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Somebody I know, one of the faculty at my school, has asked me to do a reading for them. I agreed, but I'm a little nervous about it. I've done readings for a couple of family members and a friend or two, but I'm nowhere near to being an expert. I've never done one at request like this. I'm looking forward to it as much as I'm nervous about it, it's a new step.

I went and bought a notebook today to start what will basically be a b.o.s. I hate using that term simply because it feels so poserish, but there it is. I realized that there are things that I do or practice that will be useful to write down, and that feels the most right and practical way to record it all to me. Mostly, it's going to contain detailed information on some of the meditations I perform. It will also have various recipes and what few spells I ever use. Who knows, maybe it will someday be something worth passing on to whatever progeny I may spawn.

So far, my experience has been that negative experiences outweigh positive experience in both number and potency. I've never let this stop me though. I've been determined that things would eventually get better or something would come along that would make it all worth it. I've gone through a couple phases of despair, but I've always made it through and landed on my feet. Also, everytime I reach the end of my rope, something happens or I come upon something that helps me hold un just a bit longer. I always remind myself in those times that things can't get better for me if I'm not around.



Lately, I've been happy. I've awakened to find there are thigns in my life worth living for. People really. There are people that I don't want to leave behind, it would be wrong. I'm happy to have them in my life, and I hope that my presence is like that for them.



Something you should keep in mind is this: Life is like a party. If you don't like it, you don't have to stay.

Personally, I plan to stick around a while and see what fun there is to be had.