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Who are you when I'm not looking??

06:04 Aug 23 2017
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Who are you when I'm not around?
When the door is locked and the shades are down?
Do you listen to your music quietly?
And when it feels just right, are you thinkin' of me?

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08:15 Aug 22 2017
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You know...

The hardest thing in life is to sit back and watch someone
you love make the worst decision(s).

Knowing you've shared ALL your concerns
Shared the FACTS with them as to why you see it as not the best decision for them
Pointed out the 'red flags'

They even say to you...

You're absolutely right...we agree with you
YET they continuing moving forward with their choice.

Tonight they said to me...

"I don't know what to do...."

I replied with such a COLD and BRUTAL response:

"Bullshit you don't know what to do. I'm not buying that bullshit line.
You have CLEAR direction from me in what to do, what choices you have..I've
shared with you my knowledge, expertise and backed up EVERYTHING with
facts about said situation
You are informed in all areas. I've given you mountains of information,
several different routes to go...explanations, reasons, stats

You moving forward with your decision is that of an INFORMED DECISION

But why does it hurt so much?

Besides the obvious....you're worried for their safety

Yes SAFETY!

Their decision involves their physical safety all to
help someone that wouldn't if roles were reversed
DO THE SAME THING

I can't cry anymore...
I can't make them do anything...

I just have to sit back and watch my fucking world crumble.

I'm supposed to be taking advice from my mother, not giving it.

This quote I read many years ago came back into my mind this weekend.

*sighs*

I love my mother for all the times she said absolutely nothing....
Thinking back on it all, it must have been the most difficult
part of mothering she ever had to do: knowing the outcome,
yet feeling she had no right to keep me from charting my own path.
I thank her for all her virtues, but mostly for never once having said,
"I told you so."

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birra
birra
15:15 Aug 22 2017

You're talking about every confused Trump voter, aren't you?





 

05:37 Aug 16 2017
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You know I'm constantly reminded that "Life goes on"
Even if I'm the one reminding someone that life continues if they are in my immediate bubble or not.

That day in, day out even if we don't like it, this life continues whether we're in it or not
....is the bottom line

Last night I found out something about a personal business 'partner' that perhaps what I knew
of a situation was NOT in fact the situation...and that I had an "eye opening" experience you could say.

What I do with that information really set the tone for who I am as a human, doesn't it?

Tonight I needed to just DRIVE
I cranked THIS song, touched speeds of 150km/hour with the moon roof WIDE open...
singing at the top of my lungs

Music can be my therapy.

Oh and a good ear to bounce said things off.
A non-bias ear
An intelligent human

ALL helps...



"God, Your Mama, And Me"
(feat. Backstreet Boys)

That Sunday morning choir calling, church doors open wide
That hallelujah shoot right through ya, make you feel alive
That key under the mat, you know right where it's at
It's waiting with the porch light on
Don't bother calling, no need for knocking, just come on home
Come on home, my love is

Never gonna run dry, never gonna come up empty
Now until the day I die, unconditionally
You know I'm always gonna be here for ya
No one's ever gonna love you more than
God, your mama, and me
God, your mama, and me
Unconditionally
God, your mama, and me

Loud as shotgun, angels singing with the radio
Praying with you every mile down any dead end road
You can tell me every secret that you been keeping
I'll hold it, lock and key
Up with you all night, holding you all night, I never leave
You better believe my love is

Never gonna run dry, never gonna come up empty
Now until the day I die, unconditionally
You know I'm always gonna be here for ya
No one's ever gonna love you more than
God, your mama, and me
God, your mama, and me
Unconditionally
God, your mama, and me

You better believe it, you better believe it
Every step you take, I'll be as sure as your shadow
Every move you make, you know I'm part of you wherever you go
Baby, you know my love is

Never gonna run dry, never gonna come up empty
Now until the day I die, unconditionally
You know I'm always gonna be here for ya
No one's ever gonna love you more than
God, your mama, and me
God, your mama, and me
Unconditionally
God, your mama, and me

God, your mama, and me
God, your mama, and me
Unconditionally
God, your mama, and me

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06:16 Aug 12 2017
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You know it's just nice to have innocent fun.

Thanks for the innocence, laughs and just being cool.

What's sad is some will not leave it with the innocence it was created
and rather "stir" it into a tangled mess that it is not.

Sad for them...

=D

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DragonReborn
DragonReborn
09:02 Aug 15 2017

innocent fun is always good..people to laugh and have a good time with are to be treasured.





 

05:38 Aug 10 2017
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Personal bucket list item ticked off tonight.

Whoa.

This journal is just a memory for ME when I see it...
as that nice gentle reminder.

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DragonReborn
DragonReborn
03:44 Aug 11 2017

always good to mark things off bucket list.
come to think of it ..I need to make one too...lol





 

00:30 Aug 07 2017
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I think I've seen it all now...

I just read something that made me BURST out in hysterical laughter.

OOOHH my GODDDDD

People are stupid.

Period.

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xRobin3x
xRobin3x
00:33 Aug 07 2017

lol





queenofchaos
queenofchaos
01:16 Aug 07 2017

=D





 

06:12 Aug 06 2017
Times Read: 765



Oh! Life's about joy, life's about pain
It's all about forgiving, and the will to walk away
I'm ready to be loved, and love the way I should
Life's about, life's about to get good

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05:45 Aug 06 2017
Times Read: 774



To know and actually appreciate someones time

is a rare trait for some people

To give yourself is the ultimate gift...to give your time is exactly that

But some still don't know how important that is

Or what that actually means/meant.

Tsk tsk

But for those who do...HOLY SHIT

The difference is legit

BLACK + WHITE

(and so welcomed)

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22:37 Aug 04 2017
Times Read: 801



A few days ago...I had to say goodbye for a few weeks to my little man
He's going on a vacation with his Grandparents in their HUGE RV
They're driving to Alberta to see some family, and specifically take him to see a few popular attractions

He was excited to go...

He hasn't been on a vacation like this for a few years, and I'm grateful my parents can
offer this to all of us however sadly I have no vacation time and work 7/7 days a week
and my daughter has only seen my work ethics her entire life, resulting in her working 6/7 days a week
However my little man is having a blast.

I get a text message from him last night... "Salmon and rice with asparagus for supper"
Oh and I HAD to finish the potato salad Grandma made for lunch, it was so good!"

Next text " I'm so stuffed can't move"

Just makes me smile that I have a family I'm proud of.
A family that actually WANTS to be a family
A family that knows the value of time spent
A family that appreciates the little things
A family that grows + learns together

My son is learning so much every minute he gets to spend this QUALITY
1:1 time with his Grandparents

Today's message was "It's so flat out here, can't see a single mountain"
Not only do we love family, but we also love where we're from.

Mountains to me is 'home' and apparently to my son.

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Euphoria
Euphoria
22:44 Aug 04 2017

hope he is enjoying his self with his grandparents





 

06:36 Aug 04 2017
Times Read: 840




Some people just are to kind and generous.

Signed into this tonight...
THANK YOU again for the very kind and generous gift.

*hugs*


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BatsInTheBelphry
BatsInTheBelphry
07:13 Aug 04 2017

thats awesome..ive had that done in the past a few times , not for a year but it was nice





queenofchaos
queenofchaos
07:22 Aug 04 2017

Right? I was blown away!





Euphoria
Euphoria
22:45 Aug 04 2017

that was nice








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