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Fuck this world and fuck this life

Fuck this dull fucking knife

Fuck time as it runs out

Fuck everyone I don’t care about

Fuck these cuts on my wrist

Fuck you because I’m pissed

Fuck the blood leaving my veins

Fuck it all I feel no more pain



This is not literal but it popped into my head so I wrote it. Wow, it sounds a little Dr. Seuss-ish.

Struck down and fettered with burden

Life just isn't what I want it to be

But I am alive and have life to live

Things to do and places to go



So I dance on

Spinning out and about

Letting the rain soak through

Alive and living



A world and a life are before me

What I will I can achieve in time

I just have to ever keep striving

To take the world and make it mine



So I dance on

Spinning out and about

Letting the rain soak through

Alive and living

One little cut

Just to ease the pain

Feels so good

Lets a little go

Before I know it

Six more lines

Blood running from my wrists

I fucked up this time

No turning back

As I fade from this world

I sigh

Content at last

A sigh of eternity

Like a scream calling

A sound of longing

Begging to be seen

Hi hello goodbye

Anything at all

So I know I stll exist

Pain I keep inviting

Torture uninviting

Yet I can't keep from it

I'm so tired of this shit

What to do

Poking my heart

The wound of breaking apart

Like playing with a bruise

But it's not pain I can use

I'm just ready to heal

To be rid of the pain I feel

Yet like a joke

I give it another poke

He puts the gun to his head

Then cocks the hammer back

One last breath

One last attempt to reach out

She gently grabs the gun

Holding the hammer tight

She smiles at him and casts it aside

Giving him strength to keep going a little longer



Sometimes you don't know how much just being there for someone can mean.

I hear her cry out with delight

Writhing and moaning

Her legs begin to spasm

She arches her back

Tilting back her head she screams

I feel her dripping down my hips

I reach out and hold her close

With agility I roll her over

Her screams increase as I go faster

Each stroke taking me closer

Just a little longer

I feel it in my loins

A burning and tensing

I begin to go

Throbbing as I push in deeper

As I finish she wraps her legs tight

Pulling me deep inside

One last scream

Of total ecstasy

Walking in the night

Living between the shadows

A life not alive

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Joli
10:20 Feb 22 2008

Breathtaking. Basho would be proud.

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He lays there dying

Bleeding out upon the ground

A soul impaled upon a blade

The cutting edge of abandonment

The cold steel of adamant loss

Forged with the fire of regret

Shaped by the hand of longing

Rising he stands his ground

Taking the blade from his chest

It was placed there by a friend

And he stands for them

The friend who cut him

Without intent of injury

Pushed to the edge by him

Turned on him for both their good

He steps forward

Awakened like the phoenix

A fierce eternal friend

Nothing changes nor ever will

So I down another pill

It makes the world fade away

And everything seems ok

It makes me fell alright

So I don't cry myself to sleep each night

I hole you close though you’re nowhere near

I keep you in my heart and in my mind

Eternity could not take this from me

My existence will be devoted to you

Death, damnation, life nor frustration may end this

In my last hours my heart will beat for you

In the ones between it will long for you

You are my reason for being

The only thing worth existing for

If I die having done nothing but show you that

I would die without regretting one thing

All that I desire for life matters not

You are the ace that trumps it all

You my love are my perfect cherry blossom

Look at me and you will see it

I am one who will always be there

Shut me out and hold me at bay but I’ll stay

Refuse to believe the words I speak but I won’t be deterred

If words do not show than my actions will explain

I will live for you and if it comes to it I’ll die for you

You are all that I am

My tears are falling

My fears are calling

I’m running for the edge

A cliff of eternal discontent

Let me fall…



Abandoned by you

Staying close by

You left without leaving

A burning ice left in my soul



My heart is pounding

My voice is soundin

My breath is failing me

Silence closes onto my life

Let it fail…



Abandoned by you

Staying close by

You left without leaving

A burning ice left in my soul



My hope is ending

My will is bending

I’m soaring to the sky

A world before me as I die

Let me fly…



Abandoned by you

Staying close by

You left without leaving

A burning ice left in my soul

The bitter truth so clear

Never together we stand

Such unforgiving wind blowing in my heart

Echoing through the hollow place

A forlorn melody reverberating in my soul

Loneliness and separation are it’s refrain

It crescendos in such horrid despair

It’s finale is the devastating end

The crashing of my battered heart

It fades with the falling of my tears

I couldn't help writing this so I logged back on to post it. Don't take it at face value. You know better.



This love

This love

It’s killin’ me

This love

This love

Is driving me insane



Oh let it end

Set me free from life

Save me from this hell

I can’t take much more



One more

One more

Breath to the end

One more

One more

Day til I break



Oh let it end

Set me free from life

Save me from this hell

I can’t take much more



My heart

My heart

Screaming to die

My heart

My heart

Is falling to pieces



Oh let it end

Set me free from life

Save me from this hell

I can’t take much more

So much in my mind

Beauty unrefined

Limits undefined

Words aligned

And realities designed

Sights like no kind

All in my mind

Love is being willing to sacrifice everything for them.

Love is putting yourself through hell just to see them smile.

Love is being happy for them even though it kills you.

Love is going without sleep to be there for them.

Love is putting them before yourself no matter what.