Well have not had but 3 hours sleep in the last three days but have been happier then I have been in a very long time.
My life became a lot easier last night I know what to do now for the first time in almost a year. I am becoming myself again. I will piss a lot of people off I am sure.
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Yay! You're back! LMAO.
Yes the asshole of VR is back . Tired of being emo the last month. I have now told all that needs to know anything about what happen what was on my mind. And I do not care if they like what I had to say are not . All I have to say is live with it life goes on.
cool thats good 2 hear RADU!! :)
I sit here and for some reason I just feel so empty on the inside like I am dead.
Ok tonight was something else . I went to a few bars with a female friend from work . I called QueenMorbid before I left and she told me I was going to get hit on by my friend tonight I told her no way would that happen. Well I am here to tell you all QueenMorbid must have some kind of ESP because not 30 mins after getting to the bar she was hitting on me. So I had to make a excuse to come home early . I just want to say to QueenMorbid I will believe everything you tell me from now on.
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Thats why you don't meet a friend at the bar. you just go with a Group of friend.
I know that now just never thought she felt that way.
funny how people act at bars then at a job.
That is so true. LOL
LOL, told you that witchy sense always is right.
I decided I have been in the House to long going out with a friend and going to a few bars. I need to get rid of stress.
I sit here trying to take a nap but I guess the whole night sleep I got last night was all I am to get. If I try to nap i just am to wired to sleep.
I got some good sleep last night for the first time in a month it felt good.
At last it is the weekend I am so ready for it myself. In the last three days i have worked 38 hours and Saturday and Sunday added in there I have over 60 for the week. But after this weekend I have to work 10 days straight I am not looking forward to this.
In the last two days I have put in 27 hours at work but that is not the problem the problem is i still am not sleeping. Went to bed last night and the dreams hit me worse then they have every been. Boy I wish I would just pass out for one night.
I got sleep last night and it felt good but was it worth the dreams I am still having time will tell.
The last month has been very hard for me have had to come to turns with a lot of things . And I have to move on do I want to no but I have to beat this depression are it will get the better of me. There are people that are helping me with this and a few other things I need help on like anger control. Given time I think I will be ok.
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As the saying goes..."what doesn't kill us, only makes us stronger"
Hang in there radu, things will get better
My day started out very bad. My alarm went off at 4:00am like it should but I had only been asleep for maybe 30 mins at that time damn things i see when I close my eyes keep sleep from me. But I decided to lay there for another 30min well the next thing I know it is 6:30am and i am late to work. So I jump up grab my glasses and wham I break the arm off them. But not all was bad I got a few things and started to paint the House. Front room dark blue with white trim. Now my room I am going with a dark green but have no idea about the trim I am so color blind.
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How about a gold trim? Make it Irish heh!
Sounds like a good plan to me
what about black??
with green you need an off-white, white, beige or natural wood color, or even a lighter green - one so pale that it is almost white
It is time again to try to get sleep just hope the dream does not start again.
I have been trying to forget somethings but why do that. Not all of my memory's are in fact bad most are very good. Am I depressed yes will I be better in time but not for a long time. I have feelings I have to work out . But with the help of a few friends on VR and off I will be ok.
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Well radu, I sure hope you consider me a friend, as I give you all the respect you deserve and I will always do my best to support you.
We all go through good and bad times, but with support, time and patience you will pull through anything.
All the best to you!
You still have my support and backing.
Than k you both I will need all the support I can in the coming weeks.
I sit here tonight and have decided that Vodka and Vicodin make a good Combo.
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Coward's way out.
LMAO
No it does not...
God do I hate my dreams got almost no sleep last night . Just need to get theses thoughts out of my head and try and forget the last 6 months.
I am hoping to get sleep tonight for the next 5 days I have to be at work by 6:00am . But with my luck and the dreams I have been having I may not get much sleep.
Today went good at work till I started throwing up all over work. So I left work 3 hours early to get some rest but thinking about things that have happen is a bitch.
In the last two days I have worked a lot of things out and am moving on in my life have been truly happy for the first time in a long time now. Also for people that have not took the time to read my profile I am not looking for a girlfriend so stop messaging me . I want to be alone for a very long time.
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Good to know that things have settled for you radu and hope things will continue to go well
I hope so to just have to live with what has happen and to forget .
I only hope that it shall not happen again, things can be so messy and rather ugly....
Rock the hell on man! I am super glad to hear this. Me time is important in getting to know yourself again (something many of us forget).
Something I am going through myself. I haven't been single for at least 3 years, it's nice to be single again. Mind you there is someone I am in love with, but they know where I stand right now.
It caught up with me at last . I went to take a nap last night and the next thing I know it is 10 hours later my body finally shut down on me. I feel real good right now.
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You needed the sleep. I am glad you finally got it.
me too I knew it would catch up with you
Last night I fell asleep at around 4:00am and was back up at around 6:30 . But I feel like I got good sleep lets hope I feel that way the whole day. I think coffee and tea will be my friend today.
Well today ended a week were I work almost 75 hours and got around 13 hours sleep all week . And I can feel it that I will not see sleep much this weekend glad I have VR.
Well I can already see it tonight will be yet another sleepless night. For the last two weeks I have not been able to sleep more then 3 hours a night. What I would not give for a full nights sleep.
Well I know yesterday at work something was going to happen and it did. I go into work today and find out that three people got fired and two of them were in upper management. All because the big boss can not do his job and has to have people to blame his poor management on. Boy I need to watch my mouth at work I say what is on my mind the last couple weeks and that is not a good thing the way it is going.But oh well I went there 8 years ago looking for a job I can go the same way.
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Just keep hold of that attitude.
I am trying just so hard as of late.
Not a good thing but that guy needs to get fired or transfur to a different store what an ass hole for a boss I would hate tol him to go fuck off and die
Work went well till it came time for lunch . Not only was it a late lunch but I had White Castles, and season fries well the burgers have me wondering why I like them so much .
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Yes we all know what sliders do ewwwwwwwww grose lololol
thyats why I don't eat them hardly
Talked to my ex Holly tonight for the first time since Feb and boy she blow me away. She got re married I mean she just got divorced like 2 months ago. But I wished her all the best and I hope she is happy.
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Have got drunk the last two nights to help me forget things. Well it worked great Friday night but last night it made it worse. So all I can say is live and learn.
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Wilder
01:47 Aug 31 2008
why radu, whats happening:)
radu
01:50 Aug 31 2008
I meet someone . That is all I am going to say about it.
queenmorbid
01:59 Aug 31 2008
Oh but I'll say somethingt!! She is not only freaking SMOKING HOT, but she is awesome and I like her!
queenmorbid
03:30 Aug 31 2008
Oh, and she's so hot she made ME wet!
LadyKrystalynDarkstar
04:35 Aug 31 2008
O________o
tigerslilvampire21
05:33 Aug 31 2008
So who is this mystery chick we hear so much yet so little about?? O.o
radu
02:03 Sep 01 2008
For now only me and her and Queenmorbid know. lmao