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Do you think I give a shit what you think of me. I use to listen to all what you had to say when I was just a girl, but now the anger that you creatated in me has just been unleashed. You put me down .....dragged me in the mud. I have no dignity.....nothing is left. So now the price that you will pay ...will make me laugh into my grave. The pain will now begin with tieing you up with chains...... the first horror now begins. Cut slowly to make you feel what I felt for years inside. Making you into nothing, that is something you don't even deserve.......So much hurt. Who would I have been, if not for you I could of been something ....anything. Now look at me so alone .....so afraid. I just need someone to hold me .... to touch me ....to make me feel like I'm loved, for someone to know where I came from. But no there's no one out there like that for me, everybody just closed minded ...caring about nothing but themselves. Such a world we live in so much sickness. No more hell for me because that hell is bleeding and in pain in front of me. So this is the end my friend because my anger just got unleashed.

It slides down my throat , so sweet ...so needing I can't stop myself for wanting more. In every veissal it always taste so different. I slush it around in my mouth to keep the taste there.....I never want it to go away. But then theres nomore left from where i got it. My mind screams at me to get more.....I need more. So here I am look for another to tame my thirst ...but i know it wouldn't be enough to sate its hunger, because the sweet warm blood is so.......addicting.

I look at my father and say who are you? What have you done with my real father? I see nothing but death in his eyes, slowly i see his soul disappearing from him. I've watched him not eat for months.....only him sticking that needle in his arm over and over again. He saids he can't stop that it's like a freight train going through his veins ....so intense .... so needed. If he stops he might die from the withdrawal of it. I look at him once ..... good bye father forever... then i walk away ..... and say my father is no more alive to me.

Push me here, pull me there, tell me what to do, don't allow me to do anything, scream at me, put me down, pretend that i don't exist, I'm here to do things for everyone ...never myself. Throw things at me, bossy me around....no feelings are left to care anymore. Just here to please everyone ......darkness and emtiness are what is left, nomore of me .... slowly giving up. so push me and pull me don't matter nomore cause I am not here in my soul ....anymore.....anymore!!

I see it dripping down my arms wondering what happened. don't seem to matter anymore. Nothing but sadness in me, don't feel anything ....why I ask myself why, what happen in my life how did I end here, I was post to do better things, going places, see people, be someone, have people remember me to love me, to need me but look at me I wasted my life and now I watch the blood going down my arms with no one here .....alone in my mind, my soul.....here comes the darkness ....slowly I fade ......then theres nothing .....nothing but darkness.

Tears go down her face ...... she looks up to see the dawn coming like death. Brightening the sky burning the mildew out of the air. So quiet is the time of the rising sun so still of her black heart.The beauty of death awaiting for her.She stands there and welcomes her death, fire burns within her, she screams at first but then theres nothing left to scream. Only ashes are blowing away with the wind with her peace at last.