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Even though I didn't go out, didn't have a party, and didn't have a single drop of alcohol, it's been a great night. Sure, it was everything opposite of what New Years normally is, but I got to ring in the New Year with the two people I love the most. This is the first time that both of my boys have managed to stay awake to see the ball drop, even though they were exhausted. I'm so proud of them!



So now, as I wind down, with both boys snuggled in their beds, I can hear the fireworks going off in the distance. I almost didn't log back in to VR, but I wanted to write about tonight while it was still fresh in my mind.



You know, I don't regret not going out, not having a party, or not having a single drop of alcohol. Nope, quite the opposite actually. This has been the best New Years Eve I've ever had. It's a happy New Year indeed!

2007 has been a rough year for me. I moved to a new state, leaving behind 99% of my family, and all of my friends. Even after 5 months, I don't know anyone here. I've felt lonely, and afraid. Felt like I had hit rock bottom. To top that off, I still haven't been able to find a job here.



This last week of the year has made it even worse. We've had another ice storm, when the tree is still down in the front yard from the last one. And our oven broke friday night, sending out sparks and flames. I thought the house was going to catch on fire! It will be Wednesday before they'll even send anyone out to look at it, even though I called first thing Saturday morning. Now you tell me, how do you make an appropriate New Years dinner without an oven???



But no matter how bad it got, my friends here have been there for me, to cheer me up and make me smile. I can't narrow it down to one person, because there are 3. They have made my life much more enjoyable than it would have been if I didn't know them. They have made it bearable when I didn't think I'd be able to make it through. The only thing I can offer in return is my friendship, my loyalty and my trust. Somehow, it doesn't seem like enough. I doubt it will ever feel like enough. After all, how do you return that much kindness?



For the three of you, I would give you all that you could ever want, all that you could ever need, if I were capable of doing so. I would give you my last dollar and the shirt off my back, if ever you needed them. No matter what, I will always be here for you guys.



Thank you all, for being my strength when I couldn't carry on. For being the ledge I could grasp on to when I felt myself falling. For being my light in a world of darkness. I could never thank you enough, for being the people you are.



(Part of this was swiped from a reply message I sent to a dear friend. Some of it has been reworded a little, to make it more fitting for my journal. The rest has been added as an afterthought. Yes, you recognized it. :P)