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i am here... I want to become stronger but i dont know what to do, i am in the realm were i just cant decide in my own faith. What good is it to to help others, if i cant even help myself...i am drowning in confusion....i dont know who to trust of my deepest darkest secrets....someone once told me that....there is no one to trust...u must not trust anyone...if you do ..you will end up being hurt......but if i have no trust for anyone how i am suppose to find happiness...if i don’t have someone to rely on...i may not understand now..but i have to seek the truth ....if i don’t i wont rest in peace .. the peace i have been trying to seek for so long ..n now my only priority is to find the truth ..i shall and will find it...whatever may come..and whatever obstacle i may have....i must overcome it...i cannot give up on something as important as this...n now...as of today..i have a purpose in life ..i have a reason to live everyday..in misery..n it may not seem like a very good reason to fight for..But to me it is as important as the very air i breath...

Sometimes life doesn’t go the way you may want it to go….. Sometimes you have to try hard to make it go in the path you may be satisfied with, but not always will the thing that you may want the most, be the thing that is going to make you happy. There is always going to be problems that are going to make your life harder. weather good or bad...... destiny can't be helped.... you can’t stop it from destroying you or making your life harder than it is now....things are hard to change....... and people only have 2 chances in life to prove themselves.....I have wasted my chances and that’s why I have not had a place where I should belong...so will looking now help at all....if so I must keep looking to find that place....sometimes happiness can be found in the least places that may be expected..so for now I have finish my trail of though and I hope to write soon

what is there more to know about life...life is just something that can only hurt people it puts people in endless torture until it is time for their peaceful death...I can’t understand anything about love. Love is just something that makes life even harder and it slowly destroy ones soul..but who am I to judge...I haven’t been to deeply in love to tell from experience...I have only seen what little destruction that it has made in my life...I don’t need someone in my life to make my life even more complicated than I have it now...I am fine with what I have now, and it might not be much but it is enough for me to keep my life going as long as I can tolerate