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I am buried in sorrow as hatred burns away my heart

I can't look at you because it keeps tearing me apart

How much longer must we keep playing this game

Everytime we start this it will always end the same



Please stop this

Don't keep doing this to me

Please just stop

Let things be

I don't want to do this anymore



I'm consumed by my regret as I reach this place again

Sometime I know I can win but I'm wondering when

Eventually I know this will end but the end isn't in sight

Someday it will come and I know things will be right



Please stop this

Don't keep doing this to me

Please just stop

Let things be

I don't want to do this anymore



Frustrated and aggravated

Why do we do this to each other?

Why can't we stop this?

Why do we always end up in this place?

I don't want to be here ever again.

As you stand there staring

Shadows weave around the room

The eyes looking back are laughing

Tickled by the terror you show



Do you taste the bitter poison?

Can you see through what you see?

Can you feel that you don't feel

Can you hear your mind laughing?



As the music begins to play

You feel your body start to move

Your imagination has taken the lead

Just relax and follow the steps



Do you taste the bitter poison?

Can you see through what you see?

Can you feel that you don't feel

Can you hear your mind laughing?



It's there in the distance

Something you're searching for

Reach out to take it in your hand

Then watch it fade with the wind



Take a moment to remember where you are

Staring at the ceiling above you

There's nothing else but what's in your head

There lay the severed heads

They lay on seven bloody beds

Cheeks sunk in and pale

Eyes crusted by tears gone stale

Mouths hung open in silent screams

Faces captured in horrifying dreams

Terror laughs in the room

The shadows rise up and loom

No door at the end of the aisle

In a corner the Grim smile

Dancing in the shadows

Avoiding the light

Bare feet in the velvet grass

In and out of sight

Feeling her satin caresses

Embraced by Night

Gripped in the rhythm of darkness

Nothing else feels so right

Bile behind my eyes

Bitter thoughts stirring within

Eating sanity



Author's note: Here's the interesting part, this was inspired by a headache.

Neverland is fading away

No longer will the children delay

They'll grow and then see

Neverland will no longer be



When innocence is gone from this earth

What then will our dreams be worth

When purity says its goodbyes

What then will be in our children's eyes



When we find hate has taken love's place

What then will take our smiles' place

When all that we do is in vain

Will our tears pour on the world like rain

Knife in hand, poised before my pulsing veins. "I can't wait! I want to feel it, to feel the ecstasy of the pain the blade is going to bring. I can't wait to feel the shudders of pleasure." "You shouldn't be doing this, it's not good. Just go do something to keep you occupied." The voices going back and forth, urging me forward or offering caution. In my heart I feel a sadistic smile spreading in anticipation, in my heart this is what I want. I've decided the first voice is the winner. I gasp slightly as the blade seperates my skin, pulling the beautiful crimson water from my body. My body shudders and my eyes roll back, I can feel myself smiling and my brain numbs ever so little. The fire of the beast inside flares, my lust, desire, and aggression burning within. The fire spreads to my fingertips and sings along every inch of my skin in unbearable pleasure. That much is almost like an orgasm but more and less. For that moment all I need is me and a knife, the only cost is a scar. Such beautiful gratification.

How can you tell me that I'm not lost inside

Have you ever taken a ride inside my mind

How can you tell me that it's alright to hide

Have you ever been where nobody can find



I'm not really here

I'm not really there

I'm not nothing at all

But I'm not really anything



Why can't you see the hole inside of me

Have you never felt you were lost to the pain

Why can't you hear the screams I set free

Have you never done every thing in vain



I'm not really lost

I'm not really found

I'm not all the way gone

But I'm not really anywhere



What is this that is consuming my heart

Have you ever been into the unending pit

What reason is there for me to fall apart

Have you ever in your life thought that this is it



I'm not really here

I'm not really there

I'm not really lost

I'm not really found

But I know I must be somewhere