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NO MATTER WHAT I TRY TO DO

I'LL NEVER BE GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU

YOU ALWAYS MANAGE TO GET UNDER MY SKI

YOU MAKE IT VERY CLEAR TO ME THAT I WILL NEVER WIN

I'M NOT SURE ABOUT ANYTHING EXCEPT FOR THE FACT THAT I HATE YOU



NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO I WILL ALWAYS HATE YOU

BECAUSE EVERYTHING YOU DO MAKES ME HATE YOU

CAN'T YOU SEE I REALLY HATE YOU



YOU SEEM TO GET PLEASURE FROM SEEING ME FAIL

WHY DON'T YOU JUST DIE AND GO TO HELL

WHY DO YOU LIKE TO BREAK ME DOWN AND SEE ME CRY

YOU MANAGE TO MAKE ME HATE MYSELF AND WANT TO DIE

I'M NOT SURE ABOUT ANYTHING EXCEPT FOR THE FACT THAT I HATE YOU



YOU TRY YOUR HARDEST TO MAKE ME FEEL LIKE I DON'T BELONG

AND YOU ALWAYS MAKE IT LOOK LIKE WHATEVER I DO IS ALL WRONG

YOU ALWAYS SEEM TO CUT ME DEEPER THAN THE TIME BEFORE

PRETTY SOON I'LL BE DEAD AND LYING COLD ON THE FLOOR

I'M NOT SURE ABOUT ANYTHING EXCEPT FOR THE FACT THAT I HATE YOU



NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO I WILL ALWAYS HATE YOU

BECAUSE EVERYTHING YOU DO MAKES ME HATE YOU

CAN'T YOU SEE I REALLY HATE YOU



YOU DON'T SEEM TO BE ASHAMED FOR HURTING ME

AND YOU MAKE ME FEEL LIKE I'LL NEVER SUCCEED IN WHAT I WANT TO BE

THE WOUNDS YOU KEEP GIVING ME WILL NEVER HEAL

AND I REALLY HATE THE WAY THE MAKE ME FEEL

I'M NOT SURE ABOUT ANYTHING EXCEPT FOR THE FACT THAT I REALLY HATE YOU



I HATE YOU SO MUGH

I REALLY DO

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XannaMorte19
20:31 Nov 01 2008

Def some strong feelings girl... i feel your hate through the poem .

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pale corpse in a tight corset

slowly walking towards the white light

her skin so transparent against the dark skies night

the moon curves casting a shadow behind her

roaming endlessly,

until the sun rises

dawn shall never wake

apocolypse fo her life

little does she know

up from underneath,

the soil so frigid against her once scarlet cheeks

rain pours on the restless soul

staring into a mirror, she realizes she's no so here

sweet taste of refreshing memories linger upon her lips

scars tell a story of the life she once resided in

to feel the sunshine one last time,

she would give anything

her last breath filled with selfish regrets

wishing to take back those tears she once wept

broken promises you musn't forget

punctured hope, filled with un-repariable holes

her body now torn and cold

lying below the surface,

but no one knows

her fingers broken from the momentum,

of the struggle she fought

claw marks engraved in the old wooden coffin

she begins to erode like rocks to sand

rain drops roll of the edge of her hand

she is gone but no one turns a second glance

the name, the date, but no one's dedicate

the solid grey stong covered in hate

her mind tangled in the rays of the sun,

feelings are relieved, now she is numb

time dosen't answer questions,

but can release angry tensions

all her mistakes and wrong path decidins and buried now

no one visits, no one mourns, no one missies the quiet one

even when they're gone

but there i stand upon her grave,

knowing that she is saved

blood stains cover my hands,

satisfied knowing she's no longer in pain

So you think you can tell Heaven from Hell

blue skies from pain

can you tell a green field from a cold steel vein

a smile from a veil?

do you think you can tell?

and did you trade your heors for ghosts?

hot ashes for trees?

hot air for a cool breeze?

cold comfort for change?

and did you excange a walk for a part in the war...

for a lead role in a cage??

how i wish, how i wish i were here

we're just two lost soulds swimming in a fish bowl,

year after year, month after month

running over the same old ground

what have we found? the same old fears!!

wish you were here..

From dehumanization to arms production,

for the benefit of the nation or it's destruction

power, power, the law of the land

those living for death will die by their own hand

life's no ordeal if you come to terms

reject the system dictating the norms

it's your choice, your choice, your choice, your choice

peace or annihilation

i've walked so many miles

trying to find out why

why you got inside

what makes you so different

so different from them

why do you seem special to me?

