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"Ahhh well I can tell you the online persona is the same person I am off now how I got to be that person is a little less simple. This is probably going to be TMI but don't say I didn't warn you :P



I was born and raised in Alaska until my parents divorce which eventually landed us in Eastern Washington where I quickly became the girl that was always in trouble at home and in school, for....talking too much, maybe more like talking back at home, imagine that *winks*. I remember in Kindergarden being made to sit in front of the class with what was called the "mums rag" (I think this was my teachers rendition of 'mums the word') placed under my chin and tied on top of my head to keep me from being able to open my mouth. Good lord. This happened at least once a week. Shameless I was. I guess some things never change hehe.



Things weren't always easy at home I won't go into the ugliness of it all, and after a few Foster homes I ended out on my own at age 15. Bounced around until I found myself homeless and pregnant at age 17, got married then divorced by age 19 with two children and no clue as to what I was doing. So I did something smart and constructive for the first time in my life and enrolled in College. I majored in Business Administration, minored in Art History.



I come from a family of artists, my mother was incredibly talented, her paintings and murals were things of great beauty, she could capture the very essence of her subjects, they came alive under her hand. My aunt owned an art gallery and was a painter as well. So it was only natural that I would pick up the brush, the charcoal, the clay, other such mediums. I was fortunate enough to work for a renowned artist, Ralph Crawford, I started off modeling and moved to pewter, making our own paper for sculpted paintings and then bronze. It was an inspiring time in my life.



After a few kids later and a second marriage all that kind of fell apart. In 2004 I had a major stroke. I was in the ICU for several weeks. Paralyzed on my right side, no ability to move, no language (Aphasia), I had lost my vocabulary entirely. I had to learn how to walk and talk all over again. But a fighter and after many hours of sweat and tears I pulled through. I never regained full use of my right hand so now I am a lefty and you know why I'm not the fastest typer HA!



I'm not telling you these things to pity me nor to garnish attention. It's to show you a little glimpse of what molded who I am today. The controversial Pandora of VR, I'm argumentive, stubborn and passionate. Some will say I am difficult. I speak my mind and tell it like it is. I refuse to conform to someone elses beliefs or give up my own just to comply. Not gonna happen.



I am flawed in so many ways and I am continuosly learning lifes little lessons. I'm an uber girly-girl, pink is my favorite color you can tell by looking in my closet, all three of them lol, I am a make-up whore, Sephora owns me at this point I think heh and I don't own a single pair of sweats or T-shirts. I love deeply and I laugh loudly, isn't that what this life is about? What I am saying is that in the end I am TRUE TO MYSELF. And that gives me some comfort".

"Well that depends on what we are talking about there missy, *looks over at Pinja* hush you :P



I'm pretty much an open book. Sometimes that's a good thing, other times, ehhh not so much. My trusting nature has gotten me in trouble more times than I can say. I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve. Sometimes I wish I were more guarded but then I wouldn't be me".

"WHAT" else would be books. I read every single day. I love to curl up on the corner of the couch, maybe a glass of chardonnay, soft music in the background and a really good book in my hands. I get to live in someone elses creation for awhile and everything else around me just fades away.



"WHO" is even easier. My five wonderful children. I have four boys and one daughter. It wasn't easy raising all of those children and mostly on my own, there were some tough times but we all managed to live through it all and I'm pretty proud of how they turned out. They are all grown up and on their own save my youngest who is just about 11 *wipes brow*. I also have five equally wonderful grandchildren. I'm blessed ♥.



Can't forget my romeo now can we? Most of you know the story and maybe more than you would like to know lol. ThePinja and I met on VR, long lingering conversations into the wee hours on the phone and a month later we met in person. It was fireworks, in more ways than one *See rollercoaster reference. Then my romeo made a big decision, quit his job, packed up his things and said his goodbyes, to move in with me in another state. We have had some major crisis in our relationship, I won't sugarcoat it and I have written about it freely in my Journal. Right now we are just taking things one day at a time".

"Oh PAGAN such a naughteh naughteh girl, why I have no idea what you are referring to? *bats eyes*. There is nothing slow about me or what I like for the record lol. Slow is just too tame for me. My life has been one big roller coaster, the anticipation, the fear, the thrill, the let down, just to do it all over again".

"Lord knows I have had all kinds of personalities in my Coven, diversity is a given here, I am very forthright and I think that helps my members to just be themselves. CCD thrives on an environment where anything goes and I do mean anything hehe. Your point of view is welcome here just give it with a good dose of respect. We want members that are a lil' crazy and you can't be uptight that's for sure :)

"Actually I put the bug in his ear when I saw that a possible opening was coming up I dropped him a message letting him know that I would be honored to be considered for the position. And voila'.



I can't tell you how much I love being a Procurator. Maybe the fact that between all of my profiles I have added over 7000 items to the Database myself since being a member here gives an indication *smiles*. The Database is a treasure trove, it's exciting to get to see all the new things firsthand that members submit. I have added new authors to my "must reads" this way and have purchased some pretty cool items listed there. So keep em' coming guys!"

"Honestly, it took me awhile to learn this but leveling up shouldn't become all you think or worry about here. I fell into that trap for some time, mostly because of my competitive nature and tunnel vision. Nothing wrong with leveling just remember to take the time to have fun and get to know the other members, try to stay positive to get the most out of the site. Enjoy being around others of like-mindedness.



Now, with that aside I'd reccomend rating ALL the databases, members forget that there are three different Databases you can rate, it gives you rates, pages viewed and time spent. Database submissions are now worth double and are the basis of the Dark Network. Rate profiles and ports, once again you get rates, time and pages plus most members will return the rate. Just stay active and it will come".

