better tmrw....

Good Night To All And Blessed Be

Sahararose..

Pretty much all of my journals have been sad or just me complaining...

Not today, i am coming along much better now, i am a member of a coven, and all have been so kind and welcoming, i am learning more about my computer [lol] and feel my confidence rising...

I feel that i belong here, and am looking forward to becoming great friends and learning about more about myself...



Blessed Be To All

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PAGAN
13:54 Aug 18 2010

hey, you're doing great everyone feels a little lost at first. give it a couple of days and you'll soon be running amok with the rest of us haha

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Thankyou for your nice comments in my journal, sorry i got back to you so late, been a bit hectic latley...

I am doing much better now, my confidence is growing, so i thankyou..

Sahararose..

Blessed Be

Just an update, it is not much but i took some pics today of my favorite flowers in my garden, it will be sring soon, i love watching flowers bloom..

How beautiful..

Sahararose..

Blessed Be

That's right still complaining about my tooth extraction, going to take some pain killers and go for a lay down i think..

My journals i must say have been pretty boring, but i am trying my to wright my own poems, i just have not got there yet, when i do i shall post them.......

Hello to all, have added a few pics to my profile, they are protection stamps, i see them as gift's and am honored to recieve them.....

Sahararose..

Blessed Be

Yes i am sad and depressed today, if you are not then maybe you should not read on, and if you are one to dislike people who express there sadness and emotions then i also suggest you do not read on, as i do not need judgemental comments..



So i am simply just having one of thoes day's when you feel hopeless, and alone, i can not tell you why i feel this way or what triggers it off, all i know is i am having more sad day's then happy, and i have had enough, people say life is what you make it, and that we all choose our own paths, well i am at a cross road in my life, i am sure many people feel this at some point in there life, and many people have much bigger roads to cross....

I just hope i manage to cross my road without getting hit by a truck...............





Sad entry... yes



Dont like it..... oh well

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Kaine
02:42 Aug 17 2010

no need to be cross saharaRose some of us do understand what you go though ,some better than others ,this doesn't stop us from from wishing you brighter days for any rose has thorns but all need light. Your friend in the darkness - Kaine

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Had a toothe removed yesterday, now all up i have had to have 8 teeth removed plus my 4 wisdom teeth..

I use to have such beautiful teeth, i never was shy about smiling..

I can not tell you how many tears dropped down my face as the extraction was happening..

I had a choice, get a root cannel for $1000 or get it pulled out for $80, obviously i had no choice..

When will our goverment put a dental plan in place for EVERY ONE, i know i do not earn $100,000 a year, some do but most of us do not.

Do you know that to get a single toothe implant is also over $1000, so if i want teeth that are not going to fall out when i sneeze, it will cost me over $10,000......

This is mty fault to, i could have taken better care of my teeth, early prevention, still though i sit here with less then half of my teeth remaining and i am depressed, and i know there are other's out there with far worse concerns, but today this is mine..............

Sahararose..

Blessed Be

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CelestiaLaura202
04:37 Aug 11 2010

Sahararose



I know how you feel , I use to have pretty teeth. My teeth have become sheer. One actually shattered and they had to dig out the root. I went a year without a tooth in my mouth. I finally had enough money to get my broken teeth bonded and a flipper to replace the tooth at shattered. I don't have an implant yet , but I will next year. I am going to look into a dental school because they do it for less. Your still a beautiful person and you will your teeth repaired. Go with a flipper first and then you can get implants. I did all that prevention ,but hereditary won out. Somebody told me to go to laredo. I also have a number for a dentist in mexico. But It took me a while to have my teeth fixed. Mine aren't movie star teeth now but I have a full smile and I can do that now. It will get better.

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Finally i have figured out how to resize my pics, my portfolio is only new and i intend to add more pics, so please be kind to me as i do so..

Thankyou..

Sahararose

Blessed Be

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MDLIVE13
19:40 Aug 09 2010

:) I was just getting back to You on that lol.

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Hello to you all today, how are you, i am not to bad, had a shocking migrain today, i get them alot, at least 3 a week, but i still managed to go outside in to the public and take myself out to lunch..

For those of you who know me, i am very shy and have complications going out and interacting with people, i also have been unwell for 2 years and my weight has dropped dramatically, so making that effort today to

A. go out in public

B. eat something





And it felt good, i even had a glass of wine.

I hope i have not bored you with my goals for the day but i feel this is the only place i can express my feeling's and talk about my every day battles and enjoyments..

Sahararose..