because every night i cry for you

i want to hold you here with me

tell me you feel the same, that you lied

it hurts to know that my dreams are lies

it's hard to realize when i open my eyes

cause i still see you as just mine

it's a sobbing, choking, pain in my chest

that i love you more than the rest

feeling what she felt

she walked into the bathroom and knelt

down on her knees, she slumpt to the floor

slowly reaching up to lock the door

she pulled out the blade

that caused her to fade

in and out of reality

while losing sight of the lack of hospatlity

she made a tight fist as she slashed her wrist

the tears in her eyes

came as a suprise

because she cut everyday

but she felt more sorrow for today

but little did she know

fore as the blood began to seep

and before she drifted off unto a sound sleep

she realized she cut too deep

and her heart would never again beat

love can be sweet

and love can be toture

this love is toture

ti's my sweet misery

i love you, but i hate you

i hate the fact that you don't care

i hate myself for even caring

it wasn't supposed to be like this

sweet misery is what i'm thinking

love is sweet yet toture

i miss you, and your not really here

your just gone, just confusing

i don't wanna worry anymore

sometimes i love you

sometimes i hate you

sometimes i can't stand to face you

sometimes i laugh

sometimes i cry

sometimes it's your fault you can't deny

sometimes you love me

sometimes you hate me

sometimes i refues to let you work me

sometimes i look at you

sometimes you don't notice

sometimes i love you too

sometimes you know it

sometimes you hurt me

sometimes i'm there

sometimes i think you don't care

somtimes i frown

somtimes i lie

someday i could probe to myself that your a lie

-one day you'll turn around and see that i'm not there, you'll chase me but i'll desert you...just like you've done to me



-there in the bathroom lays a young girl

wrist all bloody

dying on a bathroom floor

she was daddy's little girl and mommy's little angel



- your the blood that's on my hand when i'm screaming that i killed for love



-my cuts.my scares.my memories. my addiction



- you be my savior and i'll be your downfall...



- my eyes seal the fate of my soul

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XannaMorte19
20:33 Nov 01 2008

Wow.

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-one day you'll turn around and see that i'm not there, you'll chase me but i'll desert you...just like you've done to me



-there in the bathroom lays a young girl

wrist all bloody

dying on a bathroom floor

she was daddy's little girl and mommy's little angel



- your the blood that's on my hand when i'm screaming that i killed for love



-my cuts.my scares.my memories. my addiction



- you be my savior and i'll be your downfall...



- my eyes seal the fate of my soul

now i spend every night lying awake

tears in my eyes

i'm awake from this nightmare

the dream of you and me

over forever

the i realized

my wish will never come true

i don't know what to fucking say

just stay out of my fucking way

i'm not here to fucking play

if it weren't for work i wouldn't fucking stay

you playin with me like i'm fucking clay

the more you fucking act, the more i fucking hate

stop trying to make me fucking late

because your attitude is more that i can fucking take

i really don't know what went fucking wrong

but you still singing that same old fucking song

till i kill you, it won't be fucking long

i'm sick of you, and your fucking mom

and hearing about your dead fucking dad

your lucky you were even fucking had

and now your talking because your fucking sad

just shut up before you make me fucking mad

that girl you left for , i hope you fucking glad

and now you expect sympathy from me

kiss my fucking ass

let me remind you, let me take you fucking back

well i'm not the one with the problem and your fits

you asked to use her fucking phone

i laughed when she said fuck no

it was one of the best moments

and i fucking hope you see she's playin you

she's got your fucking neck on a rope

you just can't see the situation

but this kind of thing takes determmination

which will not give, waste my time on who?

just fucking know that she's playing you!

playin you out like a fucking wal-mar toy!

and you don't know? what fucking little boy!

you said you loved me

you said you would hold me

you said you would protect me

you said nobody would take me away from you

you said you could make my heart skip a beat

you said you would always be thee for me

you said you would stand up for me

you said you would treat me like a human

you said you would always love me

you said you would never leave me

you said you would never cheat

you said you'd always be honest

you lied

what am i to you

am i an angel with two broken wings

or maybe i'm a demon who was meant for so much better things

i'm so confused

i don't know wheither or not i'm doing well

because i'm trapped between Heaven and Hell

maybe i'm and angel who is filled with a passion for anger and hate

or am i a demon who's just trying to get into Heaven's gate

i'm so confused

i really don't know how to tell

if i belong in Heaven or Hell

am i like an Angel without a heart

or am i a demond who just wants a clean start

i'm so confused

i don't know wheither or not i'm doing well

because i'm trapped between Heaven and Hell

my love, you have fosaken me,

undergone a vile transformation and have lost your innocence

you have sold you soul and have been tainted black

i don't know you anymore

i saw the evil flicker in your eyes,

not at all their golden shimmer.

i noticed how pointy and sharp your new found fangs have become

then you proceeded toward me and i learned that i was doomed

or perhaps not

you looked blood thirsty, i could tell

from the way you licked your lips

you cocked your head and opened your moth

and embraced the flesh on my neck

i didn't feel much pain from the bite

i felt more pain from knowing it was you

after you walked awya, i stalked you with a stoker

hoping to smash what was left of you

gripping that stoker tighter

i searched for you more and more

relctant to grab my destiny

nothing ever goes my way,

or atleast that's how it seems.

i'll just take some pills to sleep,

so i can have you in my dreams.

there's always someone else,

so it never could be me.

i'll always be one mistake from perfect,

i just wish that you could see.

so don't act like you love me,

unless you really do.

you don't know what could happen,

i just might fall for you.

so now i'm falling faster,

i'm lost and can't be found.

i wish someone would stop me,

before i hit the ground.

i want to be the perfect girl w/ the smile on her face



prancing around net a hair out of place



i want to be the girl everybody looks upto



handing out advice, what to say, what to do



i want to be the girl that all the parents talk about



i want to be the girl w/ the gorgeous bf by my side



and we'll talk and we'll laugh and in him i'll confide



i want to be the girl who can grin at her reflection



who doesn't pinpoint every flaw keeping her from perfection