"*smiles* If you are asking about the screen name it came from Buffy the Vampire Slayer TV show. I was searching vampires as I was watching the show where Willow had turned toward the darker powers. It fits me. And 39 was my age at the time I joined my first social site known as Vampire Rave.



If you ask who I am in real life? *shrugs* I am who my life has made me. I am a single soon to be 45 year old woman who enjoys life. I love my family and close friends, and try my best to treat people as I would want to be treated. I have good days, bad days, fun days and sad days. I am like every other person, nothing special at all. I am one of the most normal persons you could meet. Really, you would walk right by me in person. And I don't mind that in the least. *grins, winks* "

"Oh gods! I have no idea how that vacation joke has turned into this. *laughs* It started with Birdy (Elemental on the site) and I giving each other the names. Birdy was given to her due to her 'calling' like a baby bird about me getting out of my bed to go get her breakfast before the hotel stop serving. Notice I had brought her food every morning but the one day I slept in on our vacation.



Rat was given to me when I would woke her up making noise as I was getting dress before dawn for those 9 wonderful days to watch the sunrise on the beach. I made a lot of noise like a big rat, waking her every morning. *giggles* Can you tell we are best friends? Then Cat (Nightgame) picked her own.



Then it got into VR and bloomed. *hands going wide* House Eternal active members got names, and a few friends outside of the House were tagged too. People picked their names, the animals they wanted to be. It has gotten so bad that I try to send messages to 'Bunnie' 'Otter' 'Birdy' 'Cat' and the system keeps telling me there is no such member on VR. And I tell the screen "Yes there is, damn you". *laughs*"

"Damn! you are good at this, ask all the hard questions...Give me a second! *closes her eyes, smiles, opens her eyes* It was one hell of a way to start the new year... He asked me New Years day, and I after reading his message, telling me the who, when, where and what of the events the last line was something like "Would you like to take over the House?" I was stunned. I sat and finally sent back (and this makes me cringe to remember) "Why yes! yes I would". *gives herself a palm slap to her forehead* How stupid was that? *laughs* But what does it mean to me? It means that the love I have for the site has come through. It means he expects me to keep the rules enforced, while letting members be who they are. It means he trusts me and that means more then I could ever say to him. And I would probably screw up that message anyway. *smile widens*"

"HELL NO! *laughs* It is a lot of work, damn it. I had no idea how much these people did, and Cancer doesn't tell ya about that part either. They have their hands in all of VR, keep this place running. I myself am just staying busy with spammers, trying to keep them under control. It really has blown my mind at the work they put into the site. As do the Regent, Consuls, Dominars, Procurators, Sentorans. It really is a big machine that takes a lot of hands to keep running smoothly. And I love being part of that team".

" I would have to say the Web Cams. I enjoy the ones where people are doing things, like cooking. I wish more folks would do this kind of educational casting. I mean - who would not watch a werewolf showing you how they trim their fur? Or a zombie making some brain stew? Or a vampire showing you how you get that sparkle just right? Come on folks - teach us something damn it. Web Cams are not just for drama. *winks, smiles* That was said tongue in check, in case you didn't notice".

"Ohhh laugh about that, why don't ya. *joins in the laughter* I started it after my Father died. I had a long talk with Cat about it and I think I use it as a sort of therapy. I have always love ghost, the unknown, the darker side of life. Stepping into a dark, musky wet old building is as close as I would want to come to it. It is that first step into the unknown, the darkness that makes your heart race. You don't know what you will find, if someone is in the building, if there is illegal activate going on. Then add the mold, the rotted wood floors, stairways that might or might not hold your weight! *shrugs* It makes you feel alive. And the photos I come out with, in my eyes, are beautiful. Decay should be as much a part of life as the lovely field of flowers. I enjoy seeing both sides, seeing what is coming in my own life. Facing death in a way, using dying buildings in this case. It is what I need in my life right now, and I harm no one so it is what I do.



Scared? Uhh? yeah. *grins* But Cat usually goes with me. Let me correct myself - she goes and sits in the car, reading a book. Which I am damn lucky she does since we usually are at these locations at dawn. But I know if she hears me fall, a floor collapse, or me screaming, she is going to pick up that cell phone and within minutes I will be surrounded by police, ambulance, fire men. *grins* And I can just see her screaming into the building "I called 911! The police will be here in a minute. Oh - I got bail money on the way, called your sister too. And by the way- Are WE HAVING FUN YET!?" I swear I can just hear that tone she gets, just thinking what she would do. Then she would call Birdy and I would be glad I was in jail so I could not hear her comments. *laughs*"

"Oh no, they support me. Cat goes with me and even understands why I do it. Birdy has found me several places to explore so she helps. I just think they both think it is a little crazy to do it, take the risk. But they love me, and know it makes me happy. My own family has always supported anything I did in life, just hopes I am taking all the steps I can to be safe, which I do. I have backed out of places that just didn't feel right.



And as far as if I have been caught for trespassing - not at this time. But keep watching, sure it will happen. *winks, grins* I just hope it is a security guard or a cop I can talk my way out of it. *cross fingers*"

"That is another great question. Let me think... Taylor Swift in drag queen makeup. Why? Just because she is always so young looking on her makeup. Jamie Lee Curtis. Why? Because she stands for woman to look their age, be who we are, beauty is more then wrinkle free smooth skin. The old movie stars like Audrey Hepburn, Mae West and... Oh this list could go on and on. But I have never done makeup on a male and would love to. I also would love to have a model with different eye color then my own dull brown".

"Before you go - I want to Thank You for asking me to do this interview. I have enjoyed the insights they bring to the members you have interviewed, and honored you asked me. Hope you keep these up Pagan".