Blessed Be

Hello to you all, i know it is not big news but i am new and only learning, i have added some more pics to my profile, i chose these pics as i find them peacefull and i feel that by though's of you that look at them you will see me, how i see my self, how i see the beauty in this world, that we often do not stop to look at, and yes i am sure many of you have seen these pics somewhere else, but i still chose them for the reasons i mentioned above...

Sahararose..

Blessed Be

I know we are supposed to love all seasons, and i do, but i also believe we should cuddle up and hybernate during winter, do not get me wrong, there is nothing like falling asleep to the rain at nite as you fall to sleep, and snuggling up in front of a fire, eating a nice roast dinner, but i still yearn for those clouds to break free, for those sun ray's to hit my face, to look at the trees and see the flowers slowly bloom, butterflys, bees, the beach, and the good food, wine, and friend's... exuse the spelling guy's..

goodnite

Blessed Be

Sahararose

Hi guy's just thought i would let people know i have updated my profile..

Hope it describes me better

did it work

As much as i would like to happy today i am not, my partner's farther is having a lung removed today, the cancer is also in his brain and stomach, and this time i just dont think he is going to make it..

He is a great man, a better farther to me then my own, a great husband and the world's most loving grandfarther, he is the glue that hold's the family together, thing's will never be the same when he is no longer here..

And it is heart breaking watching my partner lose his farther, it is in return breaking my heart..

I know the cycle of life, does not mean it hurts..

I suppose it is times like this that we have to look around and love the one's we love the best we can before they to slip away from us..





Really sorry it was not a happy happy joy joy journal entry, i can only hope my next one will have good new's..

I am no spelling bee, so please forgive my miss spelt word's

All i have done on here since i became member is complain, and i am sorry..

From now on i am hoping my journals will become much more enjoying, rather then "here we go again"

So fresh start, yesterday was a nice day, i took myself out to lunch, i usually dont do that, i have been a bit unwell for a while and my eating has decreased, i have lost 10kg in 2 month's and i am already a small girl, and i also tend to stay inside all day, i do not work dur to being sick so i have been a hermit for some time now, but yesterday i thought why not do something special for myself, so i took myself out to lunch, which, got me out of the house and i actually enjoyed my meal, i even treated my self to a glass of wine..

It was nice, and i felt i made a huge progress towards being happier and less anxious..

And today i am finally going to make the effot to read the meditation book that was given to me as a gift too long ago..

So today is another good day, as i feel i am finally accepting that only i can find happiness and peace, and that no one else will do it for me, i just feel stupid that it has taken me 31 years to start figuring it out..

As mum alwasy's sais though "it is never to late"





HAVE A NICE AND PLEASENT DAY EVERY BODY

sorry i know it is boring but im 31 and just learning how to use a computer, sad yes, but also exiting

just checking to see if i managed to download a pic next to my name.. i hate computers...lol

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VenusFire
03:39 Aug 04 2010

You are doing just fine hun. :)

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Would someone be so kind to tell me how do i put a picture next to my name on my journals...etc

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birra
04:42 Aug 03 2010

https://www.vampirerave.com/kb.php?chapter=400&page=37

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A few day's ago, even up untill about 10 min ago i was very upset..



''WHY'' u ask, i am amazed at the level of rudness and ignorence here at VR, yes it is true i have done nothing but complain since i came on to this website, but for good reason, i thought i was going to meet nice people, honest people, and most are, but so many are not, they are contradictive to there profiles and are unkind to you simply because you didnt spell correctly in your own profile.....really is that why im here, bit childish really..

However, i have met some beautiful people so far, and i will not give up yet..

So am i still upset, no way, for those people who do not like me, what can i say, its there problem..DEAL WITH IT

now im in doubt, as i keep saying i am new, i thought people were being rude to me, but the case was i was the rude one, i am still learning the rules and how one must behave, and i failed, i only hope this individual will forgive me for being so childish

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VenusFire
03:33 Aug 02 2010

Hun, there are no rules on how you must behave, save those that are in the VR Manual. Believe me, there are plenty of rude people on here and on every level! My advice to you, don't take it personally. This is only a website.

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DrCullen
09:38 Aug 02 2010

People on here can be VERY rude, and it's best to just ignore it. The majority of people on here are nice, but under rough acts.

Just bear with it, and soon enough you will get respect from the others.

Everyone was a whelp at one point or another.

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Well i am new, i came on to this website because i felt lost confused and unsure of myself.

I have only been a member for a few short days, and to my suprise i can not believe how rude and cruel some can be [yes on this website]

I thought we were all here for simliar reasons, i thought people would understand me not put me down and drain my soul, it is true, i do not understand all the rules and how i should behave and i apologise for that, after all i am only learning, and is that not every bodys right..

I thought i could find something here, something amazing, but i yet to believe i will...