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The day is approaching faster and faster. For some reason this year is going to be harder for me than the day it actually happened. It's so hard to believe that it's almost been three years, but when I think of everything happened yesterday. We weren't really close, but I still miss her. What would life be like if it never did happen? Would life be hell or would I feel better than I do now? I know I wouldn't feel guilty, or like anything was my fault because of my stupid childish thoughts. I'm such a stupid kid to wish that upon anyone!

I post things so I can express myself.

It also a way so I don't do something that I'll wish I never did.

Then people comment them.

I love that part because I get to see things from another point of view.

It helps me understand and see things in more than just one way.

But sometimes people don't really see what it is that I am really talking about.

I may say one thing that could refer to something like death,

When really it could mean something totally different.

I know that I often have things that I've written that may sound depressing,

But it's a way that helps me remove what ever emotion it is that is bringing me down at that time and moment.

But no matter what was said about what ever I had written,

I've very glad to know that someone people are willing to share their opinions and even help teach me some things.

So thank you all who do.

It's appreciated very much so.

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therealthing
03:31 Jun 19 2009

AWWWWWWW

huggles.................

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hisdarkestdream
07:31 Jun 30 2009

Writing is a great way to express yourself, which of course you already know. lol. If you ever need someone to talk to or vent to just let me know. I'll listen and help in any way that I can.

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I feel all alone.

So alone.

Even though I know that I am not.

Death crawls its way into my thoughts.

I want to take my razor and slowly draw on my skin

Leaving burgundy all over myself.

To sleep forever in a well rested place.

I don't want my wounds to stop talking.

But to keep talking until there is nothing left.

For all of the blood in my veins to run dry.

I try screaming at the top of my lung to feel something.

Anything.

But I only feel nothing.

I just want to know that everything that will be alright.

And to feel alive,

Not wishing to be dead.

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therealthing
04:26 Jun 18 2009

Well, it seems we need to chat my dear.

Suicide is not what you think, and certainly is not the answer. When I was 6 years old, I saved my mother's life when she overdosed on drugs, on purpose. She was angry with me for not letting her die. I told her, she was selfish and that it wasn't right. She let her emotions make decisions for her. Feel with your spirit my dear. Don't hold your heart out for it to be trampled upon.I commented on your other stuff with some information that might help.

In my culture, if you commit suicide you go to a limbo where you just have to wait to come back. That would SUCK !!! So, just find your spirit and don't spend so much time on love and emotions.

And being dead is not what you think. It is not he easy way out. You will still have to explain yourself on the other side. You have been given a gift of life and time, and you better hope that you have enough of both to get it right, to get out with the information that you came for in the first place. Each day is a gift and you should cherish every breath as if it were your last !!!!!!!!!!!!

If you want to talk, just stop by my place.

=]

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hisdarkestdream
07:34 Jun 30 2009

I have to agree 100% with threalthing. Suicide isn't the answer. Life is test that we have to take. You can live it and take the Final Exam and see that it was worth it and I believe you will do just that.